Sincerity of a Woman

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That night heavy rain flushed my body which already felt cold. I don't know where else to run to let go of the lover I've been dating for two years.

I ran with all my might, with endless tears. At first glance I saw Pandu continue to chase after me while shouting - calling my name.

"May ... Nadira Azam, stop saying," shouted Pandu who continued to pursue Nadira.

My head hurts, my eyes are twitching and I can't see anymore.

My hands move slowly. Both of my eyes opened slowly. A beam of light enters the retina of my eye. I'm not blind. I can still see.

"Dira ..." call Pandu slowly while holding my hand.

Yes, that soft voice. He's Pandu, my lover. I have been in a relationship for three years like a couple of lovers. But, I just found out, he already has a child and wife right where I ask for certainty about the relationship we are living.

Pandu admits everything. He is married and has three children.

Both of my eyes opened slowly. Everything I see is white. My eyes ran through the whole room. I don't know where I am myself.

"Dira ..." My name is called softly. It was a voice I heard every day. The sound that always makes me comfortable.

My gaze turned towards the origin of the sound. Pandu, he still faithfully accompanied me while tightly grasping my hand.

"Finally you are aware as well" said Pandu Lirih.

His face was clearly agitated and worried.

"Conscious? Did I faint?" askaku.

"Yes. It's been three hours you've been unconscious" replied Pandu slowly.

I'm speechless. Recollecting the incident earlier. I'm disappointed, I'm hurt by Pandu's honesty.

"May ... Forgive me," said Pandu Lirih. Both of his eyes looked very sad and full of regret.

I chose to close my eyes. The pain again filled the deepest recesses of the heart. It's so tight.

Three years of waiting and pinning my hopes on the man I love. But it leads to big problems.

"Mas is still willing to fight for this relationship. I love you and love you. But ..." Pandu's speech stopped. It's hard to say something he doesn't want to say right now. Pandu was just afraid Nadira was leaving.

Nadira opened his eyes and stared intently at the guide who did not finish his sentence to make him curious.

"There's tapi? Butwhat? Do you love Meka too? Mas's wife? A great woman who married a dozen years ago and has given three children to Mas. Reasonable right? It is better for Mas to return to Mas's wife and Mas' children. I'm fine. So don't mind me anymore" said Nadira ketus with a slightly loud tone.

His voice was clearly trembling and was holding back his sobs which again hurt his heart.

"Mas loves you Nadira. Do you think you're just playing around with you? If Mas just play, maybe Mas will not be sick to see you cry Nadira. If Mas doesn't want to get serious with you, maybe Mas won't take the time to do our meeting, our chat, and everything about us and what we've been through together," ucappandu slowly explained.

Pandu just wanted Nadira to know and be sure, that he was right and sincere in love with her. His love is just as great for Nadira and for his wife, Meka.

Nadira laughed in tears. His laughter sounded stiff and mocking.

"The man easily reveals the word dear, the word love. A thousand sweet words will he say to his woman if the man is curious and has not found the woman. I don't regret knowing you, spending time with you. I regret that this relationship continues. I already knew this relationship was off limits and wrong. I'm Mas's victim!! You are evil!! Very bad," said Nadira annoyed. His anger was mounting and could no longer be contained.

Today was the worst day for Nadira. The plan today Nadira wants to make a surprise for Pandu, because he is birthday today. But, not the surprise he gave to Pandu. But it just the opposite happened.

"Mr Dira?" call a woman with a wry smile.

Nadira looked at the woman in front of him. Yes, she is Pandu's wife named Meka.

"Bune ... Why are you here?" ask Pandu slowly. He knew exactly what Meka, his wife, would do to Nadira.

"Mother just wants to make sure you want to be together or you want to be apart. If you want to be together, then right now Mother also asks for talak from you, Mas. But, if indeed you end your relationship, Mother still wants to forgive you Mas," said Meka in a loud voice.

"Mak Meka's. Excuse me. Dira is leaving. This relationship is wrong. If only, I knew, Mas Pandu had a family from the beginning. I must have retreated," Nadira replied firmly. Both of his eyes were glazed. He could not bear to hold his ice-cold chest and could not hide his tears.

"Huf ... I can't trust you two anymore. You never knew who my husband was. If you want to be together, let Mas Pandu immediately digalak me," said Meka with a firm and loud voice.

Meka tried to be strong but actually she was also fragile to see her husband's affair in front of her own eyes.

"No Ma'am Meka. I left, I was self-conscious. All my fault" said Dira weakened.

"Tell me to go, be together again. You are also Mas Pandu, remember your son in that house three. Don't look for a shortage of wives by looking for other women" Meka said.

"You misunderstood Bun. From the beginning, Mas and Nadira wanted to be serious, not just a directionless wash. Honestly, I can't choose you. Because the two of you are not an option, but the two of you choose to be together as a whole family" Pandu asserted.

"What do you mean, Mum?" ask Meka doesn't understand.

"Mas asked permission to marry Nadira and make Nadira the second," Pandu said firmly.

The sound made the two women respond differently. Meka glared, her breathing hunting resentfully held back the anger.

Nadira just stared at Pandu in disbelief. It was as easy as the man she loved wanted to marry her. It never took Nadira's mind to be second. Not at all.

"You're crazy, man?" I shouted Meka did not accept. Meka left the room and hit Pandu's chest hard. She was angry and hated at her husband's attitude.

All this time, she had something wrong with her husband. But, this is not the way to repay Meka. It hurts to know in the duakan.