Reminiscents

DISILLUSIONMENT

At night in Hana's room is still awake, even though the clock has shown at 23.00 wib. It is not the task of the Puskesmas that makes him stay up, is not..!! but tonight between his heart and mind is raging. His heart said, ‘you have no hpnya Hana, fast WA him.. if not for what you noted earlier’. While his mind answered ‘do not make Hana ashamed, not your Tip to greet men first, donk prestige.’

Hana was still confused as to whose words should she hear, her heart or mind? But even so, Hana's hand still keeps the number recorded earlier in her HP with the name Asran. Seconds later he opened the WA and looked for the name in his WA contact, it turned out that it was his no WA.

“Ya Allah... Why with me? Why the urge to know about him is so deep.. and getting bigger.” Hana said while covering her face with both hands.

“Bism...” Finally, with complete confidence, Hana typed something new number in the savenya.

‘p’ Yup…!! It was the letter p he sent.

Her heart was like cheering, finally being able to win affecting Hana, but her mind felt disappointed.

A second later Hanapun realized, and hurriedly wanted to pull the letter P again before being read by the concerned, but unfortunately a thousand times dear…..

‘p’ replies also come in from that number. The same letter. Hana is confused about what else to do, let it go or even start a conversation ?? his heart won again. Hana chose to start the conversation.

“Assalamu’alaikum, sorry can ask.?” Hana sent him, a few minutes later there was a reply.

“Wa’alaikumusalam, yes Ask what yes….?if you know who is.?” Hana was stormed with the question who was she? Confused what to answer, but his heart again like giving an idea.

“Sorry, just want to make sure the fear is wrong people, is this Asran number?”

After sending it, Hana waited with a cautious heart.Wanya has not been opened, it has been approximately half an hour Hana waited, but there was no reply. until finally Hana yawned, Hana waited, his eyes could no longer compromise and he fell asleep.

The morning prayer awakened Hana from her sleep, when she opened her spontaneous eyes, Hana immediately grabbed the HP located not far from her. Hoping for something.he immediately opened WA and Nihil. There's no reply yet. Let alone reply, WAnya not opened since last night. Did he sleep last night and not wake up yet? Is he praying at dawn? Hannah wondered in her heart. Ahh.. what the fuck sech Hana, her mind resuscitates her. Don't rush Hana, later she will be reciprocated, her mind began to advise her.

After the prayer, Hana read the Qur’an some sheets hoping that her mind and heart could forget that she was waiting for a reply from the man. But, it is still undeniable that he still remembers as well. Every intermittently opens his WA. But there's no reply yet. He hasn't read it yet.

The clock has shown at 06.15 wib. A little upset, Hana went to the bathroom. After finishing the bath, he got ready to go to Puskemas. Today is Monday, the service is usually crowded. Hana hopes that with the busyness of her care for patients can make her forget the events of the night until dawn. With this mess of his heart and mind, waiting for what he should not have waited for. Not the Hana type is actually craving these trivial and strange things. Hannah cursed herself. Whether you want to reply or not, there is no benefit for him. Hana tried to comfort herself who was upset!!

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“From the results of the examination earlier, the gestational age of the mother is 28 weeks, the position of the fetus is well marked by the head of the fetus is below and the fetal heart rate is normal. I suggest next week for USG yes buk, to find out the location of the placenta/dari-ari. If the problem is eating, there is no abstinence, the important thing is nutritious, eat lots of vegetables and fruit yes, continue to drink lots of water as well and try to take frequent morning walks, because this has entered Trimester to 3” Hana's advice to one of the pregnant women patients who control that morning. This is the 10th patient this morning. In accordance with Hana's assumption, on Monday it is usually crowded patients to check their pregnancy.

“ Aduuhhh…. It is tired..hungry too..had not had time to eat breakfast…. Stop first why sech...” After the patient was out, Tika mendumel and hope that no more status of the patient who was delivered in.

“Yes you have breakfast first Ka,” tell Hana

“Not anything sister by herself?” Tanya Tika felt bad. Usually they are in the room there are five, coincidentally 2 people dropped the vaccine to the villages and 1 more is on maternity leave.

“nothing ka” replied Hana.

“Have done so, thank you very kind brother Hana... Your sister is breakfast first.. laperrr”.

he said after it passed from the KIA room.

Hana continued her work, there were still some patient examination results that had not been recorded in the register.

Moments later, his phone rang 2 times. Signs there's a WA in. Hannah stopped taking notes. With a slightly shaking hand coupled with a strange sigh in his chest, ihhh…. Hana opens up, find out who WA is herself.

‘Iya right, why ya?’ finally, the long-awaited reply came as well. Hana smiled happily, I don't know. WA's short reply was able to make her heart flowery.

‘Not why.. Success always yes, Asran!!’ Jreng, without thinking long and clear again Hana hurriedly replied to her WA.

‘Thank you, but who is this?’ that question again, Hana is confused who to answer him…

‘Call aja kak Hana, Greetings Yes..’

And it came to pass that Hana introduced who she was at last. Hana hopes Asran directly reply WAnya, but again nil. Hana tried to think positively how to know he was working again, he was a police officer..Yes the police work is a bit busy, but is he really a police officer? It is true that he was in the Bayangkara Team. Definitely Police. Hana guessed in her heart. Speaking of cops, suddenly Hana's back in Reno. The ideals of his beloved sister from childhood want to be a policeman. But unfortunately before that materialized Reno had died first, bringing a myriad of his hopes and dreams into another world that was different from him.

