The Love of the Shy (NoMin)

episode 15

*You're leaving?? I'm trying to understand. At least maybe this time I realized. That heart is not for me anymore. Hi, bring me, I realize from the beginning that heart is not for me. I know you accepted me because it's not good to ignore the love I gave you. If only you knew, you would rather ignore my love than accept it without replying. Connect with me without putting this sense in me. You said you loved me but in reality your heart was only for him. You're even ashamed to declare our relationship in public. I followed you just like that to keep the relationship we had. I have a boyfriend, but it's like an acute singles. If one day you realize how great my sincerity is then at that time you will realize that this man has numbness to everything called love.

You managed to bring me no way to turn away from you. You've scared me to open my heart again. Look at my heart long empty and filled with dust into the void. I'm afraid to give love, if it ends up just being ignored or played. Rudi... thanks for everything. thanks for the love this trash*!!!.

april 21st, 2019.

Rahmi closes the last page in the book with a blue sky cover. He took his breath, then leaned it over his folded hand on the table. How many times he had read it there was still a sore side in his heart. Even if it wasn't as bad as it used to be. At first he was lazy to read that sky blue book. Because the content is only about the beginning of meeting with Rudi until everything ends up sore. Some say to Rahmi the more often you remember how much your heart hurts with her then you will get used to it and numb herself.

And it seemed that it worked for Rahmi, her heart more and more sincerely accepted it.

"Basically we can't force someone to love us. Because love is only about giving sincerely, not without full expectation of reply. If he can't love us then don't be forced. After all, the love that is present because it is forced only ends with a word of non-selfishness and separation. Like me now. Let me now be serious about my studies. Heart please cooperate, forget him in the past and keep this love so as not to fall into people carelessly again". Rahmi muttered to herself issuing her opinion.

"I'm glad that you think so, don't be so bucin continue so" Rahmi was surprised to hear the voice of her sister who was suddenly behind her.

"Jisung?? Sins are nguping silently" said Rahmi while turning her seat facing her sister.

"Sister.. Can you see the book?" Jisung points to Rahmi's diary which contains poems she often makes about her mood which is certainly all about Rudi.

"For what?? Not ah... shame" Rahmi immediately clutched the book to her chest.Fearful Jisung took it forcibly. When Rahmi pulls the book from the table into her arms there is a photo that fell. Sontak invited their pair of eyes to follow the landing direction of the photo.

"What photo is that, brother?" Unfortunately, the photo fell upside down. All that looks is white from the photo paper.

"Sister also does not remember there is a photo" Rahmi scratched her head that is not itchy, trying to remember what the photo is.

The curious Jisung swiftly took the photo and placed it on the table. When the photo behind Jisung was shocked and Rahmi fell silent.

"It's Rudi" Jisung said in his flat tone. Rahmi sighed and turned her face away from the photo. For some reason there was a longing in his heart.

"Old players are watching Sung? Wantsome? take aja? Lata Rahmi then pushed the photo towards Jisung.

"Do you think I'm a same-sex person???" He glared at his brother.

"Well, you've been looking at the photo for a long time" Rahmi pointed at the photo with her lips.

"Well... wonder anyway, why is she not a model?? It fits." Jisung said as he rubbed his chin.

"Aishis...You're saying he looks Sung??" Rahmi throws the doll beside her towards Jisung.

"Ih... So you mean that big brother is ugly?? " tanta Jisung's.

"where are you, brother?" jisung asked following his brother from behind.

"To minimarket, what?" Rahmi turned to her sister. Jisung nodded then they walked towards the minimarket together.

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Arriving at the minimarket Rahmi walked towards the neatly lined snacks. He wants to snack tonight. Jisung walked towards the ice cream.

"Rahmy?" Rahmi turned her head towards the origin of the voice, and it was Jaemin.

"Jaemin" Reply Rahmi but still standing in her place without any initiative to approach Jaemin or smile.

"Here you are?" Tanha Jaemin who is now in Rahmi's side.

"No, I'm here the same...." Uncompleted Rahmi answers Jisung coming towards them.

"Oi... Haven't?" Jisung held onto her brother's shoulder, which was now short of hers. Rahmi turned towards Jisung and smiled.

"already, nih bawain", Rahmi put all the snacks she chose into Jisung's lap. Jisung just resigned.

"Eh.. bang jaemin isn't it?" Jisung just realized there was someone else between the two of them.

"Do you know my name?" Jaemin said astonished and Rahmi also astonished. The feeling he never knew the name oom lili with Jisung.

"I know the brother of his brother bang Jaemin" said Jisung smiling towards Jaemin.

"Oh that's it anyway" Jaemin nodded in understanding.

"Oh yeah bang, know me Jisung adek Kak Rahmi" Jisung tried to extend his hand to shake hands, but was troubled because of the many snacks Rahmi in his hand.

"Hahaha..here brother help bring Sung" Jaemin also took some snacks in Jisung's hand and brought it to the cashier.

After paying for the food, the three of them came out of the minimarket. And careless Rahmi walked to the middle of the road without looking left right, so there is a car swerving strongly from the right. Sontak Rahmi, Jisung and Jaemin were shocked.

"Sister!!!!" Jisung was not aware because he was still chatting with Jaemin and saw his brother was in the middle of the road precisely in front of a car that would soon hit Rahmi.

"TIIIT.....TIIIII..."