The Destiny of Love Rania

CHAPTER 9 (LOVE ADVICE)

Like the previous nights Sofwa always woke up in the third of the night to return to honor Him. He tried to strengthen his body to go to the bathroom and take ablution even though the infusion was still attached to his left hand. He did not wake his mother who appeared to be asleep. He felt so sorry for his mother, but what was the power again? The sadness of his heart could not be hidden from his family which was finally revealed as well. His family is the one who is his reinforcement at the moment. His mother and twin brother, Raihan. They're all he's got. While his father had long left them without any news, either still alive or not, Sofwa did not know.

At the same time a nurse entered Sofwa's room, the nurse found Sofwa who was again limping down the road to the bathroom. The nurse spontan helps Sofwa.

“Let me help ya?” the nurse turned out to be Fitra.

Sofwa just smiled as she nodded. Fitra guided Sofwa to the bathroom door and waited outside the door until Sofwa finished ablution.

“Thank you yes, but. sorry let me alone. I've taken wudhu”

“Ooh.. sorry, I don't know” said Fitra

“You want to pray tahajud?” Fitra dared to ask.

“Iya”

“If you can know whose name you are?” Fithy asked again.

“I think you already know my name, why ask again” Sofwa said a little ketus.

“To convince you” replied Fitra.

“Nayla”

“But I'm more pleased with Sofwa's name. May I call you Sofwa”

“As far as you are”

Fitra fell silent, it felt like she wanted to continue the chat with Sofwa but she was like she was running out of words hearing Sofwa's short answer.

“Sorry yes... I don't need anything else, I want to be alone. You can go now kok” Sofwa shooing Fitra smoothly. Fitrapun know themselves and directly out of Sofwa's room.

Moments later Sofwapun drowned in his tahajud, as long as he prayed tears unceasingly flowed on his cheeks, his swollen eyes were even more moist. After the prayer he continued to recite and pray a long prayer, shedding all his sorrow, complaining of all his inner destruction to God. From the window Fitra saw it all, saw and heard the outpouring of the woman's heart.

“It's excessive love. Allah does not like His servants like this” said Fitra who unbeknownst to Sofwa was standing right in front of Sofwa who happened to close his eyes when praying.

“You....!!!” Sofwa was shocked by Fitra's presence and by her words just now.

“Sorry before.. if I was presumptuous to have heard all your prayers” said Fitra felt bad.

"Why are you again?” this time Sofwa was really angry.

'Who is he? How dare he convict me of the no-no' Inner Sofwa.

“Entah why there is an urge from my heart to get to know you more deeply and help you to get out of the heart problems that you feel today” said Fitra.

“I'm not a tau. I know because I see and hear. I've been watching you for 1 month. I want to help you out of this heart problem.” Press Fitra.

“But, for what? Do you not know me? Why would you help me? Anyway I don't need help from anyone” Sofwa rebelled.

“Not knowing you doesn't mean you can't help you, right? we are both human beings, creatures of His creation. One of our obligations to other human beings is to help him who is again in sorrow or distress and also help each other in kindness.” Said Fitra slowly.

“Iya. But I don't need anyone's help right now. Suffice it to Allah to help me..”.

“Iya. I know, only Allah can help His servants. But God would not change his servant if he did not try to change him.  It means that you can grieve, cry and complain all your disrespect because of your failed love, but you should not be fixated on your sadness alone. You also have to get up. You must give a time limit until when you are sad because of this love, do not drag on, do not overdo it. Because Allah does not like His excessive servant like this”

“I noticed you haven't been able to rise from your slump. Even still ‘enjoy it’. It's too dramatic that you're the most miserable woman in the world. You have not been able to give away your lost love that” Affirm Fitra.

“Sofwa, I didn't know you before. But allow me to help you as a sign there are still humans who care about your suffering”

“Consider me is the answer to the prayer – prayer that you said to Him. I don't mean anything. I really say this because I don't want to see any more sadness in your eyes because of the love that has not been lawful. Sorry if I know. But I've been figuring out for the past month about you and your problems. So, I beg Sofwa. Be a strong woman, even though it is difficult at first but I am sure you can if you always try and remain Istiqomah”

“Don't be fixated on failure in your past, because your life isn't for the past. A beautiful and bright future is waiting for you. You have to move on, move on, turn into a better Sofwa. Show you are not a weak woman, although in reality the woman is weak but do not rule out the possibility you can be a strong woman”

“Sofwa. sometimes we must be able to think for a moment about the destiny that has been set by Him. Maybe for the beginning we find it difficult to accept a destiny that is not in harmony with what we expect. But here is the test of faith that God gives us, the extent to which we can endure our helplessness as human beings against destiny. How can we still be grateful for what has happened despite the pain we feel. This pain that is felt can be treated if we take everything, mengikhlaskan who has gone and never expect it back. Because really hoping to creatures will only swallow disappointment let alone humans the place is wrong and khilaf.”

“The sincerity seems and sounds easy but the realization is so difficult but it will not be so difficult for those who always make God their back. Which is close to Allah” Obviously Fitra is long.

Sofwa was completely stunned, the words that came from the mouth of the handsome nurse were like a pearl that dazzled her heart. With a long sigh Sofwa tried to respond to him.

“Thank you for all the advice. Thank you for your care. Thank you for your kind intentions to help me. I did not finish thinking, it turns out there are still people who are sensitive to the environment like you. Who want to take pains to offer themselves to help others even without being asked. I appreciate that. But, sorry.this is not just a matter of the heart, actually there are still other problems that do make my life destroyed as badly as possible. I didn't just lose my love, I didn't just lose someone, if it was possible I wouldn't be like this. But it's different I lost another one of it and it won't be possible to come back intact as before” cries Sofwa back exploded.

Fitra thought for a moment. Explain where Sofwa's topic of conversation this time. He thought hard and tried to digest the words that came from the words Sofwa.

“What's missing from you?” finally Fitra gave up, she did not know the answer.

“You don't need to know” replied Sofwa.

“Okay.. It's okay, for sure whatever it is assured God will never leave his servants. And He will surely help His servant, no matter how hard it is,”

“The bottom line.. Broken heartache lasts as long as you want it, and will slice the wound as deep as you let it, the challenge is not how you can cope, but rather what you can take as a lesson and a lesson”

Fitra could not stand the need to linger in there, especially just the two of them even though there was Sofwa's mother but it seemed that Sofwa's mother slept very soundly so that she did not realize at all about her existence and their speech. Then Fitra parted out by previously saying La Tahzan to Sofwa.

Fitra's Relief. Sofwa let out a long sigh.he closed his eyes and digested back all the words and advice given by the nurse that he did not know yet what his name was? He only knew tonight, but he felt close. The nurse's words really moved her heart, little by little her chest that was initially tight felt a little relieved. The inner burden that is raging feels airy. His feelings began to calm down. Was this? Sofwa did not know, just a thin smile that again adorned his face.

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