The Easy On ME
Second Life
“Ngak Sher's. I'm not willing if you go. I can't just take you off. No this can't be. Sherra you have to stay alive. You have to stay alive, look at this world after everything you did”. I said to myself. For a long time I struggled with my own thoughts and feelings. And about 20 minutes later the doctor exited the operating room.
“How is the doctor in my state of adek. its operation how?”. Bu Inez asked the doctor who had just come out of the operating room.
“Patient is lucky, the wound did not hit his nerves, if it happens the possibility of your sister can not be saved. And for now the operation is going well. Wounds on the neck are very sensitive and very dangerous. And for now your sister is still in quite a troubling condition and we will continue to check her out within 2x24 hours, hopefully there is progress. We will immediately move it to the nursery” room.
“Thanks Lord”. Bu inez cried happily and was hugged by Mira. As for me, I can only feel relieved hearing that, not showing any expression. But in my heart I also felt it was quite soothing news.
Sherra lay in the hospital one week unconscious, or in a coma. And all that time I never went into his room and just stayed out of the room. I still don't have the courage to meet Sherra, even though Sherra herself can't talk to me.
And as usual today I came to the hospital again, waiting outside the room, until Kak Mira shouted from inside the room. The panicked me stood up and looked at the glass door.
“Sherra wakar”. I'm shocked. Seeing that I could only shut up and immediately rushed away. I'm not ready to see Sherra again and again.
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Sherra POV
My head hurts, it hurts. I felt my body stiff because I did not move for long enough. I only saw, as I woke up the originally blurry and shadowing gaze began to feel clear and clean. I saw in front of my eyes Brother Inez and Doctor.
“Kak”. I called Brother Inez to see if I was still the world.
“Iya dek”. Brother Inez's voice rang out and he stroked my cheek gently.
“I'm alive?”. I don't believe it.
“Iya deck, you're still alive”. Sister inez started to hug me.
“I'm sorry. Mari”. Pamit doctor.
“Darling you don't think strangely just now huh. Just focus on your recovery and recovery okay”. And I just nodded.
“Oh yes, I want to go see a client first yes.”.
“Client?”. Manya.
“Iya client. Now my brother has taken over our company deck. It's been almost 3 years loh”. Brother Inez said.
“Mira, Pop, Chat. I'm Sherra”.
“OK buk, uh kak”. Mira kebanggungan should call Kak Inez like what.
“Sherra, lo why the hell?”. Ask Mira to me after Inez left.
“Lo why it can be here. I think you will hate and disgust me after all this”. My word to the point.
“Jijik. Hates. Your mind is shallow too. You remember I was also once a more disgusting person than you. But, you don't hate me at all, you're getting closer to me. Sher, there's no reason for me to hate let alone be disgusted by you, after what you've done for us. You may not be aware, but directly you have changed our lives, in a better direction. Thanks to you we are also out of that unclean world. Of our bar-barous and ugly selves and personalities. And because you just feel hurt to Kay's family, continue to do rich things that we should hate the same lo. No, we also know the return of gratitude and anyway you will still accept you in our lives, as friends, friends or maybe brothers”.
“Mira real. We want to thank you very much the same. We know that you are a good person. Lo was just blind from the grudge back then. The evidence is a lot. Lo it's just saying doang right, saying bad things to us, pretentious ngancam us, but originally you also care about us”. Added Chatrine.
“Sok tau lo on”. I said still in a soft voice in astonishment at their piqueness.
“Not support. We've seen for ourselves. Time in the park, I'm sure one hundred percent, your personality is actually, well, weak and also needs a back up. I'm sure you were just lonely then. All your stories are fake, you say you have cancer first, but in fact you are really sick. Your mental illness is sick. But still, all your stories feel real to us. Lo cry I know it's tears that you hold so far. If there is any story to us, do not you pendam yourself”. Poppy also advised me and I just kept daydreaming about what they all said.
“Gue already said, I help you because the cave needs you also”. I said try to give up again.
“Sst, stale tau no. You can't lie anymore. We know everything. From now on we will watch”. Mira shut her mouth so as not to continue speaking again.
“Why lo?”. I asked when they suddenly nodded.
“We have asked this same Bu Inez, uh the same Kak Inez means. And he's allowing, only he's asking us permission to be lo also”. Poppy.
“Izin what?”. Tanyaku.
“We can stay the same. At your home in the forest it”. Mira pokes my arm.
“Apaan sih lo makeup. Unsullied. No, I'm not ngizinin”. Reject me without a second thought.
“Sher come..lah”. Mira's speech is interrupted when the door opens.
“We continue again later ya”. And the three of them came out of my room.
“Go lo”. Dispel me with a cynical tone.
“Gue to ngomong”. Seriously said.
“Cepat”. Cold speech.
