Singularities
#14
"Happy?"
"Happy????"
"SATISFIED MAKES ME HURT"
"What do you mean na?"
"I should have asked that to lo li, you are the same I have been long ago. What I'm talking about isn't the guy's problem but it's lo"
"Lo always thought I was li, you always hurt my feelings"
"Gue your best friend but, why do you already have a boyfriend and even that's the person I like even really I like. It's changed!"
"Actually I'm not surprised you like this to me, I don't discuss the past but that's in fact, you're selfish li"
"Gue gabisa so temen lo again even"
"Ana" (while crying)
"Gue can be clear"
"Gausah li, I'm totally numb you, even though I've been waiting for you to be honest but, you never want to be honest with me. I wonder what my lack is so temen lo li??"
"Lo g.ak kur.ang a.pa-a.pa na" (crowded cry)
"Enough li, even I'm suffering from this lo gatau" Ana began to cry while holding her 2nd knee, she sat on the edge of the root proof.
"Lo to..na.pa na?" While holding his shoulder
"GUE TOLD ME I'M NOT TEMEN LO ANYMORE, DON'T TOUCH ME!!" Tell Ana while shirking my hands rough.
"Why are you being this rough?"
"Gue sorry na, you are actually the most valuable theme for me" (crying eyes)
"Rude cave?it's all because of you, it's all because the people around me have never taken me to live"
"Mending me to die alone" (while standing still ready to jump from a height)
"ANA'S DOWN" I teased Ana
"DON'T SUCK OR I JUMP!!"
"THAT'S A DANGER YOU CAN BE WHY-WHY"
"WHAT'S LO'S BUSINESS??"
"NA I TEMEN LO, GET DOWN!!"
"NO, I WON'T"
"IS THAT CRAZY??"
"I'M CRAZY BECAUSE OF ALL OF YOU"
"THAT TIME??"
"IYA LO AND MY PARENTS"
"Why are you parents?"
"Lo gabakal understand, they divorced, they don't hear what my complaints are, my father went to jail, my mother married again. I feel I gapantes live again, I've been gapunya anyone, for what I live" while one foot would step.
"THERE'S ENOUGH, DON'T SELL IT!!" (lid my ears the same as my eyes.)
"Na, it's not just you in this rich world, there are a lot of people out there like you"
"What do you mean? I used to think that you were like my brother, I always believed in you, confided in you, did everything the same lo. But mentally I really-really excited I'm gabisa live again"
"Do you know why I changed my phone number?? I'm ashamed of li and Gavin. I've also had a lot of people who hate me because my dad passed that number"
"Gue will break up Gavin, and you'll have to deal with people who hate lo na..."
"Udah is late li" while stepping on his feet
BRAAAKKK (Sound of something falling from the 10th floor to the bottom floor)
"ANAAAAAAAA" I can just sit holding my knees while sometimes scrambling my hair.
"WHY LO KAYAK GINI, SORRY GUE NA" (crying cry)
The shocked teachers immediately came to the root proof and even had a lot of people who huddle Ana below.
The shocked Gavin immediately hugged me spontaneously
"Why are you, what's wrong?"
Srek I'm not hugging Gavin
"Leave me alone vin"
"What do you mean? You why?"
"LAKAININ I MYSELF"
.........
My heart hurts so bad it feels tight, I've been crying this so it looks strong..
My parents even came to get me from the police.
"Darling why are you?"
"Mom" (while crying and hugging nyokap)
...........
I am really depressed, I have lost my most precious friend. I don't know if I should continue my relationship with Gavin or not. I'm really hurt, why should I believe this??? Why should Ana accept all the bitterness of my selfishness??
There are a lot of questions on my mind.
Today I am going to Korea to study there, I have to see Gavin first, but why does it feel like my heart is not ready to meet him. But I'm afraid of the same thing because of another selfishness.
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Gavin ugly 💜
Li
You where?
I'm going to meet you
Neylia
I'm at home
I want something I'm talking about, too
Gavin ugly 💜
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I'm really not ready to meet Gavin, why it seems I'm guilty of Gavin for the death of Ana, Ana's parents even goru his son died. I'm sure it hurts a lot to be Ana.
"Ahhhhh ck" I'm dizzy rattling my hair rough.
"Lia"
Gavin came but why did he look so shabby and messy?
"..." - ".I'm sorry, I love Gavin, but I don't think Ana's spirit is calm there.
"I love you" as I kiss my head slowly
"....."
"Li I want to talk to you about something"
"......"
"Ehm. I know it's not on time but, I have to talk to you"
"...."
"Li, I'm going to America today"
"....."
"And... I want us to break up"
"Vin, what do you mean?" I was shocked when I broke up. I didn't think he could admit it was the same me, I even lost my best friend because he was more choosy.
"Sorry li. but I already have someone who deserves me more he will accompany my life later" he said sorry while bowing
"Vin, I can't. You mean what vin why are you so gini like me??" (my eyes are starting to be red-glazed)
"I'm sorry I'm not a good guy to you, I don't pantes for you, don't ever see me again!" (he stood up from his chair but, I know, he had a tear in his eye)
"Win..." (Gue who knows Gavin is standing directly in his hand)
"Sorry..." (Turning off my hand and turning my back and walking without me.)
"Gue hates lo vin, really hates it. I won't see you until anytime" I cry and scream now, no matter where the place is but, my chest is really tight.
I saw the back of that ruthless human figure slowly disappear.
........
"Hiks..hiks...." My eyes are so swollen because crying all night, I uda ga have Ana and my loved ones go, it feels as painful as this when left by two people I love at once, he said, why did I have to be selfish at that time? I'm afraid, I'm afraid in my next life I'll think again. This is even the first time I've had a relationship with a guy. At first I thought that dating was not allowed at school, but I thought again like dating really - I will not do it my whole life. I hate Gavin even we dated not long ago he was a jerk, I hate myself. Doing something this heavy is not easy to do alone, but for the sake of my parents and family, I must be able to.
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