The Love I Didn't Expect

Chapter.22 Dare not make a decision.

...My doubts about love are always present.Fear of being hurt and even worse fear of my family being insulted....

...I was born from a very simple family.for school fees alone Mommy should also go directly to help dad make a living....

until this moment, I had to try to let go of my love for the good of my family so that they would not be insulted.

...** Giving up our loved ones is part of life, because it is not always best to survive....

sometimes letting go is also the best thing, when holding on is painful**.

...I may be traumatized and afraid to live it, but what about what Ketut said....

Wanted me to say once that I couldn't have this relationship .

...Will not hurt him later, but if I pretend to live it I am afraid I will hurt him too deeply....

" I said in my heart to weigh everything " .

Re kok daydreaming anyway.Is there a problem ? asked Andi who deliberately nudged my hand.

Do you think about my talk was Re , I was just joking with you.don't until you enter kehati ya Re.

I saw Andi's face looking at me seriously and looking funny to me.

Haha... What the hell Andi, rich people who a month not loved sangu." ledekku who saw the funny face Andi .

I seriously care about you and you laugh at me.

ah ah. I want to pray first, be careful Yach in class.

...Hey you guys do not pray.the obstacle period kok every Friday is very routine, beware Yach later I make absent books that often do not pray....

Said Andi before leaving class, he gave a warning to friends who often do not pray .

suddenly my phone rang. I saw on the screen "Kak said " .

I immediately shifted the phone

I...: Hello assalamualaikum, brother.

Sis said: Walaikumsalam , How is the deck ?

Me.: Alhamdulillah sis, I am well.

it is also said to be healthy.

Sis said: Alhamdulillah healthy but healthy heart again "Holden longs " .

I....: why did brother said not call him aja.biar not hold back the feeling of longing.

not good you know kak resist longing.can torture the heart and also the mind you know.

Sis said: yes your deck really, it does not taste good , you have never felt it.

I.: yes, brother, but now I try to be sincere and try to forget it even though it feels heavy.

Said sister: you should be able to forget it.Since there are still those who expect you, try to be better for yourself do not get too bad with the situation.

I...: yes brother, when will brother come home.

Sis said: indeed why, you miss Yach.

I...: iih what the hell brother, now brother said dare Yach menggeledekin me. try if kak said meet me directly I must not dare to say so, yes...hahaha.

Said sister: Watch Yach deck if brother comes home later.

I...: what do you want, brother ?..

Kak said: wait aja later.ya already brother wants to pray first. All right Yach you're there.Assalamualaikum.

I...: walaikumsalam...

KAK SAID** I actually miss deck , I really want to video . I want to see your face especially when you laugh at me deck.

may you MY SOUL GOD give me .

** RERE **

I don't know why I was so happy when Sis said called me.

Astagfirulagalazim apos...

I flipped my body.It turns out behind him there was Ketut sitting next to me.

Geez Tut I'm really surprised.sorry yach I don't know if you're here.

how do you know Re...

you are just engrossed in the phone while smiling to yourself.

Where do you go to school have a plan ?

eemm..I need another , and three o'clock I have training.

what is it ? ask me to Ketut.

If you don't have a plan, I'll take you on the road.

Ooooh.I if Friday , Saturday and Sunday there is training and for a few months I can not take off.

If the full Sunday from morning until afternoon it moved the place .

that's not the schedule at two even though Sunday , why now full .

asked Ketut who like her does not believe my words.

I've helped Mala and the others to keep the training schedule down since my brother said out of town.

So if Sunday I can't play or walk with my friends, it's been almost four months .

is his training not in that house ?

ask Ketut again, is he curious Yach ...

Not all of them train there.There are several places for training so that they are not saturated.

ooohs..Ketut ber oooh ria while nodding his Head.

your voice reached the classroom..

Ketut asked but in a tone like her did not like what I did earlier.

ah usual Andi if joking like to make sprain.then I teriakin him.

Dretta.dett.. My phone rings back..

sorry Yach, I picked up the phone first.

I... : Hello assalamualaikum mas , kok call it not jum'atan mas.

Mas Adi: No more decks.

I....: Huh !! so anyway, mas .Where is it now ?

Mas Adi: Still in the place that was waiting adek home .

I... : Astagfirullahalazim, you know why the hell mas..awas Yach if you mess around, I am the same Papanya mas .

Mas Adi: just calm deck, mas do not dare to sort again, still love the same life.

I....: yes, wait for me there just don't go anywhere . Assalamualaikum

Mas Adi: yes chatty.

who is Re , the attention is so rich that you dare ngancem him.

no one else will know too.

Re, my words have you thought you haven't ?

Sorry Yach Tut I have not thought until there, besides we will be different religions and that there will be a debate.

We better be friends because I don't want to hurt you later.

My slightly hesitant words because I was afraid that Ketut would be offended.

If you're not ready, I don't mean .

maybe you need some time and I'll wait for that time.

But Tut...me ? ??

I'm not done talking Ketut is standing up and walking out of class.

Aaahhh.I cried out in my heart.

I also left the classroom to the back gate of the school.

Very crowded when going home from school with high school children.

I went out the gate, my eyes looked for the existence of Mas Adi .. I saw only the motor.

where mas Adi. "tanyaku in the heart " .

ooh it turns out he sat a little mojok so invisible because it was blocked by shady trees.

Hi mas.kusapa mas Adi who is busy playing games.

In a hurry, Adi turned off his phone.

Kok feel at home Yach here.my words while folding both my hands in the chest and mas Adi just grinned to respond to him.

He was the one who called you. said Ketut who did not know since when he was behind me.

uh.iya.my words are a little nervous.

turns out handsome Yach the person.I first Yach " said Ketut who whispered a little in my ear " .

I just smile and nod my head.

Ayok mas.i am hungry.

rich children are missing just sitting there from morning until noon, kesambet beautiful girl who perforated behind him is, just know the taste.

His amit-amit said mas Adi who shudder.

hahahaha.I also laughed at the behavior of Adi.

Ayok ah leaving...

we eat first keep looking for a Yach deck.

I just nodded my head too.

mas Adi drove his motorcycle looking for a food stall .

Eat there aja mas , delicious cookery.

my friends and I often eat there.

we also stopped at a stall that I used to eat with my friends .

Mom I'm usually Yach Ma'am.

what would you eat ? just choose the menu.

Mas Adi also came forward to choose the menu.

We ate the food we ordered earlier, after finishing eating Adi mas directly pay for it.

We immediately went to find a place to talk.

We talked in that park, the place was cold.

I pointed to the park near the terminal so that later the training place was not too far away.

Adi complied with my will.

Thank you, brother, for stopping by my karyak.

Please advise and criticize...

don't forget to like me, brother.