THE BRONDONG SECRET

49. THE BRONDONG SECRET

HAPPY READING

Kenan POV's

Like night night

previously, this room was illuminated by a sleeping lamp, making lighting

the dim, make drowsiness come faster. Look up at the ceiling

room, while contemplating. It felt increasingly quiet and the sounds of crickets outside

disturbed hearing. This is the third night Beautiful no night in

homehouse. He stayed at the Upil boarding house. He wasn't lying, I checked him out yesterday

there without his knowledge.

My attitude which

avoiding it lately I think it becomes a wonderful trigger overnight on the spot

others. I left early and went home late at night. Will

it's better if by the time I get home, I find him asleep in the room,

than he's still awake.

Lovely to act a little

aggressive if I'm still awake when I get home. She wears sexy clothes

I used to buy it. Then he started teasing me. That's what makes me not

willing. My head is looking at it. The longer I can't

damming my desires. While I've never gotten my ration as

husband.

Honestly I feel there is

something's not right. I think if it's forced it will be a torture for

Is beautiful. I'd love to ask her to check up, but I'm worried if

it would hurt him even more.

That curiosity

dragged me to googling on the internet, though,

also met with my doctor acquaintance who was his friend mbak Adel. Increasingly

hari, I believe in what I face with Indah. But I don't know, though,

how to tell him. It

will hurt her's.

Let him focus more

do the script first. Later after he finishes

everyone, I will try to talk about it carefully and find a way

exit together. If this time discussed, it would be disturbing Beautiful.

***

“Where are you going, baby?”

Once in the morning, the wall clock hasn't shown at 5am, I woke up because

there's noise. My drowsiness ignored because it found beautiful piled up

clothes in a suitcase. The suitcase looks full. Beautiful wearing long pants

and a t-shirt that is not clear in color because of the dim lighting in the

in my room. It looks beautiful to come in the morning and immediately clean up

his clothes.

He looked at me with

sharp gaze. Both hands were placed on the waist, facing me with

ruffled waist. “You still care, where am I going? Some days

last time you purposely avoided me, right?”

I can't speak.

My throat felt very dry and my tongue suddenly stiff could not

take out a word.

Quickly I

get out of bed. I stood looking towards him.

Beautiful bending,

keep her clothes in the suitcase.

Slowly I

approach him, without a sound. I don't want to be beautifully surprised by my movements and

it eventually accelerated his departure.

“Sayang..” Tryin

touching shoulders.

Beautiful hands brushed me off

coarse. “Nevent need to hold. You're disgusted, aren't you the same as me? You don't want any more

I'm touching. Are you deliberately avoiding my touch?”

I don't know what's going on

beautiful Thinking. Definitely negative thinking (nethink) again.

If I had been all this time

avoiding her, not because of her, but rather because I was afraid of hurting her

and don't know how to tell him. Why Beautiful is wrong

understand this anyway? My feelings are not good.

“Darling, I don't

avoiding you though. I'm just tired. Here, I hug.” I tried to dilute

the atmosphere this morning was hot and stifling.

“Nmobile. You are not

need me. You're disgusted by me.” Beautiful now slumped sitting on the floor

next to the messy suitcase. The light in our room

“Indah.” I'm sitting down

on the floor aligning my body with her below. “Darling, I don't

disgusted with you. Who said the hell? I love you.” Clenching

his body into my arms.

“Not for a few days

are you purposely avoiding me? You're not interested in me anymore, are you? Female

the older than you. I can't make you happy, can I?” her voice

getting hoarse and his shoulders started to shake – shake.

“Darling, I'm happy

just the same you. Don't talk about age anymore. Age difference is no longer a problem

for us. We've been through that. We're already married. It means phase difference

that age is no longer relevant we talk about, Indah.”

“Then, why are you

avoiding me? Don't fib. I know, you purposely avoided me.”

“Yes, I intentionally

evades. But not because of you. It's because of me. You are busy

doing the final task. I just want you to concentrate more on it.”

“You know, your way

avoiding me makes my heart hurt. I feel rejected.”

“Bu.

I mean.”

“I know, I'm the one

problems in our relationship. But you purposely avoided me. So no

wrong dong, I suspect with negative thoughts.” His back is used

to remove the tears that started to flow. “Sick, Ken. Be ill. I don't

got nobody, my place to tell stories. I realize I'm the one with the problem.

And you, instead of supporting me, purposely avoided me. Then

who do I want to tell you to? You know what it feels like here to hurt.” Another impact

holding his chest.

“You are disappointed the same

me? Ja. You don't like me, do you? Ja. You don't want to see me, do you?

Yes.” He monologues himself, with his negative thoughts that are not at all

kuuga. Women have their own way of thinking.

“Darling, I don't

intending...” my speech was interrupted because Beautiful pushed my body away from her.

And my embrace slipped. He re-occupied himself with a pile of clothes in the room

suitcase.

“Sana, you sleep

again.” Wipe his hand in front of my face.

“Where are you going?”

I asked a little hard.

“Neas not pretending

care deh. What matters is that I want to fulfill your intentional desires

avoiding me.” He shrugged his shoulders without looking at me.

“So you want to go

from me?” I took a deep breath, trying to ease the emotions raging in

in my chest.

“Iya. Let you not

it's hard to avoid me.”

Since we said

the sacred promise of marriage, never bersit in my mind to leave

my wife's. Now I'm overwhelmed by his crazy desire. Wanna get away from me

said. God, my heart feels like it's going to explode. Is this really what I was thinking

Is beautiful? The woman who said she loved me a few weeks ago? My head

getting dizzy with it.

“What are you talking about?

I don't understand. I don't want you to go. You stay right here. Point. Don't

try going.” Now I'm really angry. Soon I'm out of

room, avoid it in times of unstable emotions like this. I'm afraid if

there will be inappropriate words when my emotions are rising

tall. I don't want to regret later because of the words that came out of

my mouth is out of control.

Not forgetting the key

room from outside.

What day is it anyway?

Why is it runyam like this?

DOC DOC DOC.... “KENAN-S...

OPEN DOOR. CANTALOUPE... OPEN.... !!!”

Beautiful screams echoed throughout the house. I think neighbors

he will also hear his voice. Let alone. Hopefully we don't

visited by RT because it interferes with the comfort of the complex. I think Beautiful will

stop yelling