The Butterfly Trap

The Part 58

" But before that can you answer my question?" I try to try as calmly as possible.

Although the pain in my chest was getting rumbling and my breath was like a sting in my throat but I did not want to look weak in front of his eyes, my body felt shaken and my nose felt sore like I had been hit by chili powder.

" What else are we waiting for the commander, we better immediately arrest him and return to Capital" said one of his subordinates.

" How dare you rule me!" his answer was cold which made the others silent.

I chuckled again at the thought of everything that had happened to me, my situation was already very bad and now I was faced with a bitter reality that I had never imagined before, I was sure that everything Castella said was just a lie but now I doubt my thoughts.

" The Grand Duke.." I finally called him.

My voice sounded calm and friendly even though I desperately held back the tears that were already welling up but I stood straight with a confident face and looked straight at him.

" Why did you lock me up in that castle? Why did you get engaged to another woman after you said I was your life? can you give me an answer?"

I clenched my hand trying to convince myself that Zurich would answer all my questions so that all the bad thoughts I could imagine were just my imagination, I believe he'll give you a reason and I'll keep believing him as long as he tells me why.

" I will explain later but now you must return to Capital with me!"

I was disappointed to hear the answer, I tried to smile even though my mind had been torn apart.

" Then what? did you prepare a great cage from the under sea castle this time?"

" Side, this is not to ask such meaningless questions, we must first return to Capital and settle everything"

I did not answer, just stood in the same position and looked at the face of the man I missed so much.

" Pff...doesn't mean yes? so for you I mean nothing, is everything you're telling me just a lie?"

" Stop this shit and come with me or..."

" or what?" I answered quickly, there was a tone of disappointment and a break up something came out of my voice.

I was unable to hold back my tears but I had to be strong, only myself could help me at this moment, I took a deep breath and convinced myself, I glanced for a moment at the tense-looking face before turning my eyes to the valley behind me.

' This is the last one, I will hang my trust on this almost broken rope, if this time your answer still disappoints me, I give up, I give up, I gave up believing that it wasn't your intention to do this to me' I thought before opening my mouth.

" Alright I'll come with you" I said at last.

The look on her face turned into relief, I could see a small, almost invisible smile from her lips.

" But..................... I have a question for you, this is the last question after that I will follow you, are you going to answer me honestly?"

He hesitated for a moment then nodded his head, my nails pressed against the skin of my hands that I was clenched, I could feel fresh blood starting to come out from the skin pressed by my nails, he said, it was quite painful but not yet comparable to the pain in my chest.

' This is a determination of whether I will continue to believe you or not, but I hope you say no even if it's just a lie'.

" Are you the one who told the nobles about my identity, considering that you're the only person I've told about my identity other than those who are already like my own family?"

" What!?"

He was a bit surprised to hear my question, but he seemed to have regained control of the look on his face.

' Please answer no, it is not you who did it', I cried in my heart.

' No, please answer no!'

He did not reply, instead of him turning his back on me and turning his eyes away it seemed like he did not dare to look me in the eye, I still wish he had said no in my heart.

' As long as you say no, I will definitely do anything for me even if I have to sacrifice my life, please say no and we go back to our previous relationship'.

' I trust you Zurich, even if you lie please.please tell me you didn't do it'.

" I'm sorry!"

Those were the only words spoken from his mouth and it managed to make my dead-set tears I could bear so as not to fall on my cheek, I closed my eyes for a moment, I said, I understand the meaning of the answer.

I laughed out loud, though my tears were also rushing down my cheeks, and I had no intention of wiping them off.

" HAHAHA......."

" It's really amazing, isn't it Zurich? Pfff.... You must be happy now, you managed to fool a girl like me, wah..... wow..remarkable!"

I still laughed loudly but Zurich did not reply and even so with the knights there, they were just watching my movements, no sound could be heard from there other than the sound of my heartbreaking laughter.

" That's great, now you're asking me to follow you to Capital? doesn't that mean it's the same as asking me to go into a tiger's den? what will you gain from my sacrifice? is it because I love you that you act so arbitrarily to me?"

" Be quiet, Sisi, I'm doing all this because it's the best decision and you'll understand it later".

" Best decision?" I said with sarcasm.

" It's so cruel of you! you even said that I was your first love? that's right! I'm not going to Capital with you"

" What did you say Sisi?" he stepped closer to me.

" Stop, or I'll kill myself here!" I shouted while pointing the throwing knife that the Prophet gave me.

He stopped and anxiously asked me to keep the knife in hand away from my neck.

" Why do you look worried? isn't this what you want?"

" No Si, I'll tell you the truth so please throw away the dangerous thing first, okay?"

His face looked worried and anxious, he kept asking me to drop the knife hanging around my neck in a desperate tone, it was only after I dropped the knife that he took his eyes off me and began to speak in a desperate voice.

" I locked you in the Under sea castle so you wouldn't go to Capital because..."

" Ugh.."

I felt a sharp object piercing right in my heart, blood running down my chest soaking my shirt and changing its color, I looked at the sharp object that was an arrow.

" Sides?" zurich shouted as he drew closer to me.

Before Zurich got to my place I first felt my body floating in the air, all my energy seemed to disappear from my body, the pain that pierced my heart felt more and more that made me close my eyes but suddenly my hand was grabbed by someone.

" Side, hang in there! I will definitely save you, let's hold my hand and I'll pull you up!" he shouted with an anxious voice.

I coughed a few times and drew fresh blood from my mouth, I had no more strength to reach his hand.

' I am finally free from this suffering, maybe this is the end of my life that has been delayed, I have not had time to meet Miranda, then what about Zeju, he asked me to be careful, he said, now I'm like this'

I looked up at the man who was still trying to pull me up, I saw his wet eyes and his desperate voice kept calling my name, I laughed.

' If at that time I chose to listen to Miranda's words, would it end up like this? I don't know, strangely I even miss Zeju when my breath has almost stopped like this, it's ridiculous'

"Come on Si..hold my hand" cried Zurich in despair which made me look up.

" I'm glad to have known you.. wa....even though.you betrayed me. but..welcome to live the love of my life!" I said while releasing his hand.

I again felt my body expand in the air and fall towards the bottom of the abyss quickly, I could faintly hear Zurich's desperate cry from the top of the cliff, I closed my eyes.

' Zeju..forgive me for not being able to protect myself in the end and forgive me for not being able to return your belongings'.