The Examination of Love for a Princess
Chapter 31
Suzy has been at Sungjong's family home for a week, Suzy just daydreams in the back of Sungjong's house thinking about where she's going after this because there's no way she'll be hitchhiking here constantly because it'll endanger herself. For a long time his stomach will also enlarge and it can make a big problem for him.
"Daddy eottokhe! What am I supposed to do with you boys? If we're here then the queen mother must be intent on killing us later, she just wants Sowon and her son to inherit the throne. Your father is more concerned with them now than with us, you're a kid, do you understand what I'm saying? Why is your mother's fate bad son when once your mother's faith is only married to ordinary people and we love each other then happy forever, but even your mother drew with the prince of this country unexpectedly huft.. Aish.." said Suzy stroked her stomach while communicating with her son.
Suzy enjoys the air and the view at Sungjong's house, which is now her favorite place to draw. All who loved him always accompanied him in turn and persuaded him to return to the palace but he was reluctant to let alone see the changes Myungsoo who did not care about him made him increasingly want to leave the palace, Myungsoo is the reason for staying, but if Myungsoo prefers Sowon, then what can Suzy do besides disappear.
"The air is getting colder because the wind is strong, let's go in. You don't even bring your warm clothes when you sit here" Sohee said, giving Suzy warm clothes and sitting on her left side. Eunji sat on his right side.
"I don't feel cold, I like it cool here and I can paint a lot of paintings here" Suzy replied to Sohee.
"Zy, you really don't want to go back to the palace anymore. Indeed in the palace there is no or rather no one has realized your departure because they are still busy with the presence of Jungsoo. But your departure will make Sowon even happier because you feel you've been eliminated from Myungsoo's side of life without him trying anything. She used Myungsoo's sympathy to love him, but trust me Myungsoo only loves you. Are you sure you don't want to go back to the palace? The palace is Zy's home" now Eunji tries to persuade Suzy to return to the palace.
"I don't care about them anymore, whether they're together or not I don't care anymore. He had also kicked me out so stop you guys from persuading me back to the palace and pretend to be honorable because I was fed up there. Myungsoo was only subject to the power of the palace, he could not understand my feelings, right now only Sowon, Sowon and Sowon were on his mind" Suzy shouted annoyedly.
"Zy control your emotions, we won't force you back to the palace again so be calm. We just want what's best for you" Sohee hugged Suzy from the side.
"Then what are you going to do Zy? You have no intention of planning to go far away from us?"
"I plan to go back home in Busan and work there again or follow my brother to Sokcho, I've already divorced Myungsoo verbally so I can't go around the palace anymore because it will make them happy because it can step on my pride."
"Zy why this is so hiks.., we came together but why your love destiny with Myungsoo must be so tragic like this, tragedy after tragedy keeps coming to you if I were you, would I be as strong as you? I definitely won't be able to. You're not here to go anywhere, mom and dad wouldn't mind if you stayed here with us"
"It's Sohee, I'm fine. I'll visit you often later, and you can also come whenever you want if you miss me"
"What your decision can't be changed anymore, I'll talk to Myungsoo. You just misunderstand because of the play that Sowon did, why you are so selfish and stubborn to attach importance to your ego"
"Let's just Eunji, I'll be fine without Myungsoo so you don't have to explain or talk anything to Myungsoo about me because I'm not important to him so it's all for nothing"
"It's late in the afternoon, let's go inside" Sohee asked after gesturing for Eunji not to talk anymore because it would make Suzy more emotional.
Her night.
Sungjong and Sohee chatted on their bed, talking about how Myungsoo and Suzy had a relationship like this.
"How are you doing in the palace?"
"Still as usual. They are still happy with Jungsoo so all praise Sowon, no one cares about Suzy's departure or precisely has not realized her departure other than us"
"Did Myungsoo really not care about Suzy anymore? There he really has changed his heart to love Sowon now to not care about his love for Suzy again. What their love that grew over the years was just like this in the end."
"Where might Myungsoo love Sowon and no longer care for Suzy, do not care recklessly dear. I'm sure they just misunderstood, though, Myungsoo is not indifferent to Suzy but Myungsoo still feels guilty to Sowon because he caused Sowon to fall and even Sowon almost took his life for the sake of the future prince of the palace so where might Myungsoo not feel guilty. Suzy's doing all right? I'm a little worried about seeing that gloomy face while I'm here"
"Suzy yes is still a stubborn Suzy like that, but I know her inner self is currently hurt by thinking about her feelings with Myungsoo. But Sungjong, Eunji felt that something strange happened that night. Or maybe..."
