The Heart Guard Army

Third Rejection, Died

"O Allah..are servants outrageous? The servant only wants to keep the heart for the soul mate of the Servant whom you have prepared, O Allah... Open the door of the Servant's heart if Arzhan is the Servant's soul mate.but close the door of the Servant's heart if Arzhan is only a testator of the Servant's faith, Heal Him as before" said Aisyah in her Do'anya after performing Tahajjud prayers followed by reading the Qur'an and Aisyah felt very sleepy, because she only slept one hour because she thought about Arzhan all night, was this his fault or was it a regular accident...? that's what's troubling her sleep.

After the prayer Aisyah fell asleep on the prayer mat and in her sleep dreamed she met Arzhan in the dream there was a conversation,

"Aisha.forgive Me.This is not your fault.I will not bother you anymore...You may not accept My love, but please accept my gift...Aisyah..take this, ..I say goodbye Aisyah.May you be happy with your soul mate later" Arzhan said in Aisyah's dream.

In the dream, Arzhan and Aisyah wore white clothes but were separated by the ravine when Arzhan gave cin-cin a pair given as a gift for Aisyah's future marriage, when Arzhan began to walk backwards leaving Aisyah then Aisyah was confused to chase after him because there was a ravine before Aisyah so Aisyah could only shout loudly "Arzhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...." Shouted Aisyah who instantly woke up from her sleep because something woke her up

"The Asholaaatu Khoiru Minannaum...." It turned out that the morning adhan that was reverberating woke up Aisyah's deep sleep for a while

"Astaghfirullahaladziim.dream what I am...O Allah may only be limited to dreams" said Aisyah who now sits leaning against the wall attached to her mattress at the cost she left.

*****

The Campus

"Aisyah.later out Makul jenguk Arzhan yuk.saidi He has not realized, but continues to mention your name constantly.Pity Him" said Halizah half persuaded.

"Yes... God willing." said Aisyah briefly.

In his mind now was not careless, thinking about his dream but Aisyah was still able to control herself because Aisyah knew, as well as the dream was not told to anyone, she said, because it can cause misinterpretation if it is conveyed to the wrong person, so just be buried and see the reality later.

"Alhamdulillah... The meaning is done, we stop by the fruit shop first huh Zah...?" aisyah said with a question

"Okok ready Ayesha... I brought a motorcycle today intentionally so we can stop by to buy fruit..hehehe" replied Halizah.

*****

In the hospital

"Assynoltom... Aunt Rima.." said Halizah who did know her mother Arzhan.

"Waalaikumussalam...Halizah..eum..ini Ayesha right?" He looked closely at Aisyah's face

"Iiii Yes Aunt..." Answer Aisyah awkwardly and stammeringly

"Where is Arzhan Tan?" Tanya Halizah broke the awkwardness between Aisyah and Ibu Rima

"Still unconscious, Arzhan called Aisyah's name continuously...." Aunty Rima answered, her face bowed, and let Aisyah in, while Halizah, who knew her, waited outside

"Ages...You're not coming?" Tanya Aisyah found Halizah even sitting next to Mother Rima

"Nga...Yesterday I went in" he said briefly.

Surely when Aisyah entered Arzhan was not conscious, Aisha took the Mushaf and recited the Surat Ar-Rahman favored by Arzhan, then read Al-fatihah, then Do'a for the sick, then recited the Surat Ar-Rahman, and chanted sholawat Tibbil quluub seven times.

"Aaiyesa...." Said Arzhan who was still closed but now his hand moved slightly as if feeling the presence of Aisyah beside him

Arzhan's call made Aisyah pause for a moment to stop her reading, Aisyah's eyes focused on Arzhan's moving fingers, "Alhamdulillah...Arzhan...this is me Ayesha.. beside you.." said Aisyah who made Arzhan slowly start to open his eyes.

After Arzhan was completely aware Aisyah directly came out intending to call Mother Rima

****

One week passed Arzhan had gone home after three days after Aisyah visited him, but now that they had both become friends, Arzhan had been dating the Princess who a few days since Arzhan was treated always pay attention to Arzhan. Not infrequently Arzhan and the Princess showed their harmony in front of Aisyah, but Aisyah was not jealous and looked ordinary.

Many say that the Princess is only a means of outlet, but Aisyah thinks and hopes that Arzhan really loves the Princess not to vent his disappointment towards Aisyah.

There was a significant change in Arzhan, but there was something that did not change from him, namely always paying attention and protecting Aisyah from male disorders that often made Aisyah uncomfortable. "This Arzhan already has a girlfriend but still cares about me...Yes it is important He only considers Me his best friend no more" muttered Aisha every Arzhan gave attention to him.

The peak of Arzhan's disappointment that makes him look still in love with Aisyah when Afrizal boy who is classmate with Aisyah openly expressed love in front of Aisyah, and rightly Arzhan was so jealous that when it did not think about the feelings of the Princess at all.

"Aisha... I know we're just best friends, but somehow my heart hurt when Afrizal shot you, even though you didn't accept it, but I still don't like it" arzhan said after Aisyah rejected Afrizal's love statement

"Don't do it, remember! You already have a happy Princess with him." said Aisyah briefly and immediately left Arzhan.

"Aisha... Will you be my lover?" Arzhan wrote in his WhatsApp message sent to Aisyah

"I told you Arzhan! You keep me away.I don't want to hurt Princess's feelings..." Aisha replied with full affirmation

"Well, Ayesha, if that's what you want, don't expect to see me again...Thanks for everything...Anaa Uhibbuki Lovely...." Arzhan wrote, which Aisyah did not answer and he did his car at high speed but unfortunately this time he again accident when passing a road near the ravine, for some reason his eyes looked at the ravine like a road so his car plunged into the abyss

"Aaaaaaaa......" Shouted Arzhan as the front of his car began to fall into the abyss.

Arzhan died on the spot and was hot news on campus that morning.

"What's? Are you serious? Don't joke, Zah...Exactly 15 minutes from the distance you mentioned the accident I'm still receiving messages from him..." Ask Aisyah who still does not believe

"Yes, this morning Aunt Rima called me, everything was missing Hp Arzhan as well, his body was slightly burned because it was bounced from the car" Halizah explained

"astaghfirulabadziim.... Innalilahi wa innailaihi.. O Allah.it turns out my dream is really real..it happened today..." Aisyah said, her body now feels very weak in her mind plunged into anxiety and guilt, for the second time disappointing Arzhan's love statement.

From this experience, Aisyah does not want to be close to a guy who can potentially give her more feelings of hope.

Heart Space

It won't enter another heart when it's locked,

Allow yourself to be alone so as not to hurt another heart,

Love and lust are false, though,

Invisible but felt to be opiate,

I am still not worthy of love,

Only the enemy finds his way.

The Aisyah Heart Room

April 21, 2020