Pursuing the Love of the Mentari

4. About Mentari's Feelings

Mentari Pov

After the piled up office work was done, I saw my flaming gait. It was a message from Mang Ujang. Mang Ujang told me that he could not pick up Adam at school, because the therapy was not finished.

A year ago, Dad had a stroke. But, fortunately the stroke suffered by Dad was not too severe. Without waiting for a long time, I hurried to pick up the car keys to pick up Adam.

I see, the watch on the wrist, it looks like Adam has dropped out of school and it feels like I'm going to be late to pick him up. Hopefully the boy will wait and not wander around.

After about 15 minutes, I finally arrived at Adam's school. I saw that he was sitting with a man. At once I was worried, afraid that the man wanted to have evil intentions on Adam.

However, after the distance between me and them got closer, I was able to breathe a sigh of relief. It turned out that Adam was sitting with Mas Darto, the man who had been aggressively approaching me.

"Assalamualaikum" I told them.

"Waalaikumsalam" they said in unison.

Seeing my arrival, Adam immediately embraced me. I apologize if it is too late to pick up and explain to Adam, thank God the child understands and is not angry with me.

After a brief conversation with Mas Darto, I resigned with Adam. Not to forget, I also thank you for accompanying Adam waiting for me to come.

Before leaving, Mas Darto asked me for permission to take Adam for a walk this weekend. I'll allow it, because seeing Adam was so enthusiastic. I was invited along, but I said I was doing a lot of work and could not accompany them.

But that's just an excuse. I don't know, I know that Mas Darto harbors feelings for me. And that, he has stated many times. However, I still cannot open my heart to any man.

The pain of the past still lingers in my heart. Although it was 6 years ago, but the pain from the wound is still I feel. I don't want to hurt my heart any deeper with the new Love.

My determination not to remarry and just to focus on Adam, was opposed by many others such as Father, my ex-husband's parents and my friends. Indeed, I shouldn't have generalized all men like Dimas.

However, if looked back, I am afraid that events from the past repeat themselves. Am I numb to a creature whose name is man? Nah! The answer is no. Because, actually in the depths of my heart, I also admire the figure of Mas Darto. However, my pain and ego beat it all.

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"Ma, can't Mama really go out with us?" the question that came out of Adam's mouth, instantly blew all my mind.

"Eh, emmm. Yes, I'm sorry dear Mama can not join Adam as Om Darto streets" I replied a little clumsy.

"Yaaaah, but Adam really wants to go out with Mama as well Om good too. Adam wanted to be like Adam's friends. Can walk with his Mama Papa" said Adam in a lethargic tone.

The deg!

I already know, surely gradually Adam will find and miss the figure of his father. However, I could not do anything, the figure he missed in fact to this day is still supported by his insanity. After 6 years running, Dimas state shows nothing and even worse. In the end, we all decided to tell Adam that his father was dead.

It is not that we pray that Dimas is not good, but indeed the situation of Dimas now, it is like an undead. Ah, son. Forgive your mother who is still unable to make you happy. My inner.

"Adam wants to be like Adam's other friends Ma. Who has Mama and Papa" said Adam again.

"Dam, horrifying Mama. Adam did not need to envy Adam's friends who had a complete family. Adam has so much to love. There are Mama, Eyang Kung, grandma, Ateu Riri, Grandpa, Om Radit, Aunt Aisyah, Dek Zahra and also Om Darto. They all love Adam" I replied, giving Adam understanding.

"Then, why is Mama not the same Om Darto. Adam wanted to have Papa rich Om Darto" said Adam Sumringah.

Oh, God, Adam. This child's request is there. I don't know, I feel like a dead flea when Adam talks like that. Not only this time Adam actually wanted me to be with Mas Darto, but I always gave understanding to Adam that I could not be with Mas Darto. Of course with children's language and easily understood by Adam.

I'm sorry your mother is Dam, who still can't fulfill your request. Mama's just scared, adding wounds in her heart and Mama's life.

If the time comes when Mama has another life partner, I hope he is a man who can accept both of us. Not only love and love your mother, but she must also love and love you too.

There is enough pain you need to feel. You have never had the love and affection of your own father. Your father is still alive. But you never got his affection.

Mama didn't want to give you a father figure. But the wounds of the past are so still painful in this heart. I just don't want to be wrong in choosing a partner anymore.

The love and affection of Mas Darto is not necessary for me to doubt. However, the shadows of the past were again always a scary thing for me to step up.

Sorry, sorry Mama once again Dam. Just be patient a little more. If the time comes, Mama make sure you will get genuine affection from men who hold the title Father. Even if it's just father and son.

And for you, thank you for your love and affection. Give me a little more time. If indeed we are a match, no matter how far I go, it will definitely come back to you.

Seriate....

Assalamualaikum everything

How are you all doing? May He be well and God bestow health upon us all. Thank God, the author can Up again after so long not Up due to the author's health condition.

Thank you for the author of the same word who is still faithful waiting for the continuation of this story. Insha Allah, may the author be Up every day huh.

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