The Baby Who Raised the Devil

I'm not So Defected (1)

After Henry handed the people who were spying on them to the castle, he came here with the Duke.

It won't be too hard to find my location because I have a tracking device.

Together we took the train back to the castle.

I was deep in thought the whole time.

'What happened?'

Why would Andy know Zachary's tactics?

The boy's name must be Andy. The list also clearly says Andy.

"Most importantly, he's very weak."

I'm afraid he'll be beaten by the waiter.

A strong knight, sincere and wise, there was no way it was Andy.

When I was worried about her, a hand touched my cheek. That was Isaac.

"Sorry, I should have gone here quickly."

“It's okay.”

“... Bocil, why are you always okay?”

"Huh?"

Isaac looked very upset.

I've been through a lot in life, and I've always had a hard time. That's normal for me, so most things don't matter.

My fourth life here is truly fulfilling. But I'm ready to defect, so I don't want anything.

Isaac, who was looking at me, dropped his shoulder. Henry's eyes were sad, and the Duke said nothing.

When I got off the train, the sun was already setting.

Isaac and Henry returned to the room with dim expressions, and I was worried about the children.

Then, Duke bent his knees and made eye contact with me.

"Blaine."

"Yes." Yeah."

"Never do anything so dangerous again."

Is he angry because I'm in trouble?

I didn't mean to, but it must have been annoying for him since I almost got into trouble a few times.

He smiled thinly.

"I'm glad you're not hurt."

“…….”

"Rest."

The duke, who said so, stroked my hair and headed towards the castle.

I touched the duke's hand for a moment.

Feels weird.

“……”

'I don't have time for this. I need to find Zachary quickly.'

Suddenly I hit someone.

“Uuhh.”

When I rubbed my forehead after a loud enough punch, I heard a familiar voice, "Little Miss?"

It's chief.

"What's the problem?"

“I must prepare to defect. So, uh,…"

"Did your anxiety have anything to do with returning home with the Duke and your brothers today?"

"That's not it!"

"I'm definitely right."

“Nothing...”

As I replied while avoiding his gaze, the chairman groaned and looked into my eyes.

"Why did you set such a dangerous goal as defecting?"

“That's because it will be dangerous in the future. If Mina comes, I'll be a victim.”

“With Duke Dubbled protection, things might be different.”

“I don't want to experience it again.”

“It will be different.”

“Dyuke (duke) and the others just think of me as a pet.”

Their love is like loving a cat when they come home. Otherwise, strangely they suddenly loved me so much.

How can they love someone else's child? I'm not a pretty kid like Mina either.

“Small number. How difficult it is to protect you who have become more special than your last life. ”

“……..”

“You have many loyal and talented people. Even Nos Eugene who was a coveted talent even in the imperial family had put those people aside and had always come forward just to take care of your affairs.”

“……..”

"I know Theodore Dubbled, he didn't want to do such a nuisance to his pet."

I didn't say anything. The chief looked at me and said,

"Have you stopped yourself from believing in anyone because you were going to defect?"

"Go! I won't listen!”

“You're afraid of being abandoned by your family again. More risk of failing to defect.”

“Do not continue!”

“That's what you're so afraid of.”

I glared at the chairman with wet eyes. To avoid crying, I bit my lips tightly and clenched my skirt.

He looked at me for a moment and bowed.

I immediately ran to my room, I closed the door and hid under the blanket.

My fear, which had been chained and hidden within me, seemed to have been revealed.

***

I woke up in the darkness and soon realized.

When I realized it, my surroundings started to change.

This was the altar of the Imperial Palace. It was the place where my entire body was torn apart as a sacrifice in the first life.

There's an elephant bag at the altar. That's my bag packed to defect.

My head is half twisted and my whole body is full of wounds.

[Leblaine Fool, do you want to believe in people again after you've been knocked down?]

The adult version of Leblaine, looking at me stood up straight.

'But…. But, the people in Dubbled seem different.'

[That's the same as Duke Amity. You said your father was different. It was like that same with Vallua. You said you'd live differently this time.]

'Maybe this time it's different. I've never had anyone like the Dubbled people in my life before.'

[You think you're special now?]

“…….”

[If Mina came, it would be different. If it is known again that you are the child of a false destiny, you will be banished!]

I covered my ears with both hands.

It was like the pain of being sacrificed and the pain of being whipped by Duke Vallua.

The adult Leblaine that approached me suddenly split into three and became Mina, Duke Amity, and Duke Vallua.

[Will you beg for affection like a beggar again?]

[As usual!!]

Their screaming faces turned strange.

Black liquid dripped from all over the body, and their mouths were filled with sinister sharp teeth.

'Don't come here. Don't come!'

I got up and ran out.

But they kept chasing my shadow.

[Sorry, LeBlaine. But this is your destiny. For us, for the country.]

[Mina is a special child.]

It was completely black and it hit me. I'm suffocating.

I struggled to get out of the thing that had swallowed me down my throat.

'Help me.I don't like it.I don't like it! Help me!'

The dream always ended only after I was completely engulfed in darkness. I'm sure this time too. My hands slowly loosened.

But this time, I saw the light in front of me.

“.... Le.”

“….Blaine.”

Gasp!

I hurriedly opened my eyes. My whole body was covered in cold sweat.

In front of my eyes, I saw Isaac, who was helpless, Henry, full of worry, and Duke, who was holding my hand.

"Are you okay?"

"Are you surprised by what happened today?"

"Control yourself."

This is the light.

I held back my tears as I looked at the three men whose outline was obscured by the light of the lamp.

Even if I didn't see them clearly, I felt that their faces would have worried expressions.

I squeezed Duke's hand. I tried to hold back my tears, but the tears kept coming out.

"Sniff…"

Isaac frowned as he watched me bite my lips tightly to keep from making a sound.

"You fool! Why are you holding it, just cry!”

With that said, I put a lot of strength on my forehead so that I won't drop any tears from my eyes.

"Are you having nightmares?"Henry said so and stroked my head.

“……”

“You must be very scared. I'm sorry."

Henry kept apologizing to me even though it wasn't something to be regretted.

He said he was sorry for coming late even after protecting me, and he said he was sorry for not knowing what I liked.

Duke hugged me.

"I don't know what else to do if you cry."

“…….”

I laughed at his words.

Duke, who doesn't know how to give affection or how to love me, makes it funny and meaningful to love me in a clumsy way.

'I'm stupid. Even though I've lived four times, I'm still stupid.'

I want to believe it again.

He knew he was more likely to get hurt, and he knew it would be easier for him to escape, but he did not want to miss the warmth that touched his skin.

"For the last time, once again."

As I laughed, the faces of the Dubbled people beamed.

"……Dad."

The Duke's gaze trembled for a moment as I called out to him that way.

It was the first title I gave him since I received Etwal.

"Sister."

“Sister, Sister, Sister....!”

“Leblaine just called me....”.

"No, he's talking to me!"

"He's talking to me, you idiot."

Seeing the two of them fighting quickly, I buried my face on the duke's shoulder.

I was in the light. Now that evil dream is not so scary.

That night, I threw away my elephant bag.