Sleeping Beauty's
Disaster
I should be happy, because soon I will be married to a male–he man who has been my lover for five years. Difficult and happy we went through together, maybe this is called a soul mate. Because there are so many things that we have been through so far, but it does not dampen his intention to stay by my side.
But in this heart always terbesit fear that is very very disturbing, my weight until down because of thinking too much. This is all due to some of the chaos that has been going on in my life all along. Feels smothering.
It was as if everyone was not giving me a chance to breathe, but was this just my mind? Am I thinking too much about it? So it all seems to be hostile to me.
Before I was an ordinary girl who was very happy with my own world, but it all just vanished. When the disaster came to me. The disaster that truly– changed my life three hundred and sixty degrees. If likened to a colossal drama, my life is like a crown prince who lost the trust of his own parents. The crown prince who is always glorified in an instant becomes a traitor who may be more deserving of death.
It all started from that damned place, a place that should have been my first experience working. If that had never happened to me, maybe I would have continued to be happy and grow well.
In early May, three years ago I started working for a company. I was able to get into that place because of my parents connection, it just so happened that a cousin and son of a friend of father's friend were working there. My father's children are the most influential, his parents are the owners of the company, therefore I have certainly been accepted in the company.
Finally I really– received there, of course my mama is very happy with it. The company can also be said to be a dream place, the salary is equivalent to PNS salary. So Mama can have something to be proud of when Arisan. The habit when mothers–moms gather they will show off anything.
My father was the CEO of a small company . That's why my mom always reminds me to always keep the attitude, if I can I have to get a job that is enough to make me look up to. Lucky I got the job, entered because of the connection without having to bother. But what happened, everything was in line with my guess.
A lot of office people talk about me, they gossip about my acceptance in that company. Just like I experienced when I was in Junior High, I have experienced it before.
In short, I told you my mama is a person who likes it if her child can be proud. Mama bribed the principal so I could get into Junior High which she said was her favorite school. That's why I kept rumored, what else when they found out and my dana didn't enter the requirements. They keep talking about me, my friends go one by one. But at that time I could still think positively, why look at me just for value? Isn't value just a number? I can change that number if I want to. It could at least make me realize, which is why I became more active in learning so that when High School does not repeat such events.
No different from when Junior High, I was in the company was also gossiped sana–sini. Because I already have experience in Junior High, I feel ordinary. But an incident beyond my expectations happened.
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At least I still have Kinan, he who always strengthens me to stay even though it is difficult.
That afternoon my boss called me to his room, I felt like my job was not right. I prepared mentally to be strong when scolded by him. With a shaky step I entered my superior's room. The middle-aged man invited me to sit, strangely he was sitting next to me. My body automatically reacted to distance from him, but he kept tightening himself to me instead.
“Excuse me sir earlier any need what you call me?” I said it while pointing my five right fingers at him. I know it's disrespectful, it's better than me standing up to leave him. As a new employee, I have to maintain my attitude.
“Actually I've liked you for a long time Dea.” He said that while grabbing my right hand which stopped him earlier. Surprising was the first word that came to my mind.
The one who just expressed his feelings for me was Helfan, Helinda's older sister. Helinda was my old High School friend, you could say we were real friends. We are always together wherever we go. Helfan is five years older than me, but he still looks young. Make no mistake, even so he already has a wife and a boy–laki. Had he not had a wife or a widower, I would have rejected him. Because I love Angga.
“Do you like me too? does that mean you want to?” He smiled meaningfully. How about this, if suddenly someone came in and saw our position like this. It would be a disaster. Helfan kept his face close to me, finally with all my might I was able to push the man until he almost fell.
“I know this is bound to happen, why are you making things difficult for yourself? How can you like this holy-spirited girl?” I couldn't believe what I saw, Linda was standing not far from us. In his hand was a camera.
“Have you photographed us?” Helfan approached Linda. As I thought, they both planned this. The reason is because my presence in their company can threaten themselves, I likened spies–mata entered by my family. I know what they mean and I get it, too, but after that I can only keep quiet seeing my world fall apart.
I quit my job and was thrown into my grandmother's house.
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My sister Kinan's daughter-in-law was also affected, but even though she was fired because of me, she still wanted to visit me at my grandmother's house. But it only lasted for a month, after which Kinan's sister never visited me again because she was in college.
I'm confused who to blame, here I'm the victim but it looks like I'm the culprit. Somehow I was rumored to have seduced Helfan and forced him to be made a mistress. Of course mama was angry, but he even said like this, “If you want to cheat you have to use a subtle way. You STUPID kid!” My father was angry too, but his anger was more normal than my mother's.
Luckily, I was only in my grandmother's house for three months, but the mood changed when I returned home. My mom and dad's attitude changed for me too, they treated me like a stepdaughter. Who looks like a real child even Kinan, actually Kinan Kak settled in my house. The reason is because she is a student in the city where I live, the campus distance from home is quite close.
I was not saddened by the injustice my parents did, but I was disappointed in them for keeping me locked up at home. Since coming home from my grandmother's house until accounting for approximately three years I always stayed at home. Only Brother Kinan became my socializing friend.
Luckily there are Kak Kinan and Angga who are always there for me, because both of them also I was able to survive through all. But the strangeness appeared to me, there was fear when I was in the crowd of many people. Even it was very difficult to get people to talk first, it felt like I could read what they thought of me.
To greet people alone is difficult, I will tend to hide when meeting people I know. I'm not going anywhere–, just go with Kak Kinan to the nearest mini market. I only have Kak Kinan, only Kak Kinan is good to me. My best friend has left me, my parents are like that.
Again–again unexpected things happen again, maybe I am indeed a problem. Brother Kino visited Kak Kinan, frankly–he expressed his feelings for me. I always refused it. But there was a time when the thing he did made my mama wrath me again.
I did manage to lock myself in the balcony, but I didn't think Kino's sister could find a spare key to the balcony door. I was caught by him, he poked me and threw my body on the bed. She overstretched me with her body, then she opened a little pajama button I was wearing.
“WHAT YOU GUYS DO!” Mama's loud voice echoed in my room, stopping Kak Kino's activities. I immediately got up and ran towards the mama who was standing in the doorway. But when I got there, my mom slapped me really hard.
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