The After I Die
Fear and Break Up Asa
“Bad kid wake up!”
The sound of her mother's screams was an alarm that Kina had to hear every day, yet today was a little different, her mother's voice was higher and shrill full of anger.
It was still early in the morning, the sun was not even fully visible, the lights were still on, the air was still cold and piercing to the bones, his mother was awake and angry.
“Where is this water from?! You messing with water?!”
Kina got up, either asleep or fainted from the terror of last night, a little dazed, feeling herself wet and lying in front of the tightly shut door.
The door was knocked by her mother impatiently, Kina got up and opened the door to see the entire floor of the house wet, from the terrace to the room Kina, her mattress was also wet with blackish water.
Huh, this really happened?
“Clean this!”
Kina did not answer, rushed to get the mop cloth along with a bucket of clean water.
So last night wasn't a dream? Narsih really came to him?
What the hell is going on?
“WHICH WATER YOU BRING! SEE THIS IS HARD TO CLEAN!” his mother said wrathfully. The floor was wet with clumping black water, like swamp mud, which was brought in intentionally.
The ghost of Narsih brought the well water with him! It's really disgusting.
“I.. no..” Kina stammered, “This wasn't me, last night Nar...”
“DON'T MANY REASONS!”
Again his mother's voice made his ears buzz, he had not been able to tell the incident last night his mother had cut it. Kina glanced at the blanket and her pillow that was in her mother's hands wet with black stains and smelled foul like the smell of a dead plant long submerged in water.
“Uuh.” Kina covered her disgusted nose, Narsih actually brought the well water with her. His mother breezed back while grumbling.
His father was not seen, probably busy at the stall serving the hungry customers in the morning blind, in Damung village residents used to eat in the morning blind, breakfast before going down to the fields, he said, in front of Kina was only her mother pacing back and forth in anger, the woman seemed to have an additional energy that could explode at any time to scold Kina.
Or maybe his mother likes to scold him. Kina was thinking strangely.
Kina mopped the floor many times, even though the floor was clean but faint she still smelled the stench.cringing in her heart, why is cleaning this so difficult?
Fucking narsih!
“You love to add to your mother's work son.nak,” complained his mother again from behind, the sound of water poured into the basin was heard.
Kina snorted, her mother's cry inviting the neighbors to come out of curiosity. Without his mother telling him, the neighbors understood what was happening.
Kina heard the neighbors' jokes, she was upset not playing, they were sure Kina was playing in the swamp water last night, they just believed it? Isn't this crazy? He was fifteen years old, had grown up, where it was possible to play around with the swamp water and bring it home.
Sillier.
No, maybe he's the one who went crazy. Kina already felt like she had lost her sanity the longer she stayed in this village.
Everything is completely senseless, terror, village law, people who committed suicide and the undead.
But if he moved back to the city, what about his mother? her dad? he was not close to his mother or father, but no matter how they were Kina's parents, it was impossible for him to just leave.
Kina took a deep breath, trying to calm herself down from her crazy thoughts.
“This mother is old and tired, even washing again.” His mother made a sound again, washed quickly, the sound of cloth wagging, before long she had dried the pillows and quilts Kina, went straight inside, saw the slow movement of Kina mopping, make that woman rise in blood.
This kid is really slow!
“Slow once your work! Mopping for hours, I'm tired you're adding work!”
Kina couldn't stand to be quiet anymore, she said, “This isn't me.”
“Learning is virtuous, do not trouble parents, this trivial work still just rely on parents.”
“This really isn't me!”
“Not you then who? Ghost waiting for the well?!” His mother threw the mop into the bucket, making the dirty water splash onto the floor. His face was red, the woman was really angry.
“Indeed! Narsih's spirit came to my room last night!” Kina replied, looking at her mother with teary eyes, she was already quite frustrated with the last few days that had befallen her.
Silent long enough after that, his mother silently did not answer, busy mopping the floor. Kina thought maybe the mother didn't hear anymore, or maybe she was too tired, or maybe she thought she was crazy.
Desperate, frightened and alone, she needs protection, there is nothing Kina can count on as long as her mother and father are indifferent to Kina.
Just once, I wanted the attention of the mother, the mother who asked worriedly, caressing affectionately. Not a mom who likes to curse every day.
Kina was deep in heart with a fickle facial expression, between sad, upset and angry, into one.
The girl glanced at her mother, seeing that the woman was still busy mopping up nothing against Kina.
“Last night, the bell rang twice, Narsih came to open the door and terrorized me he thought I was his son.” Kina spoke without looking at her mother's face, turning her back to her mother, no matter whether the woman heard it or not. He just wants to express his feelings, wants to be heard, that's all.
“Not just last night, the nights before I was in the terror of the undead,” Her tears fell to the floor, she was very afraid.
“I'm afraid.” He said as he sobbed, “I'm afraid mom.”
“Am I going to die mom?”
His mother silently stared at the black stain on the mop, her face turning deathly pale.
Kina did not see the look on her mother's face, still telling stories while looking back at each other, she took out everything in her mind while crying bitterly.
"I, am I gonna be one of those mothers?" kina asked again, erasing the trace of tears on the floor, embarrassing once she cried in the morning blind.
His mother did not answer, acted as if she did not hear, kept mopping the floor.
"I'm talking to you, why are you acting like that?" Kina was out of her mind, no longer caring about the manners that her late aunt had always taught her, she was angry, very angry and confused.
Her mother left her, and again, Kina did not get any answers from her mother.
