The Casual Lover

Chapter 4

Vela was about to head to the gate to go home when suddenly a matic motor stopped in front of her.

"Don't go home with Saga?"

"There was a promise with him. You want to nawarin me nebeng?"

"Ck, it's up!"

Vela stomped on Jessa's shoulder as the girl clucked in response.

"Kangen's not going to Othello?" ask Jessa.

"Kangenlah. Moreover, lo treat, I miss very much."

"Yeu, you know I've never practiced. But this time I'm paying, "chuck Jessa.

"Well, I became suspicious that you were hockey again," said Vela frowning.

"Silent beb. There's something I want to share with you later."

Vela grunting. "That's right, you know me if there's anything."

***

"This isn't Jess' hockey, this guy's heart is bad."

"Yes, I don't want to."

"They are intentional. Know me, already. Lo takes revenge on Derro for phpin lo. Now you're phpin he's. Trus lo seneng really want to practice me."

Jessa shook her shoulders indifferently. "Likes guelah. What matters is that I'm happy."

Vela scratching. "May I say something?"

"What?"

"Gue is sure that you are really gabisa move on. In conclusion, you're really in love with Derro."

"Bullshit!" jessa's murmuring made Vela chuckle. "Gue never liked it. But I think you know how Derro is."

Vela did not answer again. The girl stirred up her Machiato and sucked it up. Same with Jessa. Vela understood very well how the story of her fellow students from Junior High was. From falling in love to heartbreak. To be a frozen girl like this.

"How about Saga? Still same?"

"What's the same?"

"Just the same status."

Vela raised her face and fell silent along with Jessa who was looking at her deeply.

"Still feeling at home with her 'shadow boyfriend' status?"

***

Vela is heartbroken. It was true that his status with Saga was only a shadow lover. That fact returned with a slap in Vela's heart, resuscitating her position that was nothing more than a surrogate. Yes, he was just a substitute.

"Saga was wrong to put you in that position. You are also wrong with accepting everything as it is. I don't want you to end up hurting Vel."

Jessa's words floated on Vela's coconut. His mind kept repeating the same conversation a few seconds after Jessa left on his bike. Jessa was right, unfortunately Vela did not like it if the reality continues to be revealed.

Vela hates reality. Vela hated herself more for not being able to accept that fact. Vela hates to remember that one day she will have to step down.

"Vel, why are you standing there?"

Vela regained her senses as her mother's soft voice called out her name. Vela's smile spread and continued the steps that had stopped because of daydreaming.

"Want to go again?" ask Vela when she gets to the terrace. Seeing her mom still neat in her work suit. The middle-aged woman simply cleared her throat to answer.

"Hu'um."

"Mom open a clinic?"

"So. God willing, next month all the documents are ready. Now Mama's going to the hospital first."

"OKAY. Success is Ma."

Andini left in her car. Leaving the at-home Vela with her gentle smile, it faded away with the mother's car disappearing in the distance. The good news from Andini is not enough to make Vela stop thinking about Saga. But the more he sighed, the more his chest tightened.

Vela: Hopefully the business you say is important does not bring a wound on your face.

My time is up just to be patient.

***

"So when do we gather the 2018/2019 class of Osis?"

"It's only been a month that we've retired Ra."

"Gue wants it every month we reunion."

"Kayak anniversary aja lo every month. I have no partner."

"Negaca Key, lo too."

Vela knocked on her chin. "Next month there is an annual charity event organized by the community. The special community of osos whose tenure is up. Our school is a permanent member. So, we're obliged to join."

Vela looked at her fellow sausages one by one asking for a response.

"Gue heard there was a test first. Really not?"

"Gue can't come?" ask one of his female friends.

"Why?"

"Gue wants to be free. My experience is pretty neken."

"Don't Fa, we're together. We've been together for almost a year now in Isis lo still stuck?"

"Where are you guys..."

"Don't be pessimistic. You are not alone. I know you're afraid of the test, aren't you? Ngaku. Alesan is depressed everything."

"Lucky fool. I'm serious."

Vela developed her smile looking at the atmosphere of the table that was starting to bustle again. It was as if the complaints that had just been thrown out had never existed.