“Why?”. He asked and I just cringed in wonder with him.
“Why don't you like it, you hurt because I've done it?!!”. Means back.
“Lo think I will die rich so, after all the pain and sadness that I rasain”. His words just made me ride a apoplexy.
“What did you say, pain? Grief. Realize not lo the same that you talked about just now.it is not how much. You don't know what I'm feeling, 10 years.lo shadow 10 years I don't understand the affection of my parents, 10 years I have to suffer, trauma, pain, loneliness, everything. And you said no. You think I can stay alive with this broken man my life roams freely out here, laughing, being happy and enjoying everything that should belong to me and my parents”. I started to get emotional, my tone was getting heavy and my eyes were getting angry, my head hurt holding back the crying. Honestly, my current condition is not very good. I really felt a lot of pain in my head.
“Go from here”. Banish me.
“Gue not finished”.
“Gue don't care, go from here now”. Every word is full of emphasis.
“Udah Kay mending lo go first”. Mira went back into my room and took Kay out.
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A month later....
“Kak”. I hugged Sean's brother.
“Dek, you're all right?”. Ask worried.
"Why do you have to do that. You want to leave brother”. Brother Sean pouted.
“I didn't mean sister. I'm sorry for making my brother worried. I'm also sorry for just visiting brother now”.
“Kak ngambek deh”. Sean tried to joke around so the situation wasn't too serious.
"Sister I promise, I'll live on, until brother gets out of here. I'm not going to do stupid things anymore. I’m promise”.
“Sister trusts you. And Sister Inez, healthy always yes. Brother must take care of our most precious treasure this”. said Brother Sean paa Kak Inez who was beside me.
“Dong Se. You should always take care of your health here. Pretend to be happy here, but if you're really happy it's better. Brother wants after getting out of here you help brother take care of the company. De morgan must rise”. Said Brother Inez.
“See you again kak”. My words ended the conversation and Sean's brother was taken back to the cell and we left the police station.
“Kak, sister go first. Sister no kan” survey. I said to Inez.
“Keep you?”. Ask Brother Inez.
“I want to stop by somewhere” first.
“Where dekkk?”. Brother Inez is panicking, afraid I'm doing stupid things again.
"I'm going to see Kay's parents. Don't worry, I'm fine. Promises. I won't be doing”. I said and fortunately, Brother Inez managed to persuade me after he tried to ban me. Because brother Inez is afraid I can't help the emotion of seeing them.
I went to visit Kay's parents, after pondering for a long time, I finally decided to meet them. I was waiting for the police in the room to pick up Kay's parents.
“She-Sherra”. Shocked Papi Kay
“How are you?”. I try to get rid of my anger and emotions in them and try to be calm.
“We are good nak”. Mami Kay.
“Thankful that gotu”. Briefly said.
“Nak, we are sorry for everything. We're really sorry to do that. Honestly aunt also felt unsettled after the incident. Aunty had to take sedatives after the incident. Aunt really sorry”. Suddenly Mami Kay knelt before me.
“Lupain aja”. My speech.
“I'm just here to see how you are. I also want to apologize for what happened. Sorry for treating you like that, sorry that I hurt you and terrorized your lives back then”. I still say with a flat face.
“We've forgiven you son Sherra. It's not your fault, it's only natural that you act like, because we've also made your life suffer. It's entirely our fault. We have never had a grudge against what you did to us. We sincerely accept it”. Papi Kay.
“Nak, why did you refuse with our punishment?”. Mami Kay asked fearfully.
“Look at me. do you also want your child to be like me. I still hold my parents' trust. And loss also does not have to be paid for loss. You know, I just wish people like me in the world would just keep me. I don't want the same thing to happen. I know what it's like to lose, I know what it's like to have no one by my side. And no I don't want your kids to feel what I've been feeling all this time.at least you're still alive, Kay still sees you here every day. Kay can still feel her parents' touch".
“Nak, we made you rich gini. Your parents are good people, very good people and even their children are good people. If only we hadn't done that. You can definitely be a happy person at this time”. said Papi Kay grasping my ladder.
“That's the past. I try to forgive you and forget everything. It's true, anger isn't good, so I'll stop everything now. You guys are fine here. I pamit”. My words immediately stood up but Mami Kay held my hand.
“Wait son. Auntie knows we shouldn't have said this to you. Auntie doesn't deserve to ask you this. Auntie has to say this to you. Can you please aunt, please grant one aunt” request. Mami Kay looked at me expectantly and I just stared back at the aunt as if asking what I could help.
“Home we occupy now is no longer habitable, it is not our right anymore. So , aunty doesn't know how Kay is, where she's going to live. Aunt please, can you let her stay with you?”.
“I'll think about it”. I said after being silent for a long time and let go of Mami Kay's hand.
