The Heart of the Jutek Girl

A Wound in the Past...

Still with silence... They looked at the beautiful night sky..

"what does Mas Adhi know... I went to Adhi's room this afternoon" Sheena said.

Adhi sighed softly.

"then what do you see...?!"ask Adhi.

Sheena stared blankly ahead at what she was going to say.

"that woman is Indira.. She was my girlfriend when I was in college... And yes.. He died because I prefer a rich girlfriend.. And after she was dumped and she was probably on bail.. He tried to come back to me." continued Adhi who waited a long time for questions from Sheena but not a word came out.

He knew he might be reluctant to ask about it because Sheena might think too much about it. But Adhi wants to start everything without any secrets. And indeed Adhi had placed Sheena as his priority at the moment.

"have you ever had Adhi ***??!" Sheena asked arrived.

Adhi widened her eyes. She did not end up thinking Sheena asked such a lowly thing. What's so bad Adhi in her eyes.

With breath... He answered Sheena's question.

"do you think I'm that bad Na..?!" adhi continued.

Sheena looked at Adhi with glassy eyes.

"i never looked down on Adhi...! But I look down on myself..!" answer Sheena.

"what do I mean Na...?!" said Adhi.

Sheena's tears slid freely on her cheeks. Sheena's sobbing was very painful in Adhi's chest. Like there was a deep wound in his heart. Adhi was still waiting for an answer from Sheena who was still unmoved.

"i should have rejected this matchmaking...!" her crying is breaking. The pain that He had been silent all this time was inevitable.

Iidaaarrr...!

Like in a lightning strike hear the word Sheena said. He did not expect the words to come from Sheena's mouth.

Don't we love each other?but why is it like this?!"inner Adhi.

"what do you mean Na...! say it clearly..!are you angry about Indira?! huh!"

"i say, Indira is only my past that I have buried in Na,,!" adhi was upset.

Adhi came closer to Sheena, turned her body and stared fixedly at her eyes.

"At this time, until later I'm not breathing anymore in this world, all I want is to be able to age with you, raise our children later.."

"i'm not a saint who has never committed a sin but I can assure you one thing that I still have a religion and still know its limits Na..!" adhi continued.

"now I ask you.will you accept that I am weary of wounds and sins this is the only second love after Rizwan's father?"adhi asked with a look of a very sad face even his tears had almost spilled on his cheeks.

"I am precisely mas...!I am full of sins..!I am not worthy of you..!I am not a clean person..!I'm even very dirty..!very dirty mas..!" said Sheena.

"you're not kidding Na...!" what I mean..! "asked Adhi half-tempered. He held back his anger exploding. His hands clenched tightly. And the originally wistful face had already turned red holding back his emotions.

" i'm dirty mas..!I am not worthy of you..! "sheena said with endless tears.

Adhi who was shocked and shocked finally stepped out of the house without saying goodbye. His mind is fucked, he doesn't even know how to think. How could such an innocent girl do such a low... He did not even expect his innocent face to lie to everyone around him.And unfortunately.he only said when two families had planned this wedding.

With a feeling of fear iamenaiki his motorcycle. down a dimly lit road. The cold night and the wind that pierced the ribs were not ignored. It was even like dust that was ready to be carried flying by the wind at any moment.

arriving at the Apartment, Adhi slammed the door hard.

"saalll...!" umpat Adhi while ravaging the goods in the room. His hands were injured and a lot of blood came out. But the wound is nothing compared to the wound in his heart. The taste of love has become a very deep hate.

God is almighty who turns back the heart.happiness, the greatest love is now turned into hatred and disappointment that exceeds the mountain. breaking it into pieces.even the fragments just back pierced his heart again.

Elsewhere, Sheena who was still holding back her sobs lamented her fate. He had promised this morning to lock his feelings away so that no one would open them. But his heart is too fragile and selfish to have Adhi. And finally hurt Adhi's feelings.

His cries were even without a sound anymore.The tears just kept pouring down. Sheena squirms in the corner of her room. The pink room was supposed to be the beginning of Sheena's love and happiness, but it was destroyed soon after.

His mother Searari was listening to their conversation approaching Sheena with a sad face.

"no papa Na... One day someone will accept you for who you are..And remember God will not test man beyond his limits..!" mother said soothing.

"means Sheena must be strong, ma'am...!" he said while wiping his tears.

"of course..! Father's son must be strong..!" said Sheena's father approached and hugged her daughter.

"i think this time we have to leave again from this city.ayah will take you away from Indonesia..!" said Sheena's father.

Sheena and I were surprised.

"once times... We are traveling abroad..! Bosen in the country only..!" sheena's father said chuckling.

"this father...! Not funny to know..!" said Sheena.

"lho really... Can't believe I can take you abroad..?!"continued Sheena's father.

"Ish..dad pahs kepedean ih...! Your most handsome brother is the one who will take you abroad tomorrow..!"said someone who had just come from the direction of the living room.

" mr Fahri...!" Sheena immediately hugged her older sister whom she had long missed.

"mas Fahri deliberately dateng malem malem this way would like to pick you up.. Because tomorrow afternoon we have to leave... Everything is ready...!" Fahri.

Mom and Dad smiled at the happiness of their family. This kind of happiness they feel is enough, and in their hearts each promises that nothing will replace the happiness of the four of them.

Her morning...

Adhi was still curled up in the corner of the room. Sunlight that entered the gap of the room space made Adhi's eyes glare. He was still lazy to move and remained silent in the corner of the room.

Sheena tries to move on with her life. He knew that a guy like Adhi would not accept him who had Luka in the past. He is trying to make peace with the past. He will lock his heart tightly and never reopen it. Either for whatever reason it is because he will not be able to survive again if injured for the second time.

Sheena packed all her stuff. He helped his mother also prepare the necessary items later there.

He told Beta that he resigned today. The reason is because he's moving out of town.

Initially, Beta was angry and did not accept Sheena's resignation. But after Sheena explained at length, Beta finally agreed.

Sheena was at the airport in the afternoon. He was waiting for a call to get on the plane. While waiting He tried to send a Message to Adhi. He tries to make peace with his own heart and then locks his heart inside.

Thank you for the incredible love...

Thank you for such a sweet wound...

Accept happiness for a temporary only..

And sorry for getting you hurt...

Sorry for my silence that torments the heart...

Sorry for my selfishness wanting to curb your heart...

Be happy...

from the woman you may have always hated in the depths of your heart

After seeing the message sent Sheena also stepped onto the plane. Before leaving again he looked back

"goodbye to memories... Goodbye my first love.." Sheena's inner as she wiped the tears that fell on her cheek. The plane took off carrying a heart story that did not arrive.