The Baby Who Raised the Devil

Traveling to the Past (7)

I took the train to go to the mansion and clasped both of my hands. No matter how much I touched my cold hand, the warmth did not return.

As the train drove by, only one thought flashed through my head.

'What should I say?'

Will my father and brothers trust me? What should I explain to Leah, the servants, and my aunt?

'I wonder if my family will suffer when they know I'm the youngest.'

I kept feeling anxious all the way.

I didn't want to see my father's face become as sad as when I revealed that I was a regressor.

It was all because of me that the temple was directed at my mother and caused my family harm.

As a result, my father lost his beloved wife, and because of the vacant hostess position, Henry was able to be abused, and Isaac grew up without my mother's affection. Johann also could not express his pain as he tried desperately to help the family as an heir.

Lea loses her master and is unable to protect her only family. My aunt lost her dear friend.

'Mama…'

My mom calls me a strong boy, but I'm not that strong at all.

I could never get rid of the guilt.

'Can I tell my family?'

What if they hate me?

Although I am happy with the reunion now, deep down in my heart, I fear they will blame me for my mother's death.

'Why was I born as the son of an evil God? Why was I born with the power that the temple was aiming for?'

I can't forgive myself for being the beginning of all this.

Amidst such thoughts, the carriage was pulled into the mansion. Shortly after, stop. I grabbed the driver's hand and got off the train.

"Lady?"

The chairman, who left the courtyard, looked at me and narrowed his eyebrows.

"What are you doing late at night?"

"Why is the chairman still in the mansion?"

“It's meeting day. Moreover, I have things to discuss with His Majesty with regards to the selection process. ”

"I understand."

The chairman looked at me carefully.

He kept watching me and I felt like he would soon find out what I was feeling.

“Why are you looking at me like that?”

I took a step back and narrowed my eyes,

“It looks like you are thinking of something else.” said the chairman.

"What?"

The chairman nodded lightly.

"Lady."

"Yes." Yeah."

“After living more than half a century, there are times when I can not face the situation as well.”

"…What?"

“People say when it happens, you blame yourself. It's a kind of defense.”

“…….”

“For example I catch a cold because I'm dressed thinly. I'd think it was my fault. But in fact, it's not necessarily my fault. Things like that are out of control.”

"…a weird."

"Why are you saying that when you don't even know what's going on?"I said while pouting.

“After such a long time, I know your habits due to the trauma of abuse. It blames yourself.”

“…….”

"Chairman, you know a lot about a lot of things."

I laughed disappointed with my poor acting skills.

“Omong empty what. I don't know what you think just by looking at your face.”

“I am an old man who has lived for a long time. This is an accumulated experience.”

“…….”

“To blame yourself is not a good habit.”

“…….”

“For example when you get swept up in a storm, why do you criticize yourself when you can praise yourself for not fainting? Why is someone who is generous to others so ambitious towards himself?”

I rolled my eyes.

'I understand. Am I too ambitious for myself?'

I think so.

I only praise others, never praise myself.

Even though my life was twisted by the hatred and desires of others, I always persevered.

So I found out who I am.

'I'm amazing, me!'

I laughed as he stroked my head with the face of a kind old man.

"I've worked hard."

There were only ups and downs when I met disaster when I was a kid, at a time when I could do nothing. After such torture, I ended up making a good person like the chairman by my side.

"The prize is great."

I feel comfortable.

“In the meantime, I have a story to tell.”

"I'll wait."

"Yes." Yeah."

I clenched my fists and entered the mansion. It was past ten, but the lights in the mansion were still on.

As I entered the courtyard, a waiter passing by in clothes and paper approached me with eyes wide open.

The butler, who was guarding the courtyard, also asked with a puzzled expression.

"Lady."

"They're in the library."

I nodded and went to the library.

Upon entering the door, Father, Henry, and Isaac, who were talking, stood up.

Isaac asked with a frown.

"What's the problem? Huh, who's bothering you? Are you all right?"

Isaac turned my body around and checked my condition. Henry also saw my expression.

“Prospective and recommender cannot exit without permission, so how can you get out?”

“Emperor helps me. She must have thought it was because of Cecilia.”

I was looking at my father when I was talking to my brothers. My father only watched me.

'How can my mother say she's not sorry?'

Is it possible to confidently say that he has no regrets about having such a beautiful family?

“Dad, i..”.

I tried to think that it was okay, that it would be fine, and it wasn't my fault, but as soon as I opened my mouth, my voice shook.

Isaac and Henry looked at me anxiously.

“I have... I found the demon hallway in the Imperial Palace. So I went to the past, and..”.

Later then.

Thump-shock!!

The door opened and Johann stepped in with a hardened face.

"Sister?"

"Why did you come back so early?"

As Isaac and Henry asked, Johann hugged me tightly.

"Sister…?"

“…….”

"What the hell is going on?"

Body vibrates.

"Sorry."

“…….”

"I'm sorry."

I looked at my father who had his eyes widened because of Johann, who was constantly apologizing.

When he saw Johann, my father's expression changed very slowly. His expression changed as if he realized something very slowly.

'A…'

I can tell without them saying it.

None of us spoke because we had no choice but to understand the meaning of Johann's apology and why my father's expression changed.

Johann lightly touched my cheek with trembling hands.

“Thank you for staying safe and coming to our side.”

Tears keep flowing.

Although my eyes were glazed over, I could see my mother's smile that resembled that of Johann.

[Son.]

It was like hearing my mother's voice from somewhere.

I usually think I'm a very talkative person. After going through a lot of things, I learned how to survive by talking, so I thought I would be able to speak well at all times.

But the truth is, I can't.

On such a happy day, I could say nothing but cry.

Johann smiled when he saw me crying.

"When you were born, there was something I really wanted to say."

Tears welled up in Johann's eyes and fell on his cheek.

"It's nice to meet you."

“…….”

"I've been waiting for the day to meet you."

“…….”

"My sister."

Silence swept through the study.

Isaac and Henry froze, and Dad looked at me with his stiff body, as if he was rooted in the ground. Johann took something from his hand and handed it to my father.

“Confirmation complete. Leblaine's day in front of the nursery is January 7. On the day of the disappearance of the mother, temple coins were placed inside a blanket.”

“…….”

"Here you go, dad."

He covered his eyes with one hand.

Looking at something I had never seen before, I could only cry, as Isaac and Henry's eyes became increasingly red.

“Do not be foolish. This is impossible. How can the leak, how..”.

As Isaac muttered in a confused voice. The father who lowered his head muttered,

“Lisette.”

The wind blew through the open window. The curtains fluttered, and the picture frame on the study table fell. The photo of my smiling mother caught my attention. Suddenly I heard my mother's face in my head.

[See that. You will be happy.]

I jumped into my father's arms and he hugged me.

The only thing we can do after overcoming adversity and reuniting is hug each other without a break, but that's okay.

Our tears are all talking.

Thank you for waiting.

I was reunited with my family in my fourth life.