SUBSTITUTE LOVE

Chapter 33

"My heart stops with you, but why did you choose him as your replacement. From the beginning I did not look compatible with Bhishma, she and I were very different characters. I also felt guilty for ruining his relationship with Sarah but on the one hand I started to love her and never let her meet Sarah again. Am I selfish, Bima? Am I wrong with my feelings? I'm afraid to be the one to give up on this. It's your fault, Bima! I was confused Bima, I was very confused by all this. I still doubt who is in the heart of Bhishma? I don't know if he really loves me or if he just plays in front of me? Please give me the answer. I'm left in silence Bima mas." Andini crying looking at the photo of Bima.

Tok.tok.tok.tok the sound of knocking on the door.

Andini wiped her tears before opening the door.

"Here I bring you the bag." Andini grabbed the bag in the hand of Bhishma. "I'll prepare warm water for you to take a bath." Continue Andini.

"You crying?" Bisma approached Andini who was behind her.

"No, my eyes may be in the wind." Andini without daring to look at Bisma who was taking off her clothes.

Bhishma turned Andini around until they looked at each other.

"There's no wind here, baby. I'm sorry for coming home late today. I didn't see Sarah today either." Bisma held Andini in her arms.

"Build me to rest!" Andini releases the embrace of Bhishma and lies on the bed.

The bisma sat on the end of the bed and stroked Andini's hair.

"You sick? Don't confuse me with your attitude." Bisma still caresses Andini's hair.

"I'm fine, mas. You take a shower there." Andini pushes Bhishma's body out of bed.

"Have you eaten?" Ask Bisma.

"Here, go!"

"You're lying, why haven't you eaten since you got home from work? I asked your news to bi Marni. Why haven't you picked up my phone since? Are you still mad that Sarah called me?"

"Mas I don't want to make a fuss."

"You're the one who made this into a storm Andini. I've apologized and I've also been honest that I didn't see Sarah today!"

"Please stop asking me anything. I just want to be alone!" Answer Andini.

"I'll bring you some food. Don't argue!" Bench Bisma.

She put her clothes back on and walked out of the room. Shortly afterwards Bhishma came with food in her hand and a glass of milk in her hand. He put the food on the table and forced Andini to sit down.

"Eat even a few mouthfuls!" The bisma thrust a spoonful of rice into Andini's mouth.

Andini was forced to open her mouth and chew her food.

"I'm full already." Andini.

"This is just one Andini feed. Why are you so childish! What exactly do you want?" Bisma raised her tone.

Andini's tears came back. "I am still very childish. I'm not as mature as Sarah, you forget that I'm only 23? I was too selfish. I can't understand you with our age far away."

The bisma releases the food on the table and hugs Andini. "I know you're on fire jealous of my wife. I'm sorry I can't be the husband you want."

"Do you love me or not?" Andini said with a sob.

"I love you Andini."

"I can't answer that for sure." Bhishma. Andini releases her body from the bisman's arms.

"I already know the answer." Andini lay back. Her cries sounded very sad in the ears of Bhishma.

"Andini let me learn to let go."

"You shouldn't love me before you forget Sarah mas?"

"I'm sorry Andini. I'm just a normal human being. I can't control my feelings. Please don't leave me, I really need you. I love you Andini." Bhishma. Now Bhishma lay down and hugged Andini from behind.

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The next day was still in the same position when Andini woke up to morning prayers, Bisma slept in her office clothes and pants. The arm of Bhishma is in the body of Andini, while one arm is the pedestal of Andini's head. Andini thought why her head was in the arms of Bhishma when she slept with a pillow last night.

"We'll pray with baby." Bhishma spoke but her eyes were still closed.

Hasn't she slept since last night.

Andini walked over to take ablution regardless of Bhishma speaking.

Bisma also got up and walked staggered. He almost fell down because he was not very conscious of walking.

After the prayer Bisma directly dropped his body on the floor.

"Mass? Why are you?" yell Andini panicked.

"I'm sleepy baby!" Answer the lethargic bisma.

"Cursed? At least don't sleep on the floor. Let's get up." Andini pulls Bhishma's hand towards the bed.

"Didn't you sleep last night?"

"I've been looking after you all night. I'm afraid you'll leave me Andini."

Has Bhishma lost his mind? He didn't sleep just to take care of me last night?

"Well, I'll leave you if you still like Sarah!" Andini said firmly.

The bisma pulled Andini's body into her chest.

"No need to go to the office today, I want to be with you all day."

"Sleep, I'll make you some soup!"

"Don't run!" Bisma was still babbling with her eyes closed.

"I'll think!"

"Andini!" Calling Bhishma listless, it seemed like she could no longer endure her sleepiness. Andini closed her bedroom door.

"Am I being too selfish?" Andini murmured in her heart.