The Gem of the Land of Ginseng

episode 13

*cirebon, February 26, 2016

19.20 WIB

Pov Syam*

I'm walking leisurely between the human traffic inside this mall. GRAGE Mall, one of the shopping malls I ended up visiting tonight.

I went to Gramedia on the second floor of the mall. I'd like to find some reference materials for the national exam.

You can even see I'm carrying a plastic bag with two large books. Of course, it contains a collection of questions and discussions about the national exam last year. One for me, and because I'm a good sister I found one for Euna.

Stalled steps.

"Girl.." My voice brought my mind back to my sister. The voice that disturbed me at the bookstore. The turbulent midnight shadow, washed away by the waves of nestapa. Subject to the rage of something that controls his body. Making a sweaty hair wet my forehead, not wanting to remember it again.

Who's in the wrong? I with KE’don't want to know’anku for letting it? Or is he who drags on until he is unaware his brother is peeping at him behind the door?

My steps led me to sit on a long bench in front of a store stall. I was pensive, remembering what happened this morning.

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L saw. The Korean girl was standing in front of a gas stove. Her face showed a cute expression every time it touched her thin lips, confused as to what to do.

Sometimes he squatted watching the gas cylinder, acting like understanding but it only touched the surface of the tube. Fear of being wrong.

Several times his hand turned the stove lever that never lit. I just looked up at her upstairs. Not yet intended to go down and help.

"Ohhhh.. Eottae ion?"

("Ussch.. How's it?") He began to despair. He crouched down while holding his head. Hope the confused face is hidden behind the strands of a sleeping dress that is unable to cover the legs of the trunk.

Looks like he wants to cook something first before taking a shower. Yes, Euna and I are the type of people who are a bit uncomfortable if eating before bathing.

I looked closely, She was wearing a blue dress. Didn't he still wear pajamas last night? That filthy? Wet? The smooth white neck made my maleness blood rustle.

My iris widened, remembering the events of last night that blinded my heart and mind. Blinded my feelings. Revealing that I am nothing like an animal riding on my own guilt.

Shit, thought. From the beginning I could just walk out that door and go back to my room.

Okay, Syam Hendra Purnama. Now how am I supposed to? Pretend nothing happened and act like usual? Covering up everything by acting like a good brother?

Nah! I can't even forget that one bit. Even though he didn't realize it, I'm sure it would be awkward every time I cross paths with him. We live more. Not to mention, our relationship is not good right now either. Come on. It's his fault, right? Aye! He's the wrong one! Because they didn't close the door!

No. gabe. That's just my justification. It's not really Euna's fault. It's my fault for sneaking into her room for that stupid gift. She is a teenage girl entering puberty. It's natural for a child of his age to know such a thing. And I can't judge him by being too conservative.

Yeah, I'm just her brother. Not his mother or father. And you can add the word 'left' to clarify our distance.

As for Dad's laptop, I didn't think of anything else but coincidence. Coincidentally he borrowed it, happened to him idly and opened the file storage, happened to he saw ‘something’ and then ‘naluria’ interested, happened to be surprised.

Ah, think what I am. No, all this time I've seen she's a plain girl who even closes her eyes when the French kiss scene is played in the movie.

I was too stupid to realize my brother's maturity, or was he poisoned by certain parties? Hmm, the first suspect I thought of, his friend. What was his name at the time, umm.. Sarah's? don't blame others first. But maybe I can find him later.

"Ahaaaa...!"

Suddenly Euna's face lifted. His little lips opened up like an idea. Which actually makes me feel bad. He quickly went to the back room. And come back with something in his hand.

Whatisit? He's from the tool storage shed, right? The mind was filled with questions about what this child was going to do. Okay fine! Let's ignore my anxiety first, ‘ide brilliant’ my sister a moment ago made me overwhelmed with anxiety.

The girl took out something and was about to plug it into the tube hole. It's kan…..

A screwdriver?! my thinking. My eyes are rounded. Instantly I went down and snatched the thing from his hand. Presumably my sudden presence surprised him a little.

