TAGGED: SILVER CHESS

13# ALEXITHMIA

"I'm sick!" Shouting raucous. What the fuck, my face never changes. Damn, I got a cold. Ever since the guy expressed his feelings my stomach felt stirred, a sudden high fever and it felt like I didn't have the courage to look at him for long.

"Canra?" Jae pulled the door knob. The guy approached me with a bowl of porridge still steaming hot. "A little better?"

I covered my face with a blanket. I just remembered that today was Jae and Lumia's engagement day.

"I've made you some porridge already" Jae smiled gently. My brother this one. I'm sure he'll be disappointed if I don't want to attend his engagement. Jae shouldn't be here. There was a strange feeling that caused me to feel burdened. Jae should have prepared for the engagement party with Lumin.

"Jae," I pulled the burly hand weakly. The look on a guy's face is always fun to look at. Jae never snapped for no reason. His heart was soft and always thought of others. "I'm better, really. I'm fine,"

"really?" Kenyit Jae with an amused smile. A warm caress was thrown at me. " Don't push yourself like that, Kanra, I don't like you sacrificing yourself just because of my selfishness,"

Jae is not selfish.I am the one who is selfish.

"Lumia must be very lucky, and you must be a good match for her" I said enthusiastically. "I want to meet Lumia. I want to be there because of my own desires, because my personal selfishness is not Jae's fault!"

Brother Jae. I'm not really lying, I'm letting you go with a girl who can make you happy.

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"Lho, did you say you were sick?" Zoel raised a suspicious eyebrow. The guy with Urlich relaxes while cleaning the small aquarium. It only needs to be glazed a few times to make it sparkle clear.

"It's a little better," I replied indifferently. "By the way you're not ready? the show's late afternoon, right?"

"Hm, you don't know? Jae's fiancee is a rich girl. We just need to leave, then the banquet is arranged."

Looks like in this house I'm the only one who doesn't know anything about Jae's engagement. "Lumia has sent you a dress. Should be used otherwise you'll be the center of attention later,"

"Try to trick me?"

" Zoel didn't lie, Lumia even sent you a corset to wear with her dress later" Urlich said. "Fight Kanra, this is for Jae!"

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"Uhh, really," Mother pulled my corset many times to fit. Didn't Jae ever tell you that his little sister is not a typical girl who feels at home in a dress. Haah, what happened to me? Like a silly joke. An An Anastasia Kanra in a white dress with golden lace motifs of tendril and flowering small children decorate the ends of the fabric. Really ribet!

" Daughter of a beautiful mother,"

Ha's? I breathed not daring to dodge. All this time I was known as the bouncer girl . That compliment feels like..

"Mommy should praise me as a tough girl," I smiled faintly staring at the reflection in front of the mirror. " I'm Kantak the bouncer,"

"But now you're turning open? I've heard since your move to Edelwis High School that your attitude has become sweeter than ever before" those soft fingers played with my hair, lovingly choosing it. "Don't you. Are you in love?"

Gluey!

"Who said? I'm just tired of being kept on!"

"really?" The beautiful paras looked at me in the shade. Charming black hair dropped down on me and Urlich, dark violet eyes like Rue's, brightly colored skin, perfectly curved eyebrows and this voice. Mother is truly a perfect person.

"If," the words were interrupted, as if they were indeed left hanging. "One day you fall in love, keep using your logic. Be a kind and humble girl, even if the person you like hates your attitude,"

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Justjust wonderful. A luxury restaurant resembles a cruise ship wreck in a condensed vintage style. The panorama of the beach is so stunningly displayed clearly from the top of the deck. The yellow light lamp hangs like a fancy crystal floor lamp made of amber rock with a green topaz roof. The twilight rays glimmered perfectly in the orange sky.

"Hey look, there's a giant sea-shell prep there!"  Rue was enthusiastic, it seemed like the guy was more interested in durable goods than others. Shame itself staring to find a man cover boy in a luxurious coat was looking at a jar of jars containing sea shells.

"Kuenya, princess?" I turned my head, damn, sweet cream stuck to my cheek. Ryn nodded with satisfaction. "Gee.. Gee.. Is that new makeup? It fits, you know,"

"Damn it," I wiped the cream with the back of my hand.

"Your frontal attitude can be reduced a bit? My grumpy sister may not get a partner at the dance later!"

