The Child Ignored

With mbak Niken

For a month everything went well. The farm did not suffer any significant problems. Thank God I am thankful that I felt I could take on this responsibility.

Despite my considerable responsibilities on this farm, I still work as a waitress at one of the Japanese restaurants. I work there because I want to save and go to college, so I can succeed and stand with my feet firmly on my own.

The day after tomorrow there will be forty days of death of the deceased Mr. Danu and also Bu Nana. And today Mr. Niken asked me to drive me to a restaurant to order food to be distributed to widows, widows, and orphaned children.

I'm glad to deliver it. For me, Mbak Niken is like my own brother, although not a sibling, but mbak Niken never once said rude or hurt me. Even every time I explained about finances and the circumstances at the farm, Niken responded with a smile and a thank you. Never once asked the difference in the amount of money I gave. He said everything was clearly in the financial notebook I gave him.

Now it was me and Mbak Niken at the destination. It is located in a very famous restaurant and has three branches.

Ma'am Niken invited me in and sat at one of the tables that are still empty, it turns out that Mbak Niken has made an appointment and will meet directly with the owner.

Want me to refuse and resign, because I don't want to see him again. But then Niken refused and asked me to stay here with him.

They don't want to disappoint and don't want to meet. I was confused about how to say it to mbak Niken, I finally decided to go to the toilet when I saw the figure of a man with a suit who was stepping on our table.

Ma'am Niken allowed, I hurried away to avoid meeting him again. Let fate want to meet me again, but I will try to avoid it and not meet him.

I was in the toilet long enough, until I felt like it was safe, I just went back to my desk.

It turns out that guy's gone. Thank goodness I didn't see him, it was so good.

At the restaurant mbak Niken did not invite me much to talk, we just ate and after that returned home.

When I delivered the Niken bus in front of his house, then Niken asked me to stop by. He said there was something to talk to me about.

I said, and sat in the chair on the porch of the house. And then Niken sat in the chair beside me, in our midst there was a table that was our barrier.

" Riko, sorry in advance, can I ask you something? "

" can you ask, what do you want? "

" emm, it seems like you might notice that you fit in the restaurant just now how is there anything different? "

" means mbak? "

" emm,, look. Are you not comfortable with having to accompany you? "

" not mbak, I was happy to be able to help and accompany mbak wherever mbak want "

" it's actually not the restaurant that makes me uncomfortable, I'm just afraid that it will interfere with the conversation with the restaurant owner "

" Riko, is that an honest answer? " Mr Niken is still asking questions and trying to dig up my honesty. I was confused as to what to answer, I thought it would not hurt if I had to be honest with him.

" Riko, you don't know what you're hiding, this month you don't know enough about yourself, just can't be sure if you're uncomfortable, sorry I didn't mean to dictate to you. But mbak already considers Riko like his own sister, and mbak apologize for making Riko uncomfortable "

Hearing the words of Mr. Niken just now, did not feel my eyes wet, I was moved. I'm glad that mom Niken thinks of me like her sister. I'm glad I have a brother. Maybe I should just tell you what I feel right now.

" bak Niken, I'm sorry if my attitude was less pleasant for mbak Niken. Actually, not because of Niken or the restaurant. It's just that I didn't want to meet the owner of the restaurant "

" why? is there a maslah? "

" no mbak, at the farm everything's fine. But more to the private realm "

" meaning? "

" the man I met earlier, that's my real father "

" what is Rik? did you not hear wrong? "

" yes mbak. He's the one who dumped me ". I saw Ma'am Niken confused by the meaning of my words. Soon I told her a little bit of my story, but Niken listened well, and after listening to all my stories, she made a sound again

" Riko, maybe I don't know what it's like to be you, don't know what it's like to be abandoned. All you know is that it feels abandoned, it hurts. But hearing your story, it turns out that being discarded and unwanted is much more painful. I pray that you remain a good person, even if you hate the person, but I hope you do not hurt him. Even if the wound is so deep. Do not repay evil with evil, because it means you are just like him. Even if you don't want to meet him, you don't understand. It's hard to forgive someone who's been so bad to us. But if you can give advice, try to accept destiny, you cannot continue to avoid destiny. You must prepare yourself, you must be able to meet him and solve the problems that exist "

" thank you very much for your advice, I will think about that in the future, but for now I do not want to meet and deal with him. It's hard to control myself. I'm confused, I don't know what to do, I hate it, but I also want him to acknowledge me as a child. But his rejection at that time, made my wounds so deep. Lucky there was Danu and Bu Nana sir who accepted me at that time."

" i'm not sure you can, it's just a matter of time ". I just responded to Niken's words with a smile.

" thank you mbak, if so I say retreat, want to check the situation on the farm. "my opinion on mbak Niken.

" yes, be careful, you're excited. Do not be afraid to begin, and leave everything to Allah, God willing there will be a way for you to be happy later "

" yes, thank you, ma'am. Assalamualaikum "

" wa'alaikumsalam "

Soon I reinstated the four-wheeled vehicle that used to transport these fresh meats to the farm and started cleaning the cage before I left for work at a Japanese restaurant.