"Have, don't think about them, go to sleep. You must be tired too."
"Alright, you too. You must be tired all day long diistana activities"
"It's my job, baby"
"alright. Good night"
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This morning Eunji invited Myungsoo to talk together at the park near the library where they often spend their study time first. It had been half an hour the two sat down but Eunji was still silent while looking at the fish pond that was opposite the park.
"What are you asking me to meet? Is it just to be quiet. I have a job in the government department"
"Yung, it's been a week that Suzy's gone. Don't you want to pick her up at Lee's secretary's house? Don't you love her anymore"
"Leave it. He who wants to go what I picked him up for, let him do what he likes? You know every word that comes out of his mouth is like a knife that wants to stab me in the heart. He said I was dead and scolded me, this time I won't budge on him. There was a wife who was so mean to her husband, but what pissed me off was that she lost her mother's taste for Sowon. Obviously it was Jungsoo's birth that I hit him to the table and made Sowon almost die but Suzy slandered that Sowon was pretending. Does this make me upset and sad about it? Because the envy of Sowon who gave birth to Jungsoo made it so. However, I can not eliminate the existence of Sowon and Jungsoo in my life even though they are tragedies beyond my expectations" Myungsoo said upset and issued uneg-uneg in his heart.
"Then just eliminate the existence of Suzy? Suzy jealous means she loves you so much. At the birth of Jungsoo you only saw Sowon in pain, but did you know Suzy's heart was also very sick because of that" Eunji said calmly and wisely.
"That day Sowon was on the verge of Eunji's death, where could I think of how Suzy felt again"
"It's worth it that Suzy wants to leave you and the palace forever. Because in your eyes there is only Sowon, Sowon and Sowon are not Suzy anymore, pity poor Suzy when she is a strong woman. For your sake he holds everything back, gives up everything and does things he doesn't like for your sake. He's been holding back and holding on for so long and yet he's still missing you, I feel like there's an injustice to him anyway Suzy's slandering Sowon or not we don't know the truth. If I were you then I would ask the healer who helped Sowon give birth that night, would that night she overestimate the state of Sowon dying or not? On the verge of death it's true or just fabricated we don't know?"
"That kind of problem where it might be engineering or lying, Eunji! it's not a playful thing but it's about someone's life how can this be a charade"
"By gaining your affection, for your position, for the sake of property and for the throne of the palace. Everything that happened that night could have been engineered because I was there that night, too. When the queen mother would come home with me the healer had said that everything would be fine, some time this Sowon also often talked a lot to the queen mother so I feel there is something strange with all this. Or everything that happened was planned carefully in advance to attract your attention to sympathize and turn into love him"
"Eunji, what else do you know? Tell me everything immediately. I need to know the truth that's covered up" Myungsoo asked her best friend to tell her a deeper story.
"You think carefully about all my words and find out for yourself the clarity on this, don't be a stupid man just out of pity. I helped you enough Myung because you've been like my brother since childhood, but if you still don't understand also ask the healer on duty that night. Myung, if you're not with Suzy then I don't know when me and Seungho will be together. I'm leaving, think things through before you make the decision to act, Suzy might be going a long way if you don't solve your problems right away, and you might not be able to see her again. Think about it carefully Myung and immediately act quickly" said Eunji who immediately left Myungsoo who was still sitting pensive and thinking.
Myungsoo hastily entered his pavilion after pondering for a long time and asked the doctor many things about the state of clarity of Sowon that night, it turns out that Sowon and his mother were the masterminds behind all these events. Myungsoo entered the room and sat down for a while thinking about starting the conversation but Sowon instead came closer with Jungsoo in his hands.
"Yung, you don't want to hold Jungsoo. Look at her so adorable" said Sowon who made Myungsoo stand looking at the one-month-old baby. Myungsoo receives Sowon's words to hold Jungsoo "Look at Myung, the more days he looks more and more like you starting his eyes, lips, nose and even humping he looks like you"
"Why did he come into the world? The future, who knows what it's going to be like?"
"What did you say? Of course his future is to be born rich, because he was born by biting a golden spoon. Blood ties are a strange thing just like Koreans are concerned about children after they are married, his face is similar to yours and similar to the king. Myung, your task is finally done because you will not bear prayer in worship after having a child like Jungsoo who will be your successor"
"Here you go, take him to his room. He's a kid don't take him around because the wind outside is so dangerous for his body"
"Eunha, please take Jungsoo to her room" said Sowon taking over Jungsoo and taking her to Eunha.