"Hff, do I care?" Dengusku. "I can pair with Zoel!"

"Don't Zoe want to be with you? A popular guy like himself certainly-"

"Already-have! Don't keep going!" He set me up.

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Lumia was very beautiful. Her rosy cheeks met as soon as Jae held her hand without hesitation. His wavy brownish hair was decorated with white paper flowers. Brightly colored graceful dresses have unusual expensive accents.

My brother and his fiancee. From the top of the balcony in this luxurious room we looked at it with an undefined highlight. Like a dream, Jae was snatched from our lives and ended happily with the princess.

Pendant crystal lamp, sparkling patterned tiles oil coated. Jae once said that she was the daughter of the owner of the Edelweiss college. I should have known her, been close to her before she became my sister-in-law.

Friction biolq. Damn, my eyes are sleepy.

"Where are you going?" Ryn.

"Bored, I'll be waiting for the show to finish,"

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Zoel pedaling a fast bike. With a breath of breath left the bike carelessly so Urlich first moved through the height of the weeds. A crazy idea among their families that resists the presence of a gray-eyed guy, these two brothers have chosen to pick up the guy for Kanra.

"It should be a range of another half a meter," Henry set aside the weeds slowly. A difficult place to touch. It was as if the place was endless. But Urlich once found an interesting article about the capture of Atlara Nusantara. The guy's trying to track her whereabouts.

" Whoah, many dry twigs," complained Zoel trying to balance his sister so that their steps are in rhythm. " Discovered the reason Kanra diligently sewed her uniform tear!"

"But is that okay? We never know who Atlaraka is? About me being quite worried about her work, too,"

Zoel laughed bitterly. "Forget it, rumors can go wrong, right? If Kanra just entrusted her boyfriend, then why don't we?"

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The fragrant aroma of cooking is out, a variety of dishes arranged beautifully on a stacked container, expensive teas such as early gray served in pale white cell phone cups. There are a lot of light snacks, but unfortunately I am not interested in tasting them one by one.

Why is the life of the rich so manipulative and full of pleasantries, anyway? From earlier I felt alienated unable to keep up with the other person. I was still spending the rest of the dinner in a shiny black plate.

After this there is a dance party that continues on the distribution of gifts. Every now and then I glanced at the big box of gifts with glossy paper. How much did Jae and Lumia spend to prepare for this engagement party?"

"Bingo! What about the steak?" Familiar taste fills the mouth. The silver-masked guy snickered a wide grin. Shit, what the hell is this...

That guy dragged me around without a cue. What's in Atlaraka? This tall figure somehow made my heart beat uncontrollably. Goddamnit!

The marble tiles were suddenly empty as soon as the man flashed, as if they were pulled over to create a special viewing spot. "Will be my assistant, princess?"

Ha's? Is he making a joke or what?  The faint jolt made me shudder. Without that pale arm my hand was quick. "Can walz dance ? The tango? Or maybe dance?"

"I can't, you idiot!" My vision is fierce. Besides why did he suddenly appear at times like this anyway?

"Then you must entrust everything to me," the man lowered his body; whispering close. "Put your hands here and follow the rhythm,"

If it wasn't in public, I would've caught that sinless look on his face. And now should I obey that annoying door?

"The princess who is dancing can not show such a sour face, dong! Smile," she began to move creating a footwork that I was forced to follow."Smile for me, for your brothers and above all. smile for yourself,"

"Hff, boring," I said on purpose. Her severe involuntarily my sarcastic attitude appeared unexpected. This guy somehow makes my body temperature suddenly rise drastically, even though I'm sure I've been somewhat better.

"The flu, princess?" The back of that pale hand was sticking above my forehead. I don't know why I'm sure the look turned stunned even though the figure was blocked by the glowing silver mask.

"What do you want, anyway? I hate being the highlight,"

"All right, let's get it over with and get out of here as soon as possible,"

Fucking weird. This guy is really an absud to the point that I don't understand the contents of my head being carried away this weird.

"Ninety degrees to the left, after which three straight steps and three turns."

What is aba-aba? I feel too lazy to think. Maybe every once in a while I have to believe it without asking a lot of questions, especially the way he holds me.. It seems like he is indeed anxious - Ah come on, stop thinking stupid, I want this to be over quickly!

