THE HEIR OF HAVILAH

LIMA

Desperate to touch the woman, even though he knew he would never be able to do it again, Jason grabbed Olivia by the hand. "My anger at myself is even greater than your anger at me."

"Jason, Jason, stop!" Olivia screams." I can't stand it!" Olivia snatched her hand from Jason's grasp, taking a few steps back. Tears welled up in her eyes, but Olivia held herself back as hard as she could. Anger began to emerge, peaking. It was as if his life was being shattered like broken glass. He wanted to throw the fragments towards Jason. Hurt that guy, didn't Jason hurt me that much?thought Olivia. "Take Megan here," demanded Olivia, her body trembling."I want to look Megan in the eye. Lucy, the bridesmaid's coordinator, warns me that I'm taking a big risk if I'm friends with Megan, but I'm too trusting this guy to be stupid and even sorry for the girl.

Megan's life is hard. Maniac dad. You've thought about that? Father killed you.

Why did you get Megan Duffy pregnant?

How could that have happened?

When's?

that's core. We were never apart. Why didn't you ever say anything?

Are you crazy, Jason? Did you lose control that time?

Wh why?

You got me. Youlove me. You say it so often that I can't count anymore. You don't like Megan Duff. Like maybe you're fucking a girl you don't even like?"

Olivia's words ripped Jason's heart apart. "Alhcohol, what else is the reason?" Jason is sad. "I must have thought he was you then.but, no!"

Jason rejected the explanation. "No, he can't be like you. I'm drunk, Liv, I have to live with that reality for the rest of my life. When does? A few months ago, after Sean Duffy's birthday party. When I tell you I'll stop by. Which sucks, actually I don't want to come but I feel like I have to show up, even if it's just for a little while. Because Sean's on my team."

Olivia forced herself not to cry roaring. The crying should be held until he is alone.

"Your team member? I am very proud of your athletic ability. You're a good athlete, but Sean Duffy, you know he's a drunk. Why are you friends with people like that?" Olivia hit Jason's chest so hard that the man lost his balance. "Please, don't let me yell," cried Olivia restrained. "You fucked Megang Duffy, my bridesmaid? That's outrageous." Olivia hugged herself, struggling to stay upright. He had to fight this sense of near fainting. Her beautiful skin turned pale. "Is this a dream?" Olivia looked up, staring at the cloudless blue sky as if the sky could give an answer. "It's just a nightmare, right? answer me!"

Jason's blond head shook his head, embarrassed and desperate. "I don't know how that happened, Liv. I can't believe this could happen." Jason's shoulder slumped. "I'm willing to sacrifice anything as long as I can turn back time. I'll never forgive myself for making you so sad."

"sad?

What do you mean, sad?

"Olivia gritted her teeth." What about this fucking shame?

Don't argue. You humiliated me. I gave up my heart. My soul. My bodies. At least I didn't set you up to marry me because I'm pregnant, because that's what you're gonna feel about the Duffu family. May you and Megan be happy. I would go to the end of the world with you if you asked me to. I was really fooled.

And for the little traitor Megan, all this time I've been helping her when maybe she's using me. You were right when you said he seemed to be hiding something. I was so happy, so happy, that I didn't see what was right in front of me."Olivia exhaled her breath that had been held back since." Oh Jason!" Sadness replaced his anger." I really love you. Your eyes are blue! I used to think it was a beautiful window to the soul. There was nothing in your soul."

Jason took a short breath, feeling a great deal of shame. "You're right." She lost Olivia. It's completely ruined.

Olivia's eye light also disappeared. "I've loved you my whole life. How could you betray us, betray yourself."

"I know." Jason felt himself a loser. Like father.

"You know what?" Olivia raised her chin. It perfectly displays anger and self-esteem. "That's all you can say! You knew! Damn you, Jason." Olivia's voice began to tremble. Sotoy his eyes turned into a pure glint of anger. He deliberately raised his left hand wearing Jason's ring and slapped the handsome man's face as hard as he could. The slap left a red tinge on Jason's tan, as well as a little blood on the spot where the ring hit the face. "Leave me" said Olivia hatefully. "It's your ring, though obviously it means nothing to you." Olivia took the diamond-eyed ring off her finger and threw it at Jason in disgust. "I don't want to see you again." Olivia's breath was blocked by anger and sadness."Go, Jason Corey. Go away and never come back."

Jason awakens from his daydream as a large, soaking hand approaches the open window of the pick-up truck and touches his shoulder. Makes Jason aghast.

"Bruno's?"

"You okay, buddy?"Bruno, who was riding one of the farm tracts looked at him anxiously.

"It must be hot in that pick up. I want the barn to get a cold beer. You want to too?"

Jason blinked hard, hoping that his expression did not seem as shocked as he actually felt. The memories that had suddenly appeared felt even more vivid than before. "No, thanks, Bruno," Jason said, surprised that his voice sounded so normal. "You guys. "You guys. Good progress. Mr. Linfield asked me to accompany him." Jason glanced at the watch. "I'd better get going."

"Then, I'll see you later, boss." Bruno, the giant man, shunned the pick-up, giving Jason a brief greeting while driving away.

I had to get rid of the desperation and failure that was taking hold of me, Jason thought. It seemed like the feeling just appeared. Memories tend to bring up those feelings. Jason convinced himself that the longer he got the better at controlling himself. He is indeed not at all a strong and confident man as many people think. Jason just needs a little past gap to fall back into the empty darkness.

Why are those memories bothering me today? Jason doesn't even dream about Liv very often. Jason learned to control himself, even the conscious. Jason has a responsibility. The longer Harry depends on him. Lately, you could say Jason is the one who runs Havilah.

"You're my confidant, Jason. I'm closer to you than anyone other than your dearest Olivia."

Jason is very strong. Quickly learn. Harry never had to tell him anything twice, just as the owner of Caramba Farm tried so hard to keep Jason. His mother's cancer and the woman's quick death were what brought Jason home. It was really hard. He loved his mother and hated his father forsaking them. But life goes on.