
(Pov Nur)
It's been almost ten days, Mas Baim went into a coma in the hospital, Really since I first got the news that my husband was in an accident, my world was dark, the sky was crumbling, and my heart was cramped, and my heart was cramped, even as He lay in a coma in these few days, I felt as if I had no life support.
But one thing that makes me strong, it turns out that God gave His trust for the second time when fragility struck this heart, maybe it is called Anugrah in the midst of disaster.
The presence of my second child, as well as the affection of my in-laws, made me feel calmer and stronger.
And my heart was so happy, like a year of drought, it was raining last night, when I heard from my Mother-in-law, that Mas Baim began to wake up from his long slumber.
My heart blossomed, like a human child in love and our loved ones welcomed our feelings, such was my happy thought when I saw my husband was conscious of his coma.
However, at once this heart broke upon seeing the reality, if it turned out, her husband did not recognize me,
Aye,
He had Amnesia, He forgot everything, including Me, His wife. Really, it feels like untold pain, when our loved ones no longer remember us.
Not long after Mas Baim realized, the doctor allowed Mas Baim in outpatient at Home, then Mas Baim was immediately brought home to the mother-in-law's house.
While Mas Baim, who had just returned from the hospital, seemed to feel strange in his own home, as if he was angry at himself for not being able to remember anything about himself, the more He tried to remember it, the more he tried to remember it, the more pain his head.
That night, while sitting leisurely in the living room, and I was watching him from afar, Mas Baim suddenly was about to move up, seeing that, I immediately approached him, offering him some attention.
"Dad needs what? Want to Shower ? Or want to eat?"
"Don't call me Dad ! And I don't want to shower or eat !"Baim ketus, he seemed to dislike my attention.
"Then, Father asked to be called Mas Alfin ? Or Mas Baim ?" I asked who did not want to give up and I kept smiling with my typical smile as his wife.
"Well, call me Baim !" Said Mas Baim who has now become like a stranger.
"Yahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...Zahiya kangen Daddy !" Suddenly Zahira came from the kitchen with my mother-in-law, She seemed to immediately want to hug her Father But Mas Baim brushed her off, to make Zahira frightened and immediately turned to hug me.
"Who is He?" Mas Baim looked at Zahira with a question mark and turned his gaze to me, as if to stick to me.
"She's our daughter, her name is Zahira, Mas Baim remember?" I hope, Mas Baim does not forget his flesh and blood.
"She's my daughter? And you're my wife?" Baim asked with a strange look at me and also Zahira who was considered foreign to him.
"Yes, she's Zahira, your daughter and She's Nur, your wife !" My mother-in-law helped answer Mas Baim's confusion.
"It seems like something is wrong, like I look young, and you look older, you deserve ¥so my sister or my aunt" mas Baim's words were able to make me stunned instantly, because this is for the first time after marrying Mas Baim debating the age difference between us.
"We are married at different ages" I replied with a trembling voice but tried to neutralize my feelings that felt painful because of Mas Baim's statement.
"What's your age and my age?" Ask Mas Baim again.
"Owh Quickly, I feel You are older than Me, it turns out the distance is far" again, his words about the age difference between us felt painful when He brought it up.
"Yes, we got married three years ago, when Mas Baim was 20 years old". I try to explain it little by little.
"No ! I can't believe that you're my wife, my head hurts so much trying to remember her, anyway as long as I can't remember you, you're not my wife, I want to be alone first, I want to be alone, I don't want to have a wife that's much older than me !" Mas Baim's speech this time seemed to coincide with the tone of emotion.
"Mass !! " My voice was as clear as my heart when I heard her husband's statement.
"Let me alone first ! anyway as long as I can't remember anything, you're not my wife !" Mas Baim reiterated his statement.
"Goddess...!" My mother-in-law was angry, but also immediately put it down, because she realized Baim was losing his memory.
"Don't call Me Alfin, call Me Baim Only, let me not be confused and I prefer that name" she said as she passed to her room and then closed the door loudly.
"Today, He is not like himself, He is very sensitive, He likes to be angry, not only because He does not know us, we are no longer able to recognize him, he said, He's like a stranger to us, because He's still sick, we have to wait patiently for him yes" my mother-in-law persuaded me when she saw me who was very hit.
"Mom, But Mas Baim, It was indirectly my mentality Ma'am, He's my mentality Ma'am....!!"again I could not hold back my tears, I also fell into my in-laws' embrace
"Mother, Dad why are you so Bun, and why are you crying ?" The innocent Zahira cried asking why his father was angry.
"Dad is sick baby, his head hurts, so Dad is angry, But soon Dad will be cured really, Dad will not be angry anymore, Zahira pray Dad yes so Dad will recover quickly !"My mother-in-law answered Zahira's question and then carried her and kissed her.
"Yes Omah "Zahira plain.
"For the time being, you sleep in the guest room only. don't be sad, son, pity your baby, Mother is always with you, consider this as a test of your household, you know, Your husband will remember you soon, remember Mom, Zahira and remember everything, don't get tired of praying !" My mother-in-law calms my heart.
My heart also felt calmer. I tried to re-assemble the fragments of the heart that had been broken by Mas Baim's words.
What hurts more than not to be appreciated in life is that when we are perceived as strangers by our loved ones, we are still alive but considered non-existent.
My love came in a foreign way, and now it's as if it went out in a foreign state.
Mas Baim was suddenly present bringing love and life to me, now it is as if He also took the love of my life.
Is this pain alienated by the beloved ?
As I headed to the Guest Room, the Room I was going to inhabit in a moment, I realized, that my clothes were still in my room, and I tried to knock on the door, too, where Mas Baim is in her
"Mas Baim..can you please open the door for a moment, my clothes and equipment are still inside, can I take a moment?" Say slowly. Not long after, the door of the room was opened.
"I'll give you thirty minutes to clean all your clothes in this room,!" Said Mas Baim who then moved to the bathroom located outside.
I also immediately took my clothes and Zahira's clothes as soon as possible, so that Mas Baim would not be angry.
As soon as I finished cleaning it up, I immediately left, carrying this hurt feeling.