The tiles I was sticking felt shifted little by little, the rain of colorful glossy paper splashing in the air provoked the sound of applause from the visitors who were amazed.

"Next..," ah yes, I had to turn three times before it was over.

"Be careful," hoarsely full of worry.

Oh, shit he's worried about me too much. A curve of smile involuntarily scratched on my face. This Atlaraka subconsciously tricked me into proving that I wasn't as weak as he thought.

Three times. In the last round the clean white strands scattered from each corner. My gaze had been closed as if completely, only a cold, burly hand slowly overshadowed my shoulder and took me away. All white. White without blame.

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Through the height of this deck, a flashing city light beam looks like a star. Foaming waves create their own sensation to be caught. From above this place the guy even looks busy himself.

" Yoo, Kanra, come here for a second!" Atlaraka smiled a mysterious smile. He pulled out a chair and piled it up as if beckoning to occupy the place .

"What the hell is it?" Unusual I can't resist this overflowing curiosity.

"Em, what is it? Don't you remember at all?" The guy seemed to be ignoring me again. Fluorescent aromatherapy candles. The color is deep red with a burning axis sparking fire.

"Come on, don't act so mysterious!" This little boy always ignites my emotions.

The guy laughed crisply. "Then, happy birthday!"

My birthday? Shit, why don't I remember at all?  Even a joke must be Atlaraka who first congratulated me. Everyone is always busy watching Jae and forgetting me for a moment.

"Kuenya, princess?" The guy's throwing a box of cookies.

What kind of cake is this? The shape looks asymmetrical and messy, the cream of the cake is unruly. "That's bad!"

"Oi oi, don't laugh at me that way, dong, after all this is the first food that cooks itself after instant noodles and instant curry!" The piece of cake was cut symmetrically. "It turns out that the courage to shop among the crowd is so scary!"

Yeah yeah, keep babbling, he doesn't even realize the cream spilled on the clothes.

"I swear to know!" Commentary riled. "Here give it to me!"

Not too severe, even though the pieces seem strange and irregular to dampen taste. "Have a son,".

Atlaraka is not warty. The guy looked happy as soon as I tied up his first piece of cake. What do I feel? Or is it her eyes that are slowly glazed?

Suddenly the cake in my mouth turned bitter. Why do I always act selfish and selfish without thinking about the guy's feelings?

"Atla-raka? You wanna try?" Nervous of my hand shook incoherently, you thrust out a spoonful full of pieces of cake with teary eyes.

He said he always lost what he had and every fireworks burst on his birthday. He said his life was always lonely.. And maybe this is the first time she's celebrated a birthday with me.

The man opened his mouth doubtfully. Instead of accepting a mouthful of cake, a pair of outstretched hands embraced my body tightly. A feeling of tightness hit the chest. As if there were no more explanations.

Alexithmiy. Atlaraka always said that he suddenly became an alexithmia so familiar with the outside world. Maybe at first I always thought of it as a trivial thing.  Losing the ability to express their own feelings. Stupid, but in reality it happened to myself too.

"I swear you have to try," on the sidelines of my crying diverted the conversation. "It tastes like flour dough and canned fruit,"

"I know," again the guy laughed. "But what matters is that you're happy, right?"

No, it's important you don't feel alone anymore, Raka. I swallowed, I don't know until when my relationship with him continues to go well like this. I'm starting to feel empty without that absud guy. Like something that disappeared suddenly; being forcibly pulled from my life.

"And your gift, Kanra," the guy thrusts a small funnel.

Ha's? Especially this? The cold sensation sent out as soon as my skin came into contact with that thing. Its surface cracked and shattered into pieces.

"Tick again, hmm?" It was quite entertaining, although the rest annoyed me.

The brightly colored butterfly scattered, its wings sparkling emitting a golden radiance flying freely. In my fingers there is only one left. Topaz-colored pendants; contrast in the pitch of night.

"Atlaraka."

That name.

The name that always pisses me off half to death.

The name that made me feel mixed.

Name of.

"Atlaraka, thank you,"

Atlaraka. A finely scratched smile displayed her small fangs. "No, but I'm the one who should be thanking you,"

A warm touch framed my finger. The hand felt hard like metal. "Thank you so much princess,"

Tbc.

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Next chapter: 14# Princes and Minions

The real enemy has just emerged and what is happening to Kanra under the influence of hypnosis?