The Lamentation of the Mother Continues
Chapter 49
...reunited......
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sorry reader's if you deviate from the novel storyline, here is only an outpouring of the heart of a woman who wants to be brushed through the writing:
"...formerly!! when I was alone and still free from a bond. A lot of men try to pursue my love, and believe in his love for me.
However, I am not lulled by it all.
When one time, I met you, with the figure of a man who can make me attractive. Even though I am attractive, I am still considering it. I'm afraid you didn't respond to my feelings, I'm afraid!! afraid of my love clapping one hand.
As time went on, I was so excited when I knew that you were responding to my feelings...when a beautiful word comes out of your mouth, it makes my body vibrate violently "are you willing to be my wife??" I said, "yes I want to, but not now." The world is so beautiful, as if I had this world.
One thing you should know, I was very serious at the time. Although the answer to the word was still doubtful, it was a day I had forgotten all my life.
Crying!!I cry, cry happy !! touched by the state of beauty of the world as if mine. Starting from that day I began to live all of it seriously.I am very confident in the way of life.
Even though my real dream has not been achieved, but choose to live with you.
I chose to share your life, even in my family, I have not been able to prove and raise the good name of my extended family. All my sacrifices are for your sake.I live it all with a sincere heart without hesitation, even though we live it all without being known by our family.
I am happy with you, my choice.and my one hope, I hope that I am the choice of your heart. I'm so happy even though we're mediocre. However, I am sure we are capable, we will come to each other's families with provisions to live. That is our determination.
Long live this relationship, has emerged all the original nature between us. Disadvantages and advantages are inevitable but they are all a gift to us. I am with my mission, you are with your life mission.
There is no thing that we delay, but only one is to have a baby. We have agreed to postpone until we are legitimate in the eyes of the family and all our dreams are achieved.
However, for some reason more and more trials. Whether it is from the circumstances, or the material. From ourselves or from the outside.
Someday I...telat comes the moon!! you look stressed.You're cursing at me as well as you like, accusing me of being careless.accusing me that I'm cheating on you.I'm shocked to hear those words coming out of your mouth.. I really hate you..
I thought you were an angel, not a fox of the devil who accused me, and slandered me as he pleased.
it's ruined!!!I'm devastated...I'm so devastated..was that low in your eyes?? is that as dirty as a woman..??my heart hurts.. I .. I ..sick...
even though I have taken care of myself as best I can, I have never betrayed you. I swear I always keep your trust..after my sacrifice for you.I am disappointed..who do I know??
who should I be wrong, right??the circumstance??or me?? right now I can only cry.whimper..my heart hurts...I have to what??can only cry.I am not strong.my heart is paralyzed!! it's ruined!!!
Is this a trial?? the ordeal??what trials are this sick?? I'm sure God won't give you this much of a trial.
Or even karma??if it's karma I might still be able to try to accept that designation.
I just understood, that only I planted trust in you.. turned out I was stupid... I don't know who I complained to?? with family ?? if my family knew this all might be further destroyed, I did not want to see them sick because the one light of their hope had dimmed, that of me.
i.the sinner...
with who?? Lordy?? with God, I am ashamed to come to Him. I am not worthy before my God. I'm dirty, sinful.
Servant does not deserve to come to You.Your servant is filthy, dirtier than all.
Even more disappointed, when my parents saw from there that I was the youngest child of his beloved destroyed by the world of freedom.the world of beautiful..
Love.either true or not. if love is there and beautiful. all this time I have never felt the beauty of love....(connect!!).
The full story will be in the novel...
based on the true story of a woman.
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Lana nodded her head while smiling at Rama.
deg! rama's heart beats just by looking at Lana's smile "oh Lord!! what smile is that?!I'm not strong .." muttered Rama
"later ask permission with Haris let me just." said Rama.
Rama admitted, even though he had the intention to corner, but still he chose a more manly way worthy of his true man. However, Lana is still the legal wife of Haris, so she must ask permission first to Haris.
"no need.. Haris must be a permit anyway.lagian this is a matter of work.." said Lana who sounded very soft in the ears of Rama.
"but I'm not good with Haris Lana. ntar I was the one who permission to Haris directly" said Rama.
"yes, it's up to you." said Lana.
"eh Lan..it's Haris with Rina right??" ask Rama.
Rama swore when he got out of the car he would beat Haris to pieces if he dared to make out with other women behind Lana.
"it's not.it's Riana." answered Lana
Rama looked at Lana in confusion. Obviously it was Rina's boyfriend Haris, but Lan said that it was Riana.
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While at another place, Haris was accompanying Riana to the boutique.
"honey.I like the blue ones." said Riana.
Now Haris is accompanying Riana to choose a dress. Because tomorrow night there will be a party at Riana's office, so they decided to shop.
connect...!!!
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