"I'll take the little prince, have fun, madam" teased Eunha softly while taking Jungsoo out. Sowon smiled.
"Young, are you missing big brother? If you miss Suzy's sister, pick her up. I don't mind if you want to pick her up"
"Sowon, is there something I want to ask you? You have to answer honestly"
"Nde, what do you want to ask? I'll answer honestly"
"When you're about to give birth to Jungsoo, I bump you to the table or you accidentally crash yourself to the table" Myungsoo said flatly to Sowon as he stood looking out the window.
"I just want an honest answer from you Kim Sowon! You're playing with danger and crashing yourself into the table aren't you? Risking a child's life to play danger, you purposely wanted to make me feel guilty and sympathize with you didn't you? Answer it! Remember, I just want an honest answer from you" Myungsoo growled while blocking Sowon's left hand in pain.
"No, you can't accuse me of that. I'm not that kind of person Myung, trust me." said Sowon nervously because of the accusations and continued to be urged by Myungsoo.
"I just want an honest answer, Sowon. I asked you once again if you accidentally hit the table yourself or if I hit you? Answer"
"Yaaa why are you forcing me to admit it Myung?" said Sowon tried to release Myungsoo's grip on his arm but Myungsoo continued to block it so strongly that Sowon continued to grimace in pain.
"I want Kim Sowon's honest answer. Quickly say because if you lie then Jungsoolah will get his karma, the karma of each of your actions" said Myungsoo with an angry tone that he held.
"If you accept karma let me accept it, don't Jungsoo. Jungsoo didn't know anything" Sowon cried, crying "That night though I tried to hold you back but you still didn't want to stay in my room, you were so cold to me so I had to? That night you happened to push me so I thought at most I would only die if I hit the table, but I didn't expect that the collision almost killed Jungsoo. Myung, look at me who risked my life to give birth to your child, don't be mad at me. I also don't know if Jungsoo chose that day to be born. But I am blessed by God that nothing has happened to me, I have suffered and gained karma so don't be angry anymore"
"You know, you made me into a man with no conscience to Suzy just for defending you who turned out to be so cunning"
"Young, you should think about me too. If it wasn't for me loving you I wouldn't have risked my life to survive, it might have been the day I died" Sowon said, now crying on his knees in front of Myungsoo.
"You're polite, smart, gentle and well-liked by many, but you're so cunning that you scare me. Suzy didn't even say anything, just to see me she didn't want to. But you said he was insulting me, which makes me even more convinced that you are indeed cunning and scary" Myungsoo said as he pushed Sowon and went out of Sowon's room.
"Myung, Myungsoo where are you going? don't go, don't leave me" cried Sowon, sobbing.
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That afternoon Myungsoo went straight to Lee's secretary's house after getting all the confessions from Sowon, when he entered he was greeted by Sungjong's mother who opened the door.
"Anyeong aunty, good afternoon"
"Prince Myungsoo, please come in. I'll make you tea" Sungjong's mother said, letting Myungsoo in.
"No aunt, I just wanted to meet Suzy. Is Suzy around?" asked Myungsoo who was still standing in the guest room.
"Suzy is in the back with Sohee, every afternoon they are always there usually princess Eunji is also here. Let me get between the princes" Mother Sungjong replied taking Myungsoo to the back garden where Suzy and Sohee jokingly commented on Suzy's picture.
"Gomawo aunty"
"What are you saying. Don't be, you're like my son"
Sungjong's mother walks with Myungsoo to the back garden of the house, where Sohee jokes with Suzy who is seen drawing. Myungsoo felt very guilty seeing Suzy who now looks thinner than before, must have weighed everything she went through.
"Suzy, Sohee see who's coming? The role of Myungsoo" said Sungjong's mother reprimanded Suzy and Sohee who was joking immediately speechless to see Myungsoo walking over.
"That's a good thing you came here, I didn't want to see you. So go" said Suzy immediately stood up to leave but prevented Myungsoo.
"Hey, Kim Suzy listen to me, I've misunderstood a lot of things about you. You have also lived here for a few days, is your emotion still not relieved? I admit I was wrong with you a lot but I am a human being who does not escape mistakes, do not waste our time just to be upset with each other, do not separate and we must appreciate our moments together. Let's get better, I came here to pick you up" Myungsoo said with a face that was clear and holding Suzy's hand.
"I don't want to hear what you're saying, Prince Myungsoo, so go! Didn't you say that if I leave never come back forever" Suzy said, shaking Myungsoo's hand and turning her back.