"O-appa.." He nodded for a moment. He looked at the screwdriver in my hand and turned to look at my face. His voice suddenly scowled. Ill-mannered.

"Mwo il-iya?"

("What's up?") His murmurs didn't see me. Still angry, right?

"Stupid! Then you can make sure the whole house." I tried not to touch him.

I crouched down and removed the gas hose. I lifted the other tube on the side of the dish rack and started installing it. Damnit damnit! how do you want to try? My soul is in my heart.

"J-jeug-yeah... Neo tto mwol wonhaneungeoya? Eunaneun moleunoyo."

"Let my sister cook. Brother doesn't know you're still that angry. Brother is really sorry."

He fell silent and looked at me with a hard look. I poured the vegetable oil into the pan, and began to heat it.

"Euna can cook by itself, really." Said persisting. I turned my back on him and started cooking only a small sigh.

"Noodle cooking, right? I'd be mad if I knew you ate noodles every day. Not healthy, he said."

"Euna can! Cook... Um... Eggs.. Yes egg!" He seems to think. Heh? The cow's eye egg? A daftar? That's progress, I thought.

"Boiled." Further. I looked at her flat and went back to cooking.

"You're a big boy, and you won't make sense of you. It is up to you if you want to eat or not. The important thing is that you try to cook for you. Even if you don't eat." Saying slowly.

Indeed, from yesterday the food I made for Euna was still intact. I even ate it when I got home from school.

He didn't budge, but I think he's still staring behind me. Then he pulled up the dining table and started waiting for my cooking. I don't want to cook an omelet. I put slices of onions and chili into a whisk of eggs in a bowl, not forgetting I added salt and flavoring. I also started frying it.

"More.."

I put a plate of omelet on the table. His lips were pursed as if he did not like it if we had to make up. He took one and ate it.

"Where?"

"It's normal!" Keto. I just smiled at her looking at her. She looks just like Mom. Obviously I have to take care of him. And how can you have such a taste with this girl?

My body stiffens. My roma brushed between the skin of my arm. I looked at Euna, but not she I saw, but her reflection who sighed favorably without clothing, gurgled in the sighs of hunting.

My eyes were wide as if I wanted to jump off my petals. My brow frowned unable to interpret what I saw. Is correct. What made me sting until I was gone.

Without know....

"Hey Euna's..."

I'm no longer human.

"Hmm?" He just nodded slowly while chewing his food.

The ‘hardened’ by passion towards my sister.

"Eumm..." I'm upset, the surface of the table is now the object that caught the end of my eye.

An.... Bajin..!

"Why is there a laptop in your room?" Ask suddenly. I can see his face changing.

An idiot!

"Auh??"

The spoon he held fell on the plate. It makes a pretty noisy clanging sound. The atmosphere turned unpleasant.

Silence, as if the world were separating us from its confines. Ah, yes. I remember this. It's the same as when I was nervous about facing Euna first.

"Euhh, I mean just now brother sepet see. S-so your room is a little open." My panic tries to correct my words. Heard it was rather calm.

"Ohh That.. I borrowed it yesterday for a job." Short words. He put the rice back in his mouth. She lying? Thought..

Nah! maybe he's right. The initial goal is to do the task possible. I was a late sober.

"Why is Oppa so tense?" Inquiringly. I think he caught my suspicion.

"Ah? Ahahaha. Where's tense? Not really!" I chuckled while scratching my head. Suddenly he interrupted.

"Euh, uhmm.. That's... Oppa, I-I want to say something. Actually, about us... I'm just......" He tapped his two fingers. His face was slightly reddened, like holding back his malignant veins.heh? Lothawat! He wants to tell me about the Semalem incident? In front of me directly?

"A-ahhhhh!!! A-anu, you're leaving alone again right? brother left first huh?" I was not ready, immediately pulled the bench and immediately moved. Before Euna could stop me, I was out the door.

That I alone destroyed everything

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