The Dark Time Towards Hidayah

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I reached out to pick up the package of boxes, and doubtfully I picked up the white one and started to light it.

"uhuk...! " i coughed straight up

"hahaha." everyone laughed at me.

"eat it, if it's your child, don't try it... "

mery says.

"drink now, " said Tandi as he offered me a glass of water.

I drank it greedily, because it was a shock that I could cough like that until my eyes let out water., I was so ashamed.

"don't keep going" Tandi said again worried

Titin sneered again. "cie. this is the prospective husband of bela very anyway. hahaha"

then Titin showed me how, slowly I could too, and began to be engrossed in billowing white smoke.

after each of our two sticks went home.

time had already shown at four in the afternoon, and in front of the house appeared my mother standing with worry.

"oh Ryan, where are you from" he said as he pulled my hand carrying me in.

I feel guilty for not asking my mother for permission.

"sorry mama, there was my friend who had a birthday, he bought meatballs" I said half lying.

"but you have to let your permission first dong with mama.., let mama not worry! "

"iya ma, I won't repeat ma" I said, looking down.

then I opened my little bag and took out the envelope containing my salary, which I did not open at all.

"this is my first salary, use it for the needs of this house" I said

"do not all ri, later you need." said mama.

"mama aja who holds ma, I if there is a need later will ask the same mama".

with glassy eyes, she received my paycheck envelope and kept it to heart.

I am happy to make my mother happy, even though the value of my salary is not much, maybe it is important sincerity and intention, and my intention is to make both my parents happy, even though whatever bad luck I am behind, but I won't make them sad.

***

I was only fifteen and my curiosity was huge....

" tin since when do you smoke cigarettes, why don't I know anyway? " i asked one afternoon when we were resting in the back room and eating each other's provisions.

"i've been a long time, I'm just afraid of you, because we are in school...! " saw Titin while nyomot tempe fried in my lunchbox.

"i guess you're a good kid, trusses let alone cigarettes...? " many more while chewing spicy crackers that became our favorite at lunch.

"i have actually tasted all kinds of drugs and also drinks....? " he whispered, "fearing that someone was listening.

"whaaat..? " i said in shock, Titin quickly cupped my mouth, and with a gesture she stuck her index finger to the lips.

"you must be lying, because you might be able to buy it. "I said in a whisper.

"ssst dugin' yaa, I never bought any of that...! " titin said again, whispering.

"nih ry, for you" said Tandi as he handed me a plastic pack of cookies and candy.

"cieee is Ryan doang who is loved anyway, for me whereaa? " todong Titin while turning his lips. made us amused and laughed out loud when he saw her.

"yes yes it's the same for you" said tandi fat while pinching Titin's nose.

then Tandi took out a pack of cigarettes and ignited it, then cheerfully he offered us "nih if you want to take aja, one yaa later I went bankrupt hihihi..! "

kontan just gang girls who really like to smoke but rarely buy it immediately scramble to take it, funny it looks like a child who is fighting over candy, and of course I do not want to miss, and of course I do not want to miss,

I take a foreign item for me, with curiosity I turn it on, this time I suck it slowly because I do not want to cough again, cough again, and enjoy every puff feelingfully.

***

gang of girls gathered, Titin, Ega, Arni, Arni, Merry, Rina and also I we went home together while joking , because the distance of the workplace with our village is close, because the distance between the workplace and our village is close, we just walk around and do not need to take public transport.

"guy's, Robert's night tar ngajakin to lembang you know.... would you like to come along? " said merry

"hah the Robert who rode the pajero? " ask Ega while cheering

"yes that one, then he wants to take his friend... ! "

"you wanna come along? " Titin elbowed me slowly.

"hahh?... where can I go far into the night again? " my words while scowling

indeed my family is very strict with me actually I can not play far let alone the same boys, but since I work it seems that the rules are a little loose.., "maybe still be able" I think.

"i want to try to come with you guys, but what are the permissions" I said

"don't worry ry, as long as you want to follow, the same business licensing mah gaaampangggg.... , hand over Merry...! " said merry pd.

"are you afraid of Ryan's mother? "

Titin who knows very well how my mother's nature says.

"gaaampaaang, tar I said I want anther I buy clothes. "

after we agreed to gather at the end of the complex after magrib waited for Robert and his friends, we disbanded to each other's homes.

***

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as soon as we face the current situation, do not forget,

there are still people who need us.....

there is still something we can do for others..

minimal smile....

don't take the others down because of our complaints...

remember there are more suffering than us....

don't make the status unsettling .,...

do not report distress.....

strengthen others, and He will strengthen you.

ngertiii....

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