"That word I used because I was emotional, I retracted it"
"You pull back? You think the words already spoken can be pulled back. I'm telling you now that I'm not going home, I'm not going back there again. What am I going home for? To see a husband who has fallen in love with another woman, and to an enemy whom I must call king. L'm.. "
"Decrease your voice, there is Sungjong and Sohee's mother" Myungsoo said, closing Suzy's mouth and immediately rejected Suzy.
"I'm not in the palace why I have to shrink my voice, here no one is listening so I don't have to pretend to be honorable anymore just for you"
"Aren't you afraid of involving your uncle and aunt? Let's talk four eyes"
"Can't, I don't want to talk to you alone anymore, there's nothing I want to talk to you about. Ever since your heart chose Sowon, I've broken up with you and I've also said that even if you come on your knees, carrying a car, a carriage or a horse I'll never come back to you and return to the palace"
"Suzy's"
"Suzy, Myungsoo you guys talk about your problems okay don't put on emotions. I'll let you guys talk four-eyes. Let's go" Sohee said, taking her mother-in-law away.
"Sohee, wait for you to be my witness" said Suzy running towards Sohee who was about to leave with her mother-in-law. "You should be my witness that from now on Myungsoo and I are not husband and wife, nor friends. This guy makes me slowly become someone else and forget about the real me, this guy is so cruel I don't want to be his pet cat anymore"
"Suzy, look at Prince Myungsoo who came here by himself to pick you up. Step back to make the world wide, talk me and Sohee will prepare a night for all of us" said Sungjong's mother who then took Sohee away.
"Zy, listen" Myungsoo said, pulling Suzy's hand closer but was rejected
"Take off..."
"Suzy's"
Myungsoo continues to attract Suzy to be able to bring Suzy to his arms even though Suzy continues to thrash. "Suzy forgive me, I'm wrong I've had a kilaf and a lot wrong with you. After you've been gone for a few days, I've been figuring things out and asking Sowon to find the answer that Sowon did all of this to us." Myungsoo said, Suzy did not feel like she let go of her embrace and held Suzy's shoulder. "I like you so much that I love you so much, I used to want you so much that all our marriages happened"
"Everything's no use anymore, it's too late for Myung. I have forgiven you many times even I have always felt that this status and this life is not worthy of me, I continue to succumb to you, for your sake I change myself, admitting my father's killer as in-laws, I have always been a, learning this is to be honorable but all this does not mean when you now love Sowon" Shouted Suzy with a soft in front of Myungsoo.
"I'm not in love with her, I just feel sorry for her"
"No, you love her the proof you got her pregnant, you kept her all night by the bed, you even trusted her words rather than I said. You made him stand on my head legitimately, and can you understand my feelings? Angry at me, cold at me, ignoring me. Reality is reality but you say pity until this stage, I've decided not to want you anymore so I divorce you" Suzy said turning the other way.
"Not so, we just misunderstood. Don't be angry anymore" Myungsoo said, continuing to approach Suzy.
"You who made the misunderstanding there is Myung, in your heart there is someone else so this mistake appears"
"Let's settle this misunderstanding now, I'm tired of us fighting just because of Sowom"
"Whatever your effort and explanation is free. I don't love you anymore" Suzy said, turning her back to Myungsoo.
"Your speech is not in your heart. You're just angry, how could your heart be no longer me?"
"That's just your thought that claps one hand but in fact I don't love you anymore. I hate living in suffering, all you give me is suffering. I want to be happy so I fire you and divorce you from my heart" Suzy said, turning to Myungsoo again. Myungsoo who heard the statement approached and held Suzy's hand.
"I don't know any false confessions and I'm sorry, for your sake I've done everything. I've lowered my pride and my ego hopes to get your apology and come back the way it used to be. Is it true that you don't love me anymore? Don't want to give me another chance"
"True, I don't love you anymore so I'll never give you a chance." Said Suzy took her hand off Myungsoo and went to her room, Myungsoo also fell silent after listening to Suzy's confession, his heart was really broken like being hit by a hot iron.
In the room Suzy pacing - mandir while continuing to think what to do. Finally he sat in bed. " Aish what should I do, I can't keep living here? My stomach will get bigger and get caught if I'm pregnant while I can't be with Myungsoo anymore, if I'm here for sure I'll be caught pregnant by the palace and the queen mother will definitely get rid of my son, she won't let my life settle down. Come on Suzy thinks, where are you going Aish.." Suzy grumbled as she continued to think and fidget where she was going.