“What breakfast was there?” Ask Hana

“Soto kak..., any more patients not kak?”

“no entry status, but it looks like outside is still crowded. Maybe still on the registration table”

“iya sech, very crowded outside... why sech on Monday patients should be crowded?” Tika asked as if protesting with patients who are always crowded every Monday.

“Entah ye a...” Hana answered as she was. Tika was still busy nagging, I don't know what she was nagging again. Hana's not so listening. He was busy taking notes, although his hands were busy taking notes, but undeniably his heart and mind were busy waiting…. Waiting for WA reply From Asran…..!!

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At 14:30 Hana came out of Puskesmas. It was time to go home, today was exhausting for him. Tired of energy and tired of waiting…! Yep.. Hana is still waiting for WA reply from Asran, last he replied at 10 am this morning, until now WA Hana did not also open. Is that how busy he is? Hana became curious, whether he intentionally or ahh. Hana did not want suudzon first. Upon arriving home, Hana immediately took a shower. After that, he briefly stretched his body dry while waiting for the Ashar Adhan. Hana took her HP that was being stamped, checked wa again. There were several wa who entered, but not from the person he expected.

“do I have to WA again huh?” Hannah asked in her heart. There is no harm in WA anymore.

‘p’ Hana sent that flagship letter again, hopefully there will be a reply. Please Hana.

A few minutes later….

‘iya kak, what's wrong with kak?’ finally.he replied to her, this time he called sister.Maybe because Hana introduced herself by the name of Kak Hana earlier.

‘not anything really, oiya..if you can know the background photo of his profile where it's like a foreign place.’ Hana asked because she actually also knew that the place was Puskesmas where she worked.

‘iya in Puskesmas kak,’ Reply.

‘oo.. is it true my guess, why can you take photos there? Sorry so much Tanya.. kak work at Puskesmas that's the problem..’.

Hana hopes her WA is immediately reciprocated, but again zonk. Yes, I have brought prayer first, after all it has been Adzan. Thought in the heart.

At 7pm Hana returned to see WA. Hana Hana has not opened the last one. Should it be fished again?

‘Old yes reply,,hehe’ Finally Hana fishing again so she wants to open it, but still not opened as well. Somehow this makes Hana's heart upset, he never had any of this issue of WA that is not reciprocated, usually he was stupid, indifferent and no matter what WA from Guys!

To spill her frustration, Hana typed WA again which time is now rather long.

‘Dek Asran good heart.sorry yes mngkin WA kak make Asran uncomfortable, honestly kak ngak no mean anything, kak just want to make friends. It feels odd if not delivered, actually kak tau Asran during a volleyball match in the Bayangkara Team. Sis Always watch and love your performance. And he also got the number Asran from one of the committee there. Kak has told the truth about Asran's question who was this brother, and after this it is up to Asran to reply to WA brother or not, or want to directly block WA kak no problem..brother Yakin Asran a good and wise boy, once again sorry to interrupt his time, Assalamu’alaikum.’.

Hana sent that long message. There was a sense of relief in his heart, but when repeated again reading it, Hana suddenly felt embarrassed. How could he humble himself like this…. ?

‘i just came home from work, sister, Hehe.. yes kak’ kak.

Just 5 minutes later Asran replied to WA Hana. He was already Suudzon, instead of being accidentally unread. That's because he was working. Malunya Hana, already WA Long width like that but the answer is just a seumplit. O ALLAH. Malunya he, Hana agreed not to reply WAnya again for tonight.

The next day, Hana returned as usual. In fact, there was a certain amount of hope that came out of nowhere to Hana…. He was hoping for some WA entry from Asran this morning. Because it has been several times Hana continues who started and fished the conversation. The world feels upside down. Usually she is the queen in mencuek right people but this time Hana as the stone nails as well.

‘Assalamu’alaikum, oiya. kemaren kak forgot Tanya if you can know where the task Asran? Polres or Polsek? And what part..?’

That morning, Hana started greeting Asran again, but the shame of WA that was long last night had not disappeared, but why the desire to know him more deeply became stronger in Hana. Does this have anything to do with Reno? I don't know.if from the way he long raced WA, very different from Reno.. Reno always reply WA though busy whatever, calopun rather late Reno never forget to say sorry.

‘maaf sister Hana cantiikkk.. was Reno again on the road...’ Reno always does, she always praises Hana. Sometimes said sister Hana is good, beautiful, smart and everything that always makes Hana feel appreciated.

‘i at the police station, min’ section Asran reply WA Hana, without answering greetings from Hana first.

‘oo... how long has it been working in polres deck?’ reply Hana again. He wanted to dig deeper.

But honey…. Just 1 minute after Hana replied to WA Asran, for the next Asran did not open his WA again. Until Hana at the Puskesmas, and during the day Hana accidentally saw Asran was online. But this morning I did not read it. Did Asran really feel disturbed by Hana's presence? Hana just wants to be friends…. It turns out that his style and face are similar to Reno, his attitude and behavior are very far with Reno. He's so cocky, cuey and sok! Hannah was disappointed!! In Hana's heart hope that one day this proud Bocil sillelaki feels what he feels, not delicious in cuekin and made to wait… waiting for WA replies that Hana believes have actually been read but is reluctant to open….. There is one word thrown in Hana's mouth at this time, namely DISAPPOINTED…

Seriate..