
"******any breathing creature, will experience the loss of a tree that stands strong even lose its leaves, a female cat also sometimes loses her cubs. Moreover, humans who will also lose someone in their lifetime******".
felix just lost a very significant person in his life.
This was the second when his chest felt so tight, his breathing was irregular, his eyes were so painful and his heart felt so pained by the pounding of the void.
felix closed both eyes slowly. For the umpteenth time, he fought hard to hold back so that his eyes would not drip anything.
The beach breeze hit his face, the sound of the waves crashing into the perfect accompaniment to a destruction from his heart. Instead of closing his eyes to neutralize the tightness, the darkness in his stand actually brings a shadow of a memory that rotates neatly like a piece of film. Felix saw everything clearly, complete with all the echoes of his voice.
NO. NOPE.
Not for today.
He had already promised himself not to cry, he had to be strong with all of this. He had to prove to himself that he was an uncouth grown man.
Felix is still struggling hard to subside. He did not care that the sweep of the beach wind was getting colder and his school uniform was not thick enough to protect his thin body.
"yes! Felix. What are you doing here?"
Felix immediately opened his eyes, he did not need to look at the owner of the voice, because the man was now standing next to Felix.
"why are you here, soo bin-ah?
Without looking to the right, Felix could already tell that it was chae soo bin, a beautiful girl with a petite body and also short-haired shoulder-length.
"it's my job as vice-chairman of the class. I'm here to pick you up". Soo Bin turned to see Felix who was still staring straight at the beach. I don't know what Felix's thinking right now. "let's go back, we have a math test at the last hour",
The lunch break was 15 minutes away, and it took about 5 minutes to walk back to school. If it doesn't come back soon now, then the chances of delay will be even closer.
Felix drew a bland smile. Soo-bin is indeed unique, soo-bin is very close to the mother felix, in addition to being their neighbor, soo-bin also often ushers in small orders, that's why, no wonder, no wonder, why soo-bin is so close to the felix family.
"going back to class won't make me feel much better" Felix replied as he stared at the vast clouds. Soo-bin takes a breath, slowly she also sits on the sand of the beach, following the position of the felix sitting slightly bent both knees. "you can get through it, you just need to believe that the people are going, you just need to believe that the people are going, won't really go. They just ahead of us going somewhere, we'll be there too". Soo-bin's smile is engraved, along with the sound of the soothing sound of the waves.
"you're easy to say, because you don't feel the position of abandonment". Felix still reluctantly turned his head, something was holding him back to stay focused forward.
Soo-bin lowered her head, the girl saw the tip of her shoe that was slightly embedded in the white sand of the beach. "i'm sorry", said soo-bin in a weakened tone. Felix was right, soo-bin just muddy the mood.
"go on, I'm trying to let go."
Felix closed his eyes again, feeling a fierce stabbing strike his heart. Seeing that, soo-bin also becomes crowded. He watched Felix who was holding back the pain. If only, soo-bin could do something to drive away the pain of felix.*if only it could be*
"soo-binaah, please". Felix further closed his eyes, the man's lips trembling withstanding the increasingly urgent cry of wanting to come out.
" no. You're not quite capable of letting go. Let me accompany you first". soo-bin looks confident in his words."Come back to class, I don't want to see you like this ".
Felix set his breath, along with the beach wind lecturer who flew his hair.Slowly Felix opened his eyes for the first time he turned his head. "come back first I'll catch up" soo-bin could clearly see the serious gaze of a Felix, a gaze that could not be resisted.2 The man's black eyeballs looked so hurt, a little begging for his sentence to be heeded immediately.
At least, Felix has said that he will return it's a relief because soo-bin knows that Felix will always keep his word.
Slowly soo-bin stood always with heavy legs he stepped leaving Felix Maybe Felix still need time to be alone on the 10th step sobin struggled hard not to look back if hearing the sound of a stifled scream that felt so painful, every sound was like a heart-wrenching knife. Closing his eyes he knew that behind him Felix was screaming, angry or maybe crying. Again And Again Felix still can not accept the fact it lies he has not been able to let go of it he why always worried with Felix and always want to be on Felix's side. On his 15th step, soo-bin finally turns around. He saw clearly, felix propped his knees up on the beach, the man's tall body drooping slightly bent and trembling. Soo-bin is eager to get back there, but when she finds out that it won't change anything, then the girl undoes her intentions and chooses to continue her steps. Let Felix crumble along with his feelings, for which I don't know it's been several times.