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I'm gonna confide

**hai.. 😊

how are you guys doing?

okey?

you guys don't want to ask how I am?

hehe... g huh?

but I want to tell you hehe

I'm again sad 😂

sad because it seems like the fans of my novel are starting to diminish and there is almost no hehe😂

so I want UNPUB or not in END. Hehe is okay right? , y

I am sad too..

in my real life now many things are not good come without permission, I am busy alone now 😊

I created a group room chat earlier in order to share with each other, but most of you like to just be a group as an additional group list aja 😊 so I feel lonely 😂

now I'm busy throwing myself out of some places and some friends.. 😊

trust me , I'm lonely 😂

I don't have a story, so I'm talking here heheh

now I even gabisa be myself 😂 stupid? iyah 😂

I always curse myself when what I think is not in line with what I do 😂

I'm almost depressed with this state 😂

I bear my own burden of having no place to share, whose fault? my fault!

wh why?

because I don't have the courage to tell a story or because my worries haunt me first..? I don't know 😂 either

it was like I was losing my direction

my breath is like being stuck ⁇ ️

I felt like I was far from a beautiful life.

hahaahhh...😂

can I say tired?

can I rest for a while just to catch my breath? I hope I can 🙃

I feel alienated

I feel like people are swearing behind me 🙃

what kind of worry is 😖

all I know now , I feel restless every time 😟

why does God outline my fate like this?

I can't blame God, I can't blame fate?

then who's guilty?

back again,*I AM GUILTY***..

**again I 😂

stupid right? though I clearly understand that every human being has his own dose of grief and happiness 😂

but I still feel it !!

I hate myself !

and again, I should love myself instead of hating him 😂

my heart is too sensitive..

even when there were some people who I felt were fake towards me, I immediately threw myself away quickly..

in my mind, I always ask

what wrong?

how much wrong did I do?

did I make a mistake?

what's up with them?

do they not trust me?

or do they hate me?

wh why?

wh why?

always a lot of questions that make me nervous 😂

is this a depression? or ?

it's . I'm used to living my way..

until finally I kept going with the flow they wanted, I became someone else 🙃

HAAAAAHHH...

will there be justice in death?

and of course! I'll be tried there fairly for all the wrongs I've done.

so now I decided to be not me when with others 😂 I think there is no harm in pleasing others even though I do not feel happy.

gwaechanha 🙃

I can feel happy later, although not now, I'm fine 🙂

I'll live as you want 🙃

I'll work 2x as hard as usual.

I hope God still gives me a long time to live in this world . 🙂

this world is beautiful..

yet I have not found much beauty in my life 😂

I think I give a lot of love to anyone, but why is the love I give always pushed hard? is the love I give too big? until it doesn't fit in your heart enough?

even so I'M NOT WHAT WHAT 🙂

don't worry, I will live well even though many people don't treat me well 😊 *I'M NOT WHAT .. 🙂***

\-**my time *SELF WOMEN***\-