PROOF OF LOVE FOR THE STARS

34 Make yourself worthy

Orion

I stared at the row of numbers in the file located on the table. I'm now at R Cafe when the clock shows at 9 p.m.

A year passed, I almost died. My life is turning upside down. But one thing I am grateful for. I'm still breathing now.

I live but feel dead. I am alive but I am no longer meaningful. My life has been meaningless since that night. The night I broke my heart.

I stared at my vibrating phone. A message from Chia. My hands stretched out and I grabbed the phone.

Chia sent me a photo. A screenshot of Wa Nair. Where there is a photo of their family with brother Bi in the middle. I know it's Bi's sister because Nair gave the sticker love right in her face.

Still won't let me see Bi's sister's face, apparently.

With photo captions. The happy graduation our Star.

I breathe heavily. Bi has graduated S2. While I still want to start semester one. It was also on a private campus.

We're getting further away brother. Brother is getting further and harder for me to reach.

Nair and Nath are the first bastions of the barrier between me and Brother Bi. And then there's family and destiny.

I realized my mistake that night. I'm in too much of a hurry. I was so selfish that it all ended this way.

Tok...

The door is knocked from the outside. I'm unmoving. Because I've sent a message to the cafe manager to come out before the clock closes. So what's he here for.

Tok...

The door is knocked and getting louder. I had to open it because I locked it from the inside.

I grabbed the crutches I laid on the side of the table. I slipped under my armpits and limped towards the door.

*Kruk is a walking stick/tool.

Yeah, here I am now. Orion is disabled and can't walk without help.

And it's been a lot better because for 8 months I've only been in a wheelchair.

After that farewell night I was no longer able to meet with Brother Bi. All access is closed. I'm no longer welcome at Akhtar's house.

Papi has cleared up the problem. But Brother Bi remains out of the Light of the Nation.

Almost three months without any news from him. I tried to come back, but the house was empty. There's nobody inside. Mang Joko said. And when I asked Mang Joko's answer was just, everyone left, mas.

Yes, but where?

Because of my fear and the despair that was stirring me I drove my iron horse on the highway.

I pressed my hand even more, until the speed of the motorcycle was at 100 km/h.

Still not relieved. I added up to the 150 km/h figure. I feel like I'm flying. And the blinding light from the front made me lose control.

"Braaaka!!!! A greettt!!!" I felt my body being dragged far away and finally dark.

I woke up a week later with my feet hard to move. Am I paralyzed?

If there's cyanide, I'd rather swallow it right then and there. Because it's better for my life to end than to endure all this.

But I saw Nair and all his family were here except for Star Brother. They forgive me? Just out of pity, I don't know.

I apologize to Akhtar and Aunt Lintang.

Aunt Lintang hugged me. "You're aunty think like your own aunt, Yon."

"But you also hurt aunty's son, the others."

"Auntie forgives you."

"Ka. Bi's sister." I stammered.

"Sir Bi is already in London Rion."

"Focus on your health."

Since then, my family and I have focused on my health. Two months of treatment but no significant progress. Mami papi took me abroad.

And I came back 4 months ago after 6 months abroad. At that time I still needed two sticks and now I only need 1 stick.

I feel my recovery has st**uck here. Because when I forcefully walk it will get sicker. And now I never force myself again.

I opened the door and the face I saw. "You what?"

"You come in." Ethan just passed me by.

I went in and sat on the couch with him.

"See this!" Ethan showed me the same photo Chia sent.

"I already know!" Answer's short.

"Hem.." dehemnya with a cynical smile.

"Still beg* it turns out." he quipped.

I looked at him sharply. Not accepting his words.

"Still beg*. Look at Rion, open your eyes." His words are full of emphasis.

"And you're still standing with this stupid thing." Ethan threw my wand a long way. Until it hit the toilet door.

"Ethan!" My atonement.

Ethan is standing in front of me. "Wake Rion! Brother Bi will be back soon and look at you." He pointed at me with both palms.

"Stand alone is still not becus!" He smiled mockingly.

I'm furious. She thought I never tried. She thought I was silent all along. I'm tired of that stick, too.

"Still in love?"

Do I deserve to love him?

I nodded weakly.

"Are you a better person?"

I nodded weakly. Believe it or not since the accident, my prayers never stayed even though I was in a wheelchair.

Because aunt Lintang said, "Fix yourself, start from your prayers, then everything will follow."

Sure enough, since the five prayers I run, sunah prayers also slowly I do. I'm going to teach. And since two months ago I've been going to the orphanage to share.

"Now try not to rely on that stick, Rion!" Jerky Ethan.

"I tried, Than!"

"Okay, let's try again." Ethan helped me stand up.

I stood up slowly and Ethan stood two meters in front of me.

"Now walk, Rion!" His order.

I started pressing my left leg to walk. "Sick Than!" My complaint.

"Is it more painful than your heart because of you?"

No. gabe. This pain is nothing.

I stepped with my legs still slightly dragged.

"Hard Rion?"

I'm nodding. But he's smiling. Brash friend.

"Is it harder than Brother Bi to restore his good name?"

I'm riveted. No. gabe. It's not that hard.

I'm taking another step forward. Not too I dragged. It still hurts but I'm getting used to it.

"Can you do it again, Yon?"

I nodded and stepped. Be ill. I'm holding on to the nightstand.

"Depart, Yon! Make this easy, as easy as you put brother Bi to shame." Ethan Shouts.

I'm upset. I regret. "Aaaargggh.." I grabbed my own hair. "Yes Bi..." My tears.

"If things can't be like they used to be. At least you can meet him and apologize in person, Yon!"

I'm nodding. Ethan's right. "I have to apologize, Than!"

"If you can." Ethan Sahut.

"It has to be." I'm optimistic.

"You think Brother Bi's family will let you just meet him?"

I'm speechless.

"You can go back to Brother Bi, Yon!" Ethan then said.

I'm staring.

"How to make yourself worthy."

****

Well, Babang Rion has nongol 😊

But he's sick. 😭

Maybe because he hurt 😥😥 too often

Please don't demon me 😂

Babang Rion is handsome. Let him also recover 😊 Father he has a hospital, you know that.

He must recover, yes times want to nga-nu same brother Bi but his legs hurt 😂😂 Confused dong set the formation how 😆

Udah ah, Sunday want full break 😊

Traces do not forget yes 😁