
Because the phone had been turned off, the grandson only thought about whose voice it was?. It seems he just heard it too. He also did not focus on the work he was doing. The shadow of the owner of the voice continued to echo in his mind. Not the anger of her grandmother but the person she had talked to who she thought she was. The softness of the intonation of the voice made him imagine how graceful the woman was. He had never won how much he admired her.
Dera, who was carrying Aminah's grandmother, immediately pushed the wheelchair towards her room. He did not want the old woman to be angry anymore. At a very short age for that. Although the grandmother was still pouting but Dera tried to find the atmosphere on that day. While teasing the grandmother to be able to smile back.
"Grandmother, it's already the one who is angry anyway later the most come home", refer Dera to the grandmother who is now helping to her bed. Since Dera had already sent the aunt from the kitchen earlier, it was easier to lift her up.
"But if he doesn't come?
I just want to introduce you to the one I can be proud of as my granddaughter at the moment. He never cared about me, Dera. What the heck was the difficulty of him obeying me before my death" Aminah's grandmother's anger was overflowing today.
"Grandmother don't talk about death. It all belongs only to God, yes already grandma took medicine immediately rest yes", persuasion Dera so that the grandmother would not continue her anger. Because now it was also time for her to take a break.
"Ok I want to take medicine as long as you promise grandma, you want a married grandma in Nanang?". The words that finally came out came back from the mouth of the grandmother of Aminah again.
"Sir, Dera can't grandma should know Dera already has children in the village. While I wander here because it will meet the needs of my family", explained Dera who sat approaching the middle-aged obedient woman earlier. He heard Dera's answer to that while being heartbroken. What he had planned had been lost to the confession of his new grandson.
"I'll try to get a mate for my grandson Dera later. I'll make my granddaughter happy to see another woman" Grandma's cry that Dera hugged. Dera doesn't know exactly what happened to the granddaughter of this house but Dera hopes nothing they cover will go hand in hand with time.
This afternoon Dera was finally able to rest in her room while occasionally looking at photos to three family members in the village. There is a Father he loves and a Mother whom he admires the boy he loves so much. For two days now he could not contact his family in the village there was a feeling of longing that was closed on the lips. But how else Dera has not dared to borrow the facilities in this house. It feels very different from Aran who he can immediately ask for help. Because of that shadow she finally remembered the handsome face that she still considered her husband despite siri marriage.
"Until when am I like this Aran. I want my son to feel how happy he is to have such a father who is so dear to him. But can you be fair with your other child". The thought of Dera who remembered the woman who was also already heavily pregnant. Until finally the knock on the door broke Dera's daydream.
"Toks.toks..
"Come in".
"Mbak was called by the grandmother to tell her room was awake he was looking for mbak Dera", replied the aunt who turned out to be sent by the grandmother of Aminah.
"Yes bik, thank you".
It turns out that Dera went into the closed grandmother's room when she went open. There was a voice that Dera heard after he entered it. The voice asked for grandma to be calm and not often angry.
"Miss, Nanang knows that I never make time for grandma. But I also have to take care of my efforts which have been so overwhelmed for lately".
Aminah's grandmother, who realized that Dera had opened the door and listened to her granddaughter's words, called.
"Dera just come in, let you know my grandson Nanang".
Finally Dera entered and approached the white weak arm. He held Dera's hand so gently. Won't let Dera get out of this house.
"Include it Nanang, granddaughter of grandmother, and this is Dera Nang the new granddaughter of grandmother who is loyal to grandmother" said the grandmother of Aminah who immediately saw Dera who saw who was introduced to her. While Nanang did not say because he had only sided with Dera who walked towards grandma while looking down. It felt like he had met the woman before but somewhere he had forgotten back then.
Seeing Dera only eat Nanang the grandson and Nanang who did not speak at all finally the grandmother immediately disperse the daydreams of the two of them.
"Ehm, grandma introduced but you don't shake hands to get to know each other. Oya grandma wants to go to the bathroom Dera can help grandma". Dera's eyelids were directly fixed on the grandmother who was still faithful to hold her hand. Just now Dera was petrified to lift Grandma's body to the bathroom but Nanang immediately approached Dera and asked her to just Nanang who lifted her.
"Let me do it" that soft voice that Dera seemed to have heard but when. Because she thought so much that she forgot about a few years ago when she was happy with someone before she was finally raped by her ex-husband and pregnant with Teo.
