The Mama's Heart

Chapter 1

Being a mother is the mind² of a woman who is already married,moreover, for a long-lived marriage such as Anton and Dewi couples who have 8 years have not been gifted a child in their home.

Every month, Anton slalu waited for the good news to be given by the Goddess. But just add to the wound in the heart of the Goddess, who currently again does not get a good result from the tastpack he holds today.

The sound of a car door coming from the front of the house. The goddess who wiped the tears on her cheeks quickly² moved from the bathroom. Because she knew it must be her husband coming home from the office. And immediately Dewi showed a strong face even though in her heart of sadness and fear, Karna again² made her husband disappointed.

"Mas.., you're home. I made some hot tea for you. "The goddess walked towards the kitchen with fear in her heart.

"Tastpack you tried last night." Ask her husband in a flat tone.

"It's a thorny drink mas.Yes I'll try." The goddess who tried not to make her husband's mood chaotic, because she knew her husband must be very tired to come home from work.

"Yes already, I took a bath. After that I want to rest, Don't forget after I rest, you should've given me the results. "Said her husband who passed away.

Yeah, I'm afraid of the fact that Anton will be disappointed, if he knows the results. I wondered why God had not yet given me the child we were waiting for, Why God was unjust to me. Until² I was afraid that Anton, Slalu asked the same thing.

THE...!!!

There was the sound of the room door, which made the Goddess rise from the sofa, and stand up to approach her husband.

"For where Wi. Did he get the results. "Many Anton are so assertive.

I feel scared, Directly pointing the results of the tastpack to my husband. What a surprise I was, who saw my husband immediately throw the tastpack right in my face.

"Then, I'm married to have children. It's not like this, we've been married for 8 years, but you also love me one child." Shouted her husband who immediately slammed the glass he was holding.

"I don't want to be like this either.!, I also want to have children, not just you. It's my fault where. God has not given us trust. "The sobbing Goddess was sobbing on the edge of the aquarium in her house.

"You know what your fault is...!!!. It's wrong you can't give me offspring.

It....!!!!

One slap shot across my right cheek. Which made me fall on the floor. Again and again, this is something that happens every month. While my husband passed away and died, I was drowning on the floor, because of my husband's actions.

At times like this my heart is so broken that no one knows how fragile I really am. Even the man who is currently my husband, who I hope can encourage me, It is precisely he who adds to the wounds in my heart.

Two days passed. Since yesterday's incident, Mas Anton belom also came home, I'm the one who tried to call him was just rejected with Anton mas."O God, is this the life You have given me, I know, You will not give me more trials than I can. Just one thing I asked of you, so I'm the mother of the child I bear." That is all that is in my prayer.

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This morning the weather was very cloudy, with a strong wind. As usual, I sat pensively on the porch of the house, while waiting for Anton mas who has 2 days did not go home too. I was thinking." Where did you go mas....?. Did you have another woman, until you don't remember coming home." That's what's always been on my mind.

When the rain began to fall heavily, I decided to go into the house and I let the clothes I was drying wet with rain water. Which wife does not mess up her mind when her husband has no news and does not go home 2 days.

Tock.... Geck... Geck...

So happy of me, when I opened the door, it was true that Anton had come home. Hap² I give you a greeting. But what I received was rejection.

"Keep² you from me..!!, you useless woman. "The words of Anton who passed away died, I was the one who was hurt by my heart and feelings.

"Mas sorry for me. Again, give me a chance. If I'm not pregnant either, I want mas.!!, you're honey." I spontaneously spoke from my own lips, although I knew I would not be willing to be in honey.

Hearing what I said, sure enough. Anton turned to me straight away. And immediately walking over, I was still prostrating on the floor with both legs bent, hoping that Anton would forgive me, and not justify my last words.

"Remember the Goddess, it's a promise you said yourself, from your mouth. Anton agreed with my words.

Right I didn't expect. If Anton, agree to the terms I said.

now I can only give up, and may Allah answer all my prayers.

Time continued to roll, day after day I passed with fear of losing my husband.I regretted I had promised to agree to the terms that Anton used to want. But I know God must have given me the most beautiful plan for me later.

A month passed, now I must be ready to accept the reality that will happen later. As usual I started to get busy in the kitchen, preparing breakfast for Anton's mas and his favorite glass of warm milk. There was a footstep into the kitchen, "It must be my husband, he's awake." Reveal me in my heart.

I don't know why the presence of my husband hugging me from behind, not to make me happy, but to make me like meeting a wolf who will pounce on me at any time, so that his taste makes this body tremble because of fear.

"Darling...!, remember your promise?. It's been over a month, you haven't forgotten, have you?." Anton took out a tastpack from his pants to give it to me.

With a trembling voice I answered Anton's question." I..iya I did not forget the mas". After I took the device from Anton's hand, I very slowly walked with the condition of my trembling legs and pounding heart.

Until I was in the toilet, with a small container slowly I dipped the tastpack, it's been 10 minutes but I belom also dare to look at it." God how this is, God how it is, give me strength, O God, in my little heart, prayer.

"Goddess....Goddess....!!!,

Why are you trying to bring it here, I want to see."

The sound of Anton's voice calling without seeing the results, I immediately walked to meet Anton. And giving the tastpack, I close my eyes because I can't stand what will happen later.

With a loud voice Anton called my name, so I really did not dare to open my eyes.

"Goddess.......!!!, you are right...?."

But why did Anton hug me so hard, why didn't he get angry or hit me. I opened my eyes slowly. When I opened my eyes, I couldn't believe what I was seeing.

Seriate....