Sorry, I'm ENTitled to Be Happy

Winnowing

"Thank you" said Wulan

"Sama-sama" said Arifin

"Which game would you like to try?" ask Arifin

"Ah no, I just want to go for a walk" said Wulan

"All right" said Arifin

"Do you want anything?" ask Arifin again

"No need, I don't want to bother you" Wulan said

"Whatever you want, as long as I can, I will make it all happen, the important thing is that you are happy" Arifin said in his heart

"Nearly 2 hours they walked explore all areas of the night market, until then Wulan felt he was quite tired. He invited Arifin to come home.

"Yuk mas home, already satisfied the streets, hehe" said Wulan

"You sure don't want anything" asked Arifin

"Yes, sure" said Wulan

"Yes, come on" said Arifin

They decided to go home. Arifin drove him first. Before returning home, they discussed the plan of touring to Jepara the other day.

"In the near future it is the month of fasting, meaning the touring schedule must be before the fast arrives, it looks like next week" said Arifin

"Do you really not want to join?" ask Arifin

"Yes, next week I'm going with him anyway, so sorry I can't come" Wulan said

His heart suddenly grieved. But he realized, he was not who Wulan was, so he did not deserve to be jealous. He was trying to make peace with the situation. Even more painful than this. Because he knows the consequences of loving someone who has a partner.

"Okay, I promise" said Wulan

Without feeling they have reached Wulan's house. Wulan immediately came down and thanked him for making her happy tonight.

"Once again, thank you" said Wulan

"Yes" said Arifin

To him, seeing Wulan smile was enough for him. He would always try to continue to carve a smile on Wulan's lips.

They also separated. In his room, his mind was again disturbed when he remembered the sincere attention of Arifin. "What am I doing? I have a lover but walk with other people as well. Why don't I think about Arifin's feelings. She's been nice to me. But I'm not cheating, I just need attention. My lover does not care for me, does not understand what I want, whereas he who is not my lover, he knows what I want. I'm not cheating, I'm not that kind of woman".

Feeling guilty, he sends a message to Arifin.

"Mas, I'm sorry" said the message

"Sorry for what?" ask Arifin

"I shouldn't walk with you, because I already have a lover, I don't want to be considered a bad person" replied Wulan

"I don't want you to keep going when I'm disappointed with my boyfriend" he wrote

"Better, you stay away from me, forget me, don't love me, hate me so you can forget me" he continued

"I've been mean to you, I'm sorry"

"You're asking me to stay away it's just an evil deed, if you can we just act normal, if my race for you is a mistake, let me make it up to you".

"Well, I never said love to you, so you'd still want to be my friend. Don't blame yourself, if I'm willing to make you an impingement".

"You don't have to hear what people say, because the only one who knows right or wrong is yourself"

That's the reply sentence for Wulan. Arifin did not want Wulan to feel guilty about her current status.