THE CLEAR SKY Behind the Black Clouds
Memories
Clarissa's tears just trickled down as she entered the apartment she once shared with her future husband.
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It's been two years but Clarissa Masi can't forget her future husband, the shadow of a beautiful marriage in place of sobs. The white color of the gown she was wearing turned red on part of her side, with the rain so heavy Clarissa held her lover and sat on the road after she managed to get her lover trapped in a shag car after hitting a tree on the side of the road.
Right now Clarissa is in her room, her mind is far from glaring to her very happy past, the clock is showing at 01.00 in the morning but Clarissa is awake tomorrow is the anniversary of the death of her future husband. It has become a routine to visit the Crematorium and the apartment using a black dress and red tulip flower arrangements and will come out with swollen eyes or maybe he will stay there.
The meaning of the red tulip flower with bud petals symbolizes eternal love and conveys the message if the love you have for the recipient is limitless, the black color represents mourning or death.
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The morning before Clarissa turned off her phone alarm that sounded so loud with a still chaotic feeling Clarissa glanced at her phone screen on her screen visible notification messages from her brother and also emails sent Hana her personal assistant and also a good friend of Clarissa.
Today was the day she would meet her lover again, and just like 2 years before Clarissa wore a black dress.
As she came down from her room Clarissa's mother looked at her son with a difficult gaze to interpret. Clarissa looked at her mother who was looking at her like that Clarissa could only smile insipidly.
No one dared to forbid Clarissa to do that, Clarissa's mother could not protest with the behavior of her son. The family of the future husband also did not have to come to the crematorium to visit, and, they initially did not approve of Clarissa's relationship because in fact Clarissa's husband-to-be had a fiance.
Clarissa's husband-to-be already had a fiancee introduced by her family, but her future husband Clarissa never agreed because she already had Clarissa as his future wife.
Clarissa knew all that, and had left her future husband but, Clarissa was reassured that only Clarissa was the one she loved in this world.Clarissa's mother and sister had also asked about it, but when he saw the happy face of Clarissa mother and brother could not say anything else because he believed Clarissa would be happy what else Clarissa's mother had also asked for certainty in her future daughter-in-law. And sure enough Clarissa's husband-to-be said yes.
Since the death of her future husband Clarissa never again smiled sincerely, as if all her smiles had gone out with her future husband the once clear sky was now as if covered in thick black cloudless clouds not knowing when the storm was over.
"Mother Clarissa left first" Clarissa said goodbye to her mother.
Her mother just nodded her head a sign of yes.
Tampa said Clarissa walked along the streets of her house to seven bus stops.
Everyone stared hard at him but Clarissa never cared about it. Some even thought Clarissa was crazy.
The bus runs down to the first stop, Clarissa will come down and buy 2 sets of red tulips that she will drop down to the crematorium and into her apartment first.
On the way Clarissa just silent silence while listening to her favorite song through the airphone.
Here Clarissa is now staring blankly at the small urn and the picture frame has a photo of her future husband in the past slipping flowers into a vase.
"Haii, how are you?" Clarissa.
"I'm sorry that I've been questioning you, sorry that I kept holding your shadow tight, sorry that I couldn't let you down, I'm sorry that I couldn't help but think of you, baby" clarissa said again with a puddle of tears in her eyes.
We shouldn't have left, I should have calmed you down in time, it's all my fault I'm sorry and we shouldn't have continued.
After that Clarissa no longer spoke in silence she menagis so it would be, it's been two years but Clarissa Masi alone has not let go of her future husband.
With tears streaming down her cheeks Clarissa bailed for their apartness.
After a visit to the crematorium Clarissa went to her apartment.
The apartment is very clean because every month there will be servants who come to clean it. Clarissa entered the apartment with a heart that roared violently not a word came out of her mouth, Clarissa walked up the stairs and into the room that still holds many memories for her.
In the room was still neatly stored all the clothes and also the goods of her future husband never shifted from his place.
This apartment was once the property of her future husband and will be the hadia of their marriage. What else since dating Clarissa chose to live in this apartment with her future husband.
The plan that Clarissa and her future husband put together was so beautiful she had imagined how later she would become a wife and take care of their child in the future.
But all of those are memories, neatly stored in Clarissa's heart.
Clarissa cried all day in the room, until she felt tired and fell asleep on her own.
At 17:00 p.m., Clarissa woke up from her sleep staring around her room which looked dark because of the closed curtains.
Looking towards her phone screen. Clarissa went downstairs and ordered a ready meal. Looks like he'll just stay here.
Clarissa took out a refrigerator and opened it, took a bottle of mineral water and drank it. It felt like he had dried up after this whole day of crying and his eyes were so swollen.
"I miss you dear" Clarissa said as she sat on the sofa and stared at their praweding picture frame hanging neatly on the wall.
A few moments later.
The apartment bell reads Clarissa opened it seen a delivery courier carrying Clarissa's order, when he wanted to close the door of his apartment back at the glance of people who were busy lifting things.
"It looks like there will be someone moving into the apartment next door" murmured Clarissa.
Putting food on the table, Clarissa walked back to her room to clean up, and wearing her future husband's oversize t-shirt back down to sit on the couch with a meal and a can of soda.
"Honey it looks like I'm going to stay here, Andre's mother and sister must be very sad if you see me at home with my fences like this, at least I reduce their burden" clarissa looked back at their praweding photos.
*"This friend is my first novel I hope you like well" **🥰🥰*