The smile then faded as her net caught a familiar figure at the end of the canteen. With all appearances until that gaze made Vela fed up. From the condition to the gaze that was thrown away while staring at Vela. Successfully made Vela tremble with emotion and heartache.

Vela stood up and got up leaving the canteen. Leaving the question marks from the entire table was so seeing the drastic change from the leader.

"Vell. Vela."

Vela ignored the call. To be sure her feet were stepping without a definite direction while Jessa was following from behind.

"Ravela, you want to go to school? The school is 44x38 meters wide. It is 164 meters. Lo sure?"

Vela finally stopped. Not because of Jessa's circus speech but because the person she was avoiding was in front of her eyes. The corner of Vela's lips twitched, then twisted her body at Jessa.

"Jess, I'd like to talk to her both first. Can you?"

Jessa's eyebrows clutched, yet she finally nodded. The tall girl turned her body leaving Vela and Saga both.

Vela was confused where to start. His eyes scoured Saga's face with eyebrows clutched in disappointment. Saga herself replied with her gaze before sighing.

"Gue said Vel, the risk..."

"Yes I know. That's how I realized now" said Vela. Vela cremated the tip of her skirt and bit her inner lip.

"Difficult Ga. It was hard to be in Shilla's position. Turns out it's true, only Shilla can accept you for who you are. Same difference with me, I can't accept you as easily as Shilla does. Shilla nerima you like brawl but I don't. Shilla nerima you like to skip, but I don't. Shilla nerima you like to smoke but I don't. Shilla, you hurt yourself, but I can't..."

"..."

Vela paused for a moment. Fear of release and bring feelings.

"Shilla you're free, but I can't tell you that the freedom you mean is the path you're on right now."

"..."

Vela took a breath. "I can't really afford to. But there's nothing I can do. The only reason I care is because of our relationship. So, the only way that I don't care anymore is to break that relationship. So I have no obligation to take care of you anymore."

"Don't squiggle Vel." Vela was speechless hearing Saga's cold voice along with the two boys eyebrows that were tightly intertwined.

"...I'm hot."

The corner of Saga's lips twitched. People would think that he was creepy with bruises in some places on his face. But not with Vela, Vela did not see any emotion in it.

"...we're done." Vela turned her body back to Saga and stepped away from the guy.

"Inget our agreement Vel," Saga's voice but Vela did not turn her head at all.

"There was never an agreement. I just said I'd try. Not a promise," said Vela as he continued walking and then accelerated his pace.

However, without a sound Saga was already behind him and pulled Vela's hand until the girl was forced to turn around.

"Gue started, so I'm the only one who has the right to kill. There is never a word that has the right to come out of your mouth. It's my decision."

Vela was sculpting as Saga spoke calmly in front of her face. The girl blinked in the slices returning Saga's cold gaze. Saga fluttered to then pull Vela's hand back to the canteen.

It would be a big mistake if you think Vela is broken and complies easily. Vela is smart.

Vela stood stiffly in front of the Saga table. A table filled with those guys. They're same. Equally awward when equally aware of the atmosphere.

Saga pulled Vela's hand until Vela was forced to sit next to her. Vela could feel Saga's unsheathed gaze but Vela did not turn to her at all. Saga's grip tightened under the table before Saga took it off.

"What do you want to eat?" ask Saga.

Vela glanced at him. "Gue has eaten," he replied, usually making Saga swerve sharply.

"Well, how come it's all of a sudden sadistic?" ask one of Saga—Benji's friends to stop the meal.

Vela smiled thinly. "It's just normal. I think I'm the same as you."

"Bright. Lah. What the hell is going on? Roman-romannya—"

"Lo mending don't talk Peng," said another Saga team—Satria stopped Benji.

Saga's gaze felt hollowed out her head but Vela even smiled faintly. "Gue back thenwell, it's not good to sit here," Vela began to rise.

"Well, why? Your guy's here."

"Udah broke up."

Vela put on a smile on the cengo face she could see. Vela deliberately raised her voice with the aim that her words could be heard by as many people as possible. Vela turned to Saga who gave a murderous look and a hard face. Vela could see blood vessels appearing on the surface of Saga's clenched hand skin.

Therefore, Vela instantly turned her body a hundred and eighty degrees away from the table.

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