"Grandma's bang kebelet Dera". The voice that Dera finally left pushed the wheelchair towards the bathroom. While Nanang immediately came out and appeased his heart that he hated so much. It's been a few years since he discovered why it had appeared again. The shadow he left behind flashed directly in his mind. But I don't know what this he himself forgot because of the influence of drugs that he often consumed then he must remember it's heavy taste.
"Check..
Dera who was taking a change of clothes because her clothes were wet helped grandmother Aminah was shocked because Nanang was already in the doorway.
"Sorry", said Nanang who will close the door but he did not go out but instead entered and found Dera. This is his chance and he will use it as much as possible.
"Have we met before", Nanang ventured to ask Dera about it.
"I'm also no stranger to these eyes but who I also forget". I'm afraid to forget because you guys have different names and it's impossible if I ever knew you", replied Dera while holding a pair of change of clothes.
"But I think we've met Dera before, when? I also remember one name when I saw you. Who are you Dera I refuse to remember you", Nanang Qosim explained.
Dera who just remembered who the man was immediately sat on the edge of the bed helpless. Destiny is this God you're meeting him again. Dera was afraid of hurting her once so tender heart. Until finally the voice of Dera called the name of Kak Qosim. The shadow first knew the man.
After Dera said his father's name Nanang immediately sat next to the beautiful woman. He was bowed in his sadness until Nanang finally called out a name.
"Stomach, that was my fat one first. What I've been waiting for until I don't remember your name anymore. You punished me until this room so as proof of how I was destroyed at that time Fatty and chose not to stay in this house again", how Dera immediately cried so. He also does not know if fate will bring him back to the first lover first. Yes before he got treated where finally in phonis pregnant by midwife at that time. Dera remembered how naivety mas Qosim was the first semester of college in Jogja and often played to Dera's place of work. But all of Dera's friends call her by the name of Fatuk, which her father often calls. In his 5 months relationship mas Qosim so prove how much he loves Fatuk and will not let go of him to others. Until finally Dera that night could not be contacted and since two days that Dera did not want to reply WhatsApp from him. After 2 months Qosim came to look for her at her workplace in telling her if Fatty is pregnant and is getting married. It has fallen down the stairs. He often covers up what he feels. Finally he decided to go home to his parents and live what he remembered. Where the father to pray for his recovery and his life is in its place.
After the departure of his father Nanang strong because there is Ibuk and his grandmother that he must take care of but not dare in this house anymore. Dera who cried in front of Mas Qosim also realized what he did had hurt someone's heart until he was repaid by God with this trial.
"I'm sorry mas Qosim, I was just a bad woman for you back then. I decided to leave you until you were like this. And I won't be able to deserve you anymore either, find a good woman for you" he said as he lowered his head and squeezed the Bayu in his hands. Dera believes that mas Qosim can find a good woman later.
While outside Ibuk Ratmi listened to the conversation of the two men. He did not believe that the one loved by his son was Dera. He also knew how devastated his son was. But he could not do anything because he did not know who the woman who was thought by the dear child. Actually Ibuk Ratmi also love Dera but Dera's current status makes him think for the second time. He didn't want to miss the opportunity to hear what the two men were saying.
"But I'm still expecting you Fat. Not a little different than before. Let me try it again, and how's your husband doing so you're here".
"I can't, I can't be with you anymore. There's Teo my son standing in our way. Even though I have no ties to my husband before, I do not deserve you, Mas Qosim. While I am now also pregnant again, which will be difficult later for us to unite. You better forget me and find a woman who deserves you".
Ibuk Ratmi felt what the baby felt. Rejected was very painful, but it is true that Dera did not deserve to give hope to the man. Better to get sick first and then be happy. Finally his son knows the answer to why the woman he loved left him. Even though she knew she was pregnant, she thought it was just an excuse to leave.
" Are you pregnant?
And you said you weren't with your husband yet!
You're just lying to me Fatty. I don't want you to lie like before", said Nanang who slightly did not accept he was treated like this.
"True mas I'm pregnant at this time does not deserve you and there are still those who have me at this time. Let me repay what you've been feeling all along by taking care of that good grandmother. I will not be any closer to you, Mas Qosim".
"If it's your decision to stay away from me I accept but, I will also stay in this house again from tonight. I'll make sure you're pregnant or just lie to me. Even if in a few months you do not meet the father of the child you bear, I will ask Mother to propose to your baby's father later", the firm answer of the man who was feeling if he would not miss his chance again.
Ibuk Ratmi was so shocked because his son's answer was not as he expected. But he can't do anything and still won't discuss this for fear of his son relapsing again. Just a prayer for his son to get a suitable soul mate, of course.
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Forgive me just can up, because so much I have to work on remains brother time🥰.😍