The Sound of Tears

Wondered

"bi, please make coffee for my husband yes.later put it on his desk, because I am still busy taking care of work at the office" said mom and then went to his desk.

"good madam.. "

"non Shella wait a minute, non, auntie wants to make coffee first" bi Siska told me.

"iya bi, oh yes bi. What if now I just tell mama about my departure tomorrow?" I said, trailing behind our housekeeper.

Then bi Siska leaned towards the working room of mama.

"it looks like the mistress is still busy non, if not just fitting aunt inter-drinking sir, auntie sayin deh non, how?"

"mmmm..good idea it's bi"

"alright non, aunt wants to go ahead first yes non" said bi Siska while carrying a tray containing a cup of coffee for papa.

Meanwhile I went back to the room while waiting for news from bi Siska, somehow I became afraid to tell this news to my parents, especially when I saw they were busy taking care of work.

I opened a large pink closet that was deliberately placed in the corner of the room, then I grabbed a suitcase from inside.

One by one I began to arrange clothes and other items into the suitcase.

Not long after that my phone rang.

"Hallo" I said as I answered the call.

"Hallo Shel, it's Karina"

"yes what is Kar? got the plane ticket? "

" Usah Shel, the scheduled departure of the plane at ten in the morning, so around eight we have gathered at the airport"

"okay Kar, by the way who paid for the plane ticket? I have not given money to buy tickets" I said.

"oh that, there was a campus party who came to my boarding house.giv this ticket, he said this is a special ticket for us from the campus" Karina replied innocently.

"you are calm, what is important tomorrow we go to Padang, I also want to see the atmosphere there Shel" said Karina excitedly.

"hmmm.." I was pensive for a moment.

"Shels... Shella.. ya have why diem aja"

"oh. uh. yes Kar"

"you why Shel? how is diem? hayo... think what? mmm must have thought of Hendrick's brother yes" my best friend's tease.

" ah Karina you are-there is aja deh, do you also think of him.. yes already you are preparing the items that will be brought tomorrow not yet?"

"if that's a mah, I've been prepared from earlier Shel. Yes Already if I see you tomorrow my best friend is the most beautiful" Karina said while ending the call.

TOK TOK TOK

"please enter" said I who was busy arranging some of the pkaian stels into the suitcase.

"Non Shella's... "

"bi Siska, how'd it go bi?" I asked while looking at the woman.

"sorry non, just aunty wanted to say, just sir seems to not want to be disturbed, as well as the mistress" bi Siska replied with a sad look.

"yes it's bi, next time Shella tell mama is equally papa" I said again continue to arrange clothes into a suitcase.

"let aunt help non, non-Shella don't be sad." said the woman as if she knew what I was thinking.

I just bowed quietly withstanding the sadness that I seemed unable to bear anymore. Why not, today is the last day I am in Jakarta because tomorrow I will return to the place where I grew up. Where I was taken care of by a woman whose life was very simple yet noble. Even though my current life feels a lot different than it used to be. Now I understand, treasure is not everything, having a full biological family, it does not give me happiness. Not that I am not grateful, but my little heart always wonders if this family is really my family? why do I feel like there's something else?

the questions seemed to be dancing in my mind.