Shahadat Love Zakia

Chapter 12

Zakia heard the lecture of Ustadz convert named Ustadz Burhanuddin Siagian with teary eyes.It was hard for him to struggle in defending his religion, his religion, he was away from relatives and his family not a few bad words were thrown at him even if Burhan ustadz also received physical violence committed by his own father. But even so he still clings to the religion of his choice.

After the event Maira invites Zakia to get out of the room of the Mosque, Zakia who was silent to make Maira confused and also wondered about what was being thought by his friend

"What are you thinking about Za? just keep quiet"

"I thought about how my family would react when they found out that I had become a Muslim Mai, I was afraid, I was afraid that my faith was not as strong as Burhan's ustadz. and what I fear most is that my mother hates me even more" said Zakia, trembling with her tears.

Maira understood with the worry felt by Zakia.he gently stroked Zakia's back trying to give calm. "God willing, all will be well, Za, trust in Allah. God chose you because God knows you can pass every test that God has given you.You can Zakia, you can defend your religion of choice" Maira explained, making Zakia's worries a little less

"God does not burden a person, but according to his ability .(QS. Al - Baqarah 286)"

Tonight Zakia again learned to read Iqro which was taught directly by Mother Fatimah. actually Zakia felt a little uncomfortable because every day she had to meet with Aunt Yuli who seemed to be watching her. in order not to steal the opportunity to approach Fahmi, even though there is not the slightest intention of Zakia to try to get close to Fahmi, except Fahmi himself who is looking for an opportunity to approach him

after the prayer, Zakia said goodbye to Fatimah's mother to hurry home. he does not want to linger here especially if there are people who do not like it added today Zakia also feel very tired and want to immediately lay his body in his beloved mattress

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Zakia fiddled with her mobile phone with a sad face, she had not received a message from her family for a month and not even one of them asked about her news. Zakia felt like she was living a lonely life without a family to care for her.

Zakia let out a long sigh, after her father had all felt so different, no one was paying attention to her, no one else cared about how she lived alone overseas. even his own mother seemed to have forgotten that he had another daughter after his sister Misya

"Dad, Zakia misses, Zakia misses Daddy's affection" murmured Zakia Lirih as she stroked the screen of her mobile phone showing a photo of the man she loved who was none other than her father

The tears that he had been holding back from earlier finally spilled profusely flooding his face. Zakia's shoulders trembled, sobs began to come out of her lips.His heart ached, the pain came back to her.The fact she was not as strong as it seemed.

"O Allah, O Allah, O Astaghfirullah" cf. Zakia tried to calm himself, however no one could strengthen himself but ourselves, if he could usually complain to his Father. now Zakia can only keep her pain and longing alone

Zakia is still sobbing. his mouth opened and closed quickly trying to grab as much air as possible to fill his lungs in order to breathe normally because the tightness hit his chest very strongly when he saw a picture of his family at his brother's engagement event without his presence and knowledge

Rayyan's steps stopped when she heard the sound of sobbing from inside Zakia's work room.The atmosphere of the store was quiet at that time because there were still many workers who had not arrived. Rayyan ventured to open the door of Zakia's room quietly and was shocked to see Zakia crying with trembling shoulders

"Astaghfirullah, Zakia why are you? you are sick again" asked Rayyan with a worried look on her face

Zakia shook her head, her lips trembling to comment on the smile even though it was forced.

How Rayyan wanted to embrace the woman he loved so much, if not hindered by their status, then it was certain that Zakia would be embraced very tightly to give her peace

"Drink, calm down first, after that if Zakia wants to share the story then share it with Abang. Brother is ready to be a listener without paying" said Rayyan trying to cheer Zakia

Rayyan's words were able to make Zakia review a faint smile, she immediately grabbed the bottle of drink Rayyan thrust at her and as fast as the lightning she spent without remaining

"Are you thirsty or want you to hurry out of here? why, are you ashamed to see your face that looks ugly right now?"

"Not really, women will look beautiful anyway if viewed with the right eyes" said Zakia slowly after feeling a little better

"meaning?" said Rayyan by putting on a flat face made-up

Zakia smiled at the expression of Rayyan's face that looks funny according to him, the man always can make himself entertained.

While Rayyan was still faithfully staring at Zakia's face in silence, her silent gaze was still visible.The girl she loved always kept her pain alone. When dealing with other people Zakia always try to look okay, but that does not apply to Rayyan.he can see the look of sadness in the bead of Zakia's beautiful eyes

"In keeping his eyes on Akhi" said Andre who suddenly was already in the same room, making Zakia and Rayyan a little misbehaved

"Yes, continue the work Abang out first" said Rayyan looks stiff

Zakia too, he immediately turned and looked for busyness made Andre giggle at the behavior of the two people who are different types of it. yes the type of Ndre

"it seems like there are love scents that are starting to grow in this room"

"Huh, what? Bang Andre said what?"

"Nothing, Abang said the Angora cat Abang at home is in love" said Andre, originally accompanied by a laugh that is not understood by Zakia

While Rayyan in her room was busy controlling herself and her feelings, thankfully Andre came at the right time if not, satan will increasingly plunge himself to sin even if only from the eyes only

***هذا أمر من الله تعالى لعباده المؤمنين أن يغضوا من أبصارهم عما حرم عليهم، فلا ينظروا إلا إلى ما أباح لهم النظر إليه ، وأن يغضوا أبصارهم عن المحارم

“This is a commandment from Allah Ta’ala to His faithful servants to guard (hold) their view of things that are forbidden over them. Do not look except to those things which are allowed to be seen. And hold your sight from the things forbidden.” (Tafsir Ibn Kathir***