The Sandwich Generation's

Alin

Because tired of crying I finally fell asleep by myself I feel someone enveloping my body I peek it turns out Alin is enveloping my body.

She tidied the blanket up to my toes to make sure that all my body was covered as soon as she laid her body beside me.

Back I glanced at him he collapsed with a supine position looking pensive looking at the sky of our room, I don't know what is in the mind of the teenager who just sat on the bench of Junior High, it was,

There was a bit of guilt because last night I scolded him with words that were spicy enough to accept a child his age but on the one hand he had to learn to understand our circumstances.

Not long after I saw the tears melt from the corner of his eyes the guilt whack over my heart seeing that little boy crying in silence.

" Lin.. sleep tomorrow school why cry?, already do not worry brother try your study tour money." I got up and moved closer to him.

Alin who thought I was sound asleep looked shocked and immediately wiped the tears in both corners of his eyes.

" Sister hasn't slept?." Ask her astonished

" It's just that brother woke up when you covered brother earlier."

" Yaudah is sleeping." Take me while rubbing his head.

" Sister don't have to force Alin not papa kok not come." Lirih.

Hearing his words made my heart feel sliced back I rubbed his head sad once I saw his innocent face, why he had to be born in the middle of this family in the middle of a family that was economically squeezed.

" Sssst already do not have to think of your task is just a diligent school, so that later can have a better life." Entertain me.

" Why are we poor, why are we not like others." His tears returned.

" Must not talk like it's all been outlined by God's deck."

" Something difficult we still have more difficult, the point is grateful to understand?." I want him to nod and try to close his eyes.

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This afternoon I met bang Togar loan sharks who used to borrow money specifically for children pt and mall employees like me, to apply for a loan for my sister's study tour.

" Bang as usual I need money ." My word.

" How much do you need." Legally.

" 4 million bang could."

" Huge time for what it looks like?."

" My sister wanted to join the study tour." I said shrewdly.

We were familiar because I often applied for money loans with him.

" It's your spirit that you're a little, who knows that one day your sister can raise your family's degree." Entertained.

" Yes bang, Aamin thank you bang."

“ Shut up you're special you don't wear pieces because I've also been in your position. “ Said bang togar sambal counting the money to be left to me.

“ Thank you bang.”

I'm a little relieved that my money has been saved now my sister at least does not need to feel inferior to her classmate.

When I want to go inside where I work my phone rings my eyes wide because the number that contacted me is the number of Mas Agung ,the guy who made me stay in the police station cell one night.

I reject because I did not get into trouble like I used to, the trauma has not disappeared from my memory of how I was picked up by the police even though it had happened a long time ago .

“Hallooo.!!” I said judes.

“ Assalamualaikum Lisa is still angry with me?.” Greet me with a soft voice

“ Why, want to get me in trouble again?!.” Snap me.

“ Yes Allah sa do suudzon first, all humans can change.”Mas Agung still spoke in a soft and patient voice.

Mas Agung explained Why he contacted me again after causing me problems.

I am still traumatized yet fully believe in the word he said, Great Back convinced me that really has changed but I stick to my stance.

“ Yes God do I need a video call inside the police station that I am really free of problems?.”

“ Up is none of my business !.” I am still with a feeling of annoyance .

Immediately I ended his call of resentment for his actions that still hung in my heart, there was no way I could just forgive the person who had caused me trouble.

In front of the escalator I cross paths with my co-worker Emi she pinched my lips with her five fingers.

“ Yes that lips later fall tuch bu.” ledeknya . because see a sour face and pouting lips.

“ Hhahah sprain gw today.” unabated Emi's behavior makes me chuckle he embraces his hands to my shoulders we immediately to where we work

.

“ Why ? story dong let not manyun just.” ask her.

“ Later Mi gw storyain .“ my mouth.

“Ok”.

Today the mall is very crowded because towards the end of the year and many visitors who stop by our stand quite a lot of items sold. Both by me and Emi we smiled happily at the many items sold.

“Alhamdullilah ya Mi sale today.” cCeletuk ku when we are enjoying our supplies.

“ Ho’oh moga so we can reach the target this month .“ said.

“Aamiin.” we rush to wash our lunch spot and immediately return to the stand.

Lunch time is still 20 minutes away I open my phone there are many messages that enter through whatsapp.

mas Agung has not given up he sent a message because I was still upset when talking on the phone.

“ Lisa I know I once caused you in trouble some time ago but I am now sorry I want to apologize and make amends to me.”

“ I understand if you can not forgive but at least I have tried to apologize the problem you do not forgive it your right.”

Degh !I feel slapped with the message that the Great send me I feel like a proud human being .

I also made a lot of mistakes but why can't I forgive the mistakes of the Great?.

My tears spread and dripped down my cheeks I felt ashamed and guilty at the Great mas he had humbled to apologize but I hardened my heart.

I kept my phone back in the locker and walked towards the stand Emi apparently noticed my face today which was not as usual.

"Why are you? not as usual here." he said while clutching my shoulder.