The Sandwich Generation's

Burying dreams

"Sa mamak asked you not to think about getting married, son your sister still need school fees."

" If you get married who will help mom and dad send your sister later."

" You will be busy thinking about your own family even more if you have children."

Mamak's words felt like an indiscriminate gesture that slashed my heart as if to say I had to bury myself in the dream of getting married before my sister's sister finished school.

 Until when does this continue, O God lament me in the heart .

 Though me and Jaka mas already have plans to start mourning together for the cost of our wedding later.

At the age of 25, I still have to bury myself in my dream of getting married.

Although life here is not like life in the village but as a woman I have a desire to get married at an age that is not too old.

In the village with the age of me who has stepped on 25, of course, has got the nickname of a spinster if not married because of the benchmark in the village, women should have been married in their 20s.

In addition to Jaka mas there is also Widya's sister who always supports me, Widya's brother, a very good neighbor in front of the house, she always enlarges my heart, I don't need to tell her she knows my situation and position.

  From him I get extra money from driving him to the market or even take his children to school.

" Oh Allah Sa I was once a time when you were still having fun, you were great patient."

Widya did not mean to discourage me but rather to be amazed at me because at the age of 25 I bear a heavy responsibility.

" That's my brother, if not strong faith has gone mad because of this situation."

" Hussst can't say that God knows you are strong so God put me in this position."

Widya's age is the same age as Yuni's sister but Widya's brother is more mature and wise way of thinking.

Today Yuni's brother came home with a bruise under his left eye.  

He came with his son with him to see the situation of brother Yuni mamak crying father just stroked the chest but from his face there was a very angry feeling .

But nothing could be done because sister Yuni was stubborn for a long time we asked sister Yuni to part with her husband but sister Yuni refused on the grounds Inayah and Fauzan still need affection her father's.

" Yun what are you defending right and you expect from Andi son?." Said mom and dad a while ago.

" Yuni understands father, mamak but what about Inayah and Fauzan if Yuni is separated?."

I who heard the words of sis Yuni became inflamed.

" sister brother is selfish not having feelings sister know not feelings father and amak?."

" Every visit only comes with tears, besides what makes a big brother leave a useless man?" I asked.

Brother Yuni just kept silent to see me angry.

 

" It doesn't matter if I'm ready to eat my brother and nephew as long as they're separated from that useless guy!" I continued.

 Very outrageous indeed my brother-in-law that gives a living fitting even tends to be less but he also forbids my brother to work he is too jealous.

the boutique but the new one instead of work eventually resigned, because it felt bad with the boutique owner because bang Andi hit the boutique owner's sister just for driving kak Yuni home.

Not without reason, the boutique owner's younger brother brought Kak Yuni home because it was late andi did not come to pick up Kak Yuni at that time.

" So that's why brother's cheek is bruised?."

" Bang Andi came home drunk last night and asked for rations but she refused to let go of her anger by hitting sister."

Sometimes I do not end up thinking why sister Yuni is so stupid age is the same as sister Widya front neighbor of my house why she can grow up like sister Widya?.

It used to be amak and I did not expect to have this many children so it was too indulgent kak Yuni and bang Nasrul that made kak Yuni and bang Nasrul become what they are today .

Father and Amak wrongly educated them, father just silent not saying a word but I know what is raging in his mind.

Kak Yuni whom he was proud of was even a burden in his old age .

It is still clear in my memory how father and amak distinguish me and brother Yuni, sister Yuni is indeed different in our family she grew up to be a beautiful girl.

I inherited a face similar to Bangladesh.

 Because of this I am often mistaken for Indian descent even though the father and amak Original minang.

It is still clear in my memory that my father and son left me with my aunt outside the island because of the hassles of taking care of my little sister at that time.

" Kid, son come with aunt, later amak same father will often look at the child here."

Since then I was taken care of by my aunt's family whose economy was slightly better than my family until graduation from High School.

My aunt and oom were the ones who financed school from the age of 6 years to the end of high school during that time I never felt the affection of biological parents .

I'm out of high school and my aunt asks me to go home to my parents.

" Sa go home to your parents' job oom and auntie up here."

" Remember, son, they didn't throw you away but it was the circumstances that forced them to leave you to us" said oom and aunty when asking me to go home to Amak and dad.

"Dolend them, son."

Actually I was reluctant to leave them but oom and my aunt forced me to finally obey their orders.

" Oom, aunt thank you for everything may Allah

avenging the good deeds of oom and aunt." I said while crying tears.

" Have a son if it wasn't the family who would help."

 At that time I just finished High School until now I still remember well said oom and aunt who has been credited with raising me.

It's sad to remember the twists and turns of my life that small I had to separate from my parents and live with my oom and aunt.

Even though I was treated well but still different from biological parents.