REPENTANCE HAUGHTY GIRL
31. PART 31'S
Six months of Giska's current sentence. Giska's condition is getting thinner, making this girl can no longer produce ASI for her son who is one year and six months old.
Her mother was very concerned about her daughter's increasingly apprehensive situation. His face looked thin with his eyes sunken plus dark circles under his eyes the influence of not being able to sleep well at night.
Giska continued to pray every night for a third of the night to meet the owner of His soul.
"Giska, are you sick, son?" Madam Nunung asked to see her daughter who had not taken care of her face and body.
"No mother, Giska's healthy, it's just that Giska's hard to sleep at night." Said Giska without telling her good deeds to her mother.
"Darling!" Do you want me to bring sleeping pills for you?"
"Don't mother, let Giska see a doctor who used to visit here once a week."
"Alright, then eat a lot. Mommy brought your favorite food." Said Mrs Nunung who tried to hold back her tears not to be seen by Giska.
So did Giska, who pretended to look real tough, he was very fragile at the moment.
"Mother, I want to see Rangga." Pinta Giska's.
"Next week, mother will bring Rangga. Now you must be healthy and energetic so that your son is not afraid to see you later." Mrs Nunung.
"How's your daffin?"
"Stop dealing with that guy Giska. Because of him you're like this, baby. Mother beg you not to think about it anymore."
"Mother I'm guilty of her mother, I need to know how she is." Said Giska who was more sad because her mother now hates her ex-husband.
"I'm going in first, Mother." Giska immediately got up from her seat and returned to her cell.
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At the hospital, Daffin is accompanied by his two brothers, Mariam and Asia. The two keep trying to resuscitate Daffin from his coma.
Mariam and Asia read the Koran at all times to Daffin, so that God would provide immediate healing for Daffin.
In his coma Daffin dreams of Giska being persecuted by many of his cellmate's female inmates.
In the dream, Giska who tried to survive ran from the pursuit of his friends. But suddenly Giska fell and the two friends pulled Giska's hair until she was dragged like an animal.
Giska who was tired and in pain finally fainted. His friend stabbed Giska with a fork they stole from the dining room.
A moment later Giska breathed his last breath in the name of Allah. Daffin who saw Giska sprawled with blood, cried hysterically. He did not expect his wife to be killed sadistically in a women's prison.
Maybe the bond between the two, which makes Daffin suddenly mention the name Giska.
"Giska, don't go Giska, don't go baby!" I'll pick you up." Daffin said in his subconscious beginning.
Giska looked increasingly distant, like being swallowed by the thick smog that enveloped his entire body.
"Giskaaaa!" Daffin immediately opened his eyes with a sweat that had flooded his temple.
"Mas Daffin!" Mariam calls her newly sober brother from her coma but his eyes glare at the ceiling of her room.
Asia immediately called the doctor to see the state of Daffin. The doctor immediately met his patient with joy when he saw that Daffin had awakened from his coma.
"Doctor, it looks like he just had a nightmare." Mariam.
The doctor examined the patient carefully.
"Thank God, Mr. Daffin is fully conscious" Miss." Doctor Billy.
"Alhamdulillah, finally our prayers are answered." Mariam then kissed the back of her gold hand.
Asia pulls her sister's hand away from Daffin. He whispered something to Mariam.
"Mas Daffin just regained consciousness from the coma, I hope you don't talk about Giska's mother before she recovers mentally." Tell Asia to her sister.
"Yes mbak, I also know about it, do not have to be taught like that." Mariam was upset with her mother who treated her like a child.
"Mbak just reminded me, who knows you are upset." said Asia.
"Who are you talking about?" Ask Daffin who was sitting on his cage after the neck brace and oxygen were removed from his body.
"Just want to tell ummi that Daffin's mas is conscious." Asia is lying.
"Was I been treated, Giska's been to see me?" Ask Daffin.
"O Allah is Asian, what is the answer?" Mariam asked while elbowing Asian body.
"Can you shut up?'' Asia glared towards her sister Mariam.
"Are you keeping something from me?" Daffin asked annoyed with his two younger siblings who looked very suspicious.
"Is Daffin hungry?" Asia tries to distract Daffin from talking about Giska.
"I don't want to eat, I want answers from you. Do you know about Giska?" Ask Daffin again.
"Java!!" Daffin yelled at his two younger siblings until they both flinched.
"In jail?" What did you do to jail?" Ask Daffin.
"Because of pushing the Daffin mas down." Mariam.
"What date is it today?" Ask Daffinnya.
"Mas Daffin has been in a coma for almost a year. Giska has been in prison for almost a year." Asian Yoke.
"I have to go to jail now, I have to see him and release him because he's innocent, it was I who had abused her that she was angry with me and accidentally pushed me so hard that I lost my balance and fell off the balcony that night in her room." Daffin said making both his sister's suspicions are true.
"Mas Daffin, then save Mbak Giska because his life is like dying reluctantly not want to live." Mariam.
"I'll be at the hospital soon." He said and wanted to get off his bed in a hurry.
