The Return of Lost Love

Trying to hold on

Arsy is still silent, his feelings are raging erratically. Want to scream as loud as possible, but what power Arsy just be patient and patient.

"Darling... tomorrow we go to the doctor again, huh?" pinta Darma pleads.

"For what? isn't my hope so thin. It's also free for me to go to the doctor, just a disappointment that I'll get. I don't know, I don't understand about my life. Maybe if there was a choice between life and death, then I would choose to stop breathing." Reply Arsy resigned.

"But I can still try to do my best for you, baby, to the end of the world I will find a cure for your recovery." Darma's words were convincing.

"If there's no result, what do you do for me?" arsy replied lethargic with a very pitiful look. Darma who saw it also felt so unbearable.

What if I had unknowingly hurt her feelings. My wife will hate me for the rest of her life. Inner Darma in its dilemma.

"Bunches, right? can't answer that, can you? never mind, it's free to do this if it doesn't convince the result." Arsy said again in his empty soul.

"It's not so dear. I just.." suddenly the sentence stopped.

"Here you go, I know it all." Deg. Darma's heart seemed to be dislodged, when the wife was speaking something she never expected.

"You mean?" ask Darma who also does not understand.

"I heard it when Mom came into this room. And it was a coincidence that I wanted to get up to pee, but I paused. And when Mas Damar came out with Mom, I followed in your footsteps, Mas. and I listened to everything with the door I opened a little." Reply Arsy as loud as possible.

"What.....! so you.." he said, who suddenly stopped and could not continue his words. Her lips felt faint and with her raging feelings.

"Yes, I've been listening to him. I resigned to what Darma would choose, if Mas Darma wants to immediately give offspring to Father and Mother, then I do not have the right to all that. Because I'm self-aware, that I can't guarantee to give you offspring." Arsy said as loud as possible, even though the real feeling was very painful.

"I'm not going to do it, baby, trust me. I promised to take care of you and love you. You have to believe me." Darma answered with his mind that was not careless.

"But that's impossible for me. I can't believe that you can take care of your lust, impossible." Said Arsy who continues to show his feelings of jealousy since both parents Darma want to find a woman who can give him offspring.

"Here you go, it's better now that you get some rest and go to sleep. Pity your body, if you keep thinking about something that is not yet clear." Answer Darma.

"I'm not sleepy yet, I still want to lean on this bed." Said Arsy with his bland feelings.

"What if we were the way out, anyone knows we could take our pain away." Bring Darma.

"Keep you want me to what? so that you can trust me. If I'm not gonna leave you, do we need to move? don't you want it, do you?" darma said as much as possible to seduce his wife.

Arsy's face suddenly met with a red hue, when her husband invited her to live in one house without anyone else but a waiter.

"really?" reply Arsy spirit.

"Right, baby, I'm gonna ask Mom and Dad to give us permission. I'm sure this is the best way." The husband assured.

"Thank you, baby." replied Arsy smiling happily.

"Let's go to sleep, baby, let's get more excited tomorrow morning." Invite Darma to seduce, Arsy nods and smiles. Then immediately sleep in a position embraced by the husband, and both are asleep from his sleep.

Despite being asleep from her sleep, Arsy wakes up from his sleep. Somehow Arsy is still mingled with the words of his two-in-law with her husband. Arsy is still thinking, if she really will be divorced by her husband.

Surely, soon I will be divorced by my husband Darma because I cannot give him offspring. Whether I can get through it, it's really hard for me to understand. Mamma... Papa's... Arsy miss, Arsy wants to hug you both. Arsy needs encouragement from you guys, how should I tell Mama and Papa. If the reality is like this, the one where my two in-laws only gave me one week. What kind of time is it, where maybe I'll recover in just a week. Inner Arsy sad.

His tears fell without asking him, as if his feelings were shattered into pieces if he had to accept a divorce. Arsy really can not solve his own penance, Arsy can only resign to the fate he will receive.

Because he felt his eyes really can't be propped up, then Arsy tried to close both eyes. Hoping that if he wakes up later, his illness is just a dream. Just test his patience in every problem. But unfortunately, it's all real. Which is a test in the household to accept the shortcomings of his partner, and whether it is true to remain faithful to defend it.

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It was a bright morning, but not as bright as Arsy expected. It was all just a trick in his feelings.

Darma was awakened from his sleep, and seen beside him there was only a weed nearby. Darma dizzy looking for the figure of Arsy in every corner, but his two eyes can not catch the figure of his wife.

However, Darma's two ears can catch the sound of splashing water in the bathroom. The desire that had been hidden and had been held by him since his first night. Darma who wants to go straight into the bathroom suddenly remembered the words of the Doctor. Again and again, Darma has to hold him back.

What I can do will continue like this, even have to be years. I can endure it, it hurts, yes, it hurts. What can I do if I have to get married again. Yes, maybe that's the only way. I have to figure out a way not to hurt Arsy's feelings in front of him. Let me endure it, how may I torment in my place. I'm sorry, honey, if someday I play behind your back. Although painful though. aaaaarrrrggghhhh why should this be my mind. Really, I don't know myself. Darma muttered in his dilemma.

Darma who is dizzy thinks of his life full of discomfort to be a husband. Who must accept the harsh reality of his wife's disease. Darma tried to regulate his breath that felt very tight in his chest. His heart was rumbling unruffled, wanting it to disappear in the face of this earth. In order to escape from his fatigue, but want how else. His mind was also very difficult to control.