PURSUE CUSTOM IN-LAWS

Section 9

I lay my body on the bed. My eyes closed but could not sleep because it was still busy with all the thoughts that filled the brain.

Before long Mas Arga went inside, then joined to lay down beside me.

"Sorry, Deck." I felt the warm touch of Mas Arga's hand on my upper arm. Under the covers I cried I wanted to feel Mas Arga's affection more than this.

I don't know when I started to fall asleep and when I woke up I felt pain in my eyes. I'm looking at myself in the mirror, my face did not change even though I was married but I still routinely took care of my body and face only for my husband but what power all that did not make Mas Arga interested in touching me.

My eyes were a little puffy this morning probably from crying too much.

Mas Arga seemed to pay attention to my eyes that were indeed shaped unnaturally.

"Sir, did you cry last night?" mas Arga asked, pointing to my eyes.

I really wanted to answer that I had been crying all night because of you. But I stopped doing things that could hurt Mas Arga.

"Oh this, last night there was a cockroach in the room and it looks like I got a cockroach pee," I replied lying.

Mas Arga just agreed to my words.

"Treated Deck let's not get an infection." Arga rubbed my eyes. Our activities are as usual both busy working.

Today I would love to have lunch at a Soto Lamongan Warung. I went to lunch with Santi, my office mate. We have arrived at Warung Soto Lamongan, Santi chose a seat in the corner.

I wanted to take Mas Arga but he said he couldn't because there was an important business suddenly.

"Nadin, how was your life after marriage?" santi asked to open a conversation on the sidelines of saturation waiting for the soto we ordered arrived.

"Hmmm, how is it? Well anyway that later you will also feel for yourself," I said to avoid questions that little privacy.

One by one people began to enter and fill the seats. When we came the atmosphere of the stall was not so crowded before long a lot of visitors who came.

"Right, it was the voice of Mas Arga and-" I muttered inwardly restraining the turmoil of anger.

Santi looked at me strangely because he was silent about not eating the food that I really wanted right now.

"Nadin, what's wrong with you?" santi asked me fixedly.

"Santi, I want to go." I said while holding back the crying.

"Loh, why? Your soup has not been eaten. Come on, eat first." Santi's holding me back. I've lost my taste, but Santi has a point I better not go and eavesdrop on their conversation. I just stirred up the soto sauce that was in front of me. I really lost my appetite.

I vaguely heard Mas Arga say my name. After the food on Santi's plate, I immediately dragged him to follow me to find Mas Arga.

"Mas Arga?" I greet Mas Arga still with a smile, it is true that he is Mas Arga, my husband.

"Well, Nadin Deck? you here?" Arga asked me again without guilt.

"Yes, I've been here ever since. Then why are you here? don't you have any important business? Oh so that important business with this woman? I asked fiercely.

"It's not so Deck Nadin, Mas can explain." Arga tried to prevent me from leaving.

With tears I leave behind two human beings who have no heart. Luckily this food stall there is a lesehan place with restrictions and lucky Santi chose to sit in the right place.

Arga was still following me from behind. I don't care about being the center of attention of a lot of people.

"Mas can explain the Deck," again Mas Arga is still trying to get attention from me to stop the steps.

I stopped after wiping away the tears that had soaked the entire surface of my cheek. I stopped not to listen to the reasons of Mas Arga but to affirm them all.

"So this is your excuse? the reason why you are reluctant to touch my body and do not want to have children from me," I said firmly throwing out the answer to the question that always haunts me every night.