"Mas Daffin change first, that's a hospital suit mas." Asian speech that prevents Daffin when you want to escape from the hospital.
"Luckily the hospital business has been sorted out, otherwise it could be messed up." Mariam.
While Daffin replaces his clothes, Mariam informs Alya and his brother that his mas is conscious.
Daffin came out in a hurry but his body was instantly unsteady. It turns out that Daffin is still dizzy and not strong enough to do excessive activity because his spine is injured.
The arrangement of his spine is still not perfectly healed. Plus he had done a spinal cord transplant to his son Rangga.
"Mas Daffin is not yet strong, it's best to be put off going to his prison." Mariam.
They help get Daffin's body back on top of his cage.
"Mas Daffin, later also met with mbak Giska and also the son of mas who is now more handsome like Daffin mas, what else the face is exactly like Daffin mas.
"really?" Daffin wept in memory of his folly that once doubted the existence of his own son.
"Cry daffin mas, until the heart of Daffin mas no longer hurt. After that forget about his past and rise again to regain the love you once lost." Mariam advised Daffin who is currently crying regretting his actions that ended in sorrow for his small family and also his entire extended family.
In prison Giska diligently read the Koran and memorized it. Now he has memorized 20 juz. He read more books related to Islamic studies.
Prison really forged his faith and mentally became stronger to face the trials that came to him in a row.
"Oh God, if I have to call you as soon as possible, please turn me free from here." Giska said in a thread of her prayers in one third of the night.
Giska then returned to Dhikr and beristighfar while waiting for the entry of dawn.
Friends who one cell with her still sleep snoring enjoy their sleeping flowers as entertainment. While the best entertainment for Giska at this time is his delicious dignity to God who has given him the opportunity to do the sprouting nasuha or called with a real request for penance without repeating the mistake that same.
Even though the promise of Allah who always forgives the sins of His servants who commit great sins is like a froth in the countless seas, still Allah will accept the repentance of His servant, if he still commits sins and when his death comes to his throat, the door will be closed.
Within a month, there were spiritual activities held by the prison guards. This spiritual activity based on each religious community is very good for fostering a spiritual mentality for inmates whose levels of evil they have been very severe, as if the devil's soul has been residing in their bodies.
In the mosque in the middle of the rutan, a lecture is held every Sunday. Giska is always diligent and wants to know a lot how to cultivate the faith to get closer to her Robby.
Giska asked some things related to her. He wanted to be in that prison to be able to educate himself to be closer to his Lord.
After the study, Giska approached the graduates who had filled the ta'lim earlier.
"I'm sorry, can I ask you something?" Ask Giska manners.
"Please visit Giska!" Ustadzah Ummi Kulsum.
"How do we deal with our faith that goes up and down every time we get into trouble or the test of life?" Ask Giska.
Umm Kulsum was very pleased with Giska who was more active in finding out the science of God. He then answered Giska's question according to the guidance of Allah and his apostles based on the Qur'an and the hadith.
"Basically, each believer has a sense of confidence, but what distinguishes only one, namely the level of faith possessed. The stronger the faith a servant keeps, he is like a mountain that stands tall and firm.
In one of the rules of the fiqh proposal, al-Yaqinu La Yuzalu bi al-Shak (strong belief will not change with a doubt).
This belief will not be able to be crushed easily by the blowing of doubt or by the winds of anxiety spread by the devil. Satan will not stop maneuvering to mislead the son of Adam. As the Prophet SAW said, Satan will lead mankind astray and no one will take any other path, except Satan will also take it.”
Thus, when grouped, the level of faith can be divided into three layers. First, the basic level or called faith. This category is usually filled with the public whose faith rate is still often up and down and changing.
The second level, the level of faith that is solid in the heart and does not waver so that at this level, almost someone is able to see the supernatural. This level of faith is called sure.
The third highest level of faith is known as kasyaf. This level is equivalent to the level of the guardians and prophets who no longer have a boundary between the supernatural and the visible.
Furthermore, there are three ways that can be taken to build a strong fortress of faith. First, listen, read, and meditate on verses and traditions that affirm the greatness and power of God.
In addition, also religious texts that hint clearly about the truth of da'wah conveyed by the apostles with all the consequences obtained, both from obedience and sanctions obtained due to transgression when denying the divine treatise. This method is according to the word of God:
Allah says, “And those who wage jihad (seek pleasure) We will truly show them Our ways.” (QS al-Ankabut [29]: 69).
Meanwhile, the third way, the belief that has been obtained must be applied both inwardly and inwardly and try as much as possible to carry out the commandments and avoid His prohibition. Because, with the firmness of faith and confidence, God will always guide and pour out His love for mankind." Ustadzah ummi Kulsum explained in detail to Giska so that this girl really understood the answer to the question she needed.
"Alhamdulillah Ustadzah, now Giska more calmly lived the life that every human being tested based on his faith rate." Giska then kissed the hands of Ummi Kulsum.
This girl returned to her mat with a calm heart. Although there are so many trials that we face, but if we are always close to God even though the solution we have not got but the peace of heart we have achieved.
