Princess Surgaku Khaula
New day
Even 4 years Khaula left us. All the good memories are recorded well in our memory, especially the memory of his beloved sister Ammar.
It is very difficult for me to give an understanding of what has happened to his beloved brother, for a year he lost his cheerfulness, his spirit, his appetite, even his health.Some times he fell ill because of longing, no food entered his body, we only relied on the infusion liquid that was plugged into his hands.
As time went on, the wound dried up. Slowly, he began to accept the reality and try to revive his life that had been interrupted by loss.
Now, she is in 2nd grade of Elementary School, she grows up to be a smart but quiet child, not as happy as when her brother was around.
Time passes so fast. My mother is now a medical student. He wanted to be a doctor so that he could be a way to heal the sick. He knew that fate had already set him up, but at least he could work on someone's recovery, he could prevent another Ammar Ammar from losing his brother.
My youngest grew up to be a friendly but serious child, his nature since childhood never changed.
Father died a month ago, I offered my mother to stay here with me but she refused. Mother prefers to stay in the village with her adopted children. "By living in the village Mother feels that the Father is always near the Mother, Mother can often make pilgrimages to the tomb of the Father. Don't worry about you being lonely, there is Indra Indri and a pile of activities that you have to do here. Take good care of yourself Humaira Mother." so he said.
My daily activities are just spending time at home and looking after my husband, sometimes I go to an orphanage near home to just give a little happiness to them. When their smile expands, it is like there is a figure of Khaula in the child.
Sometimes I feel bored, but what else can I do? work? wh-wh-what for?I am also very rich. So I spent the whole day relaxing, had thought of opening a simple restaurant and other small business so that I have activities, it seems I have to realize immediately.
Tonight my husband didn't come home, I don't know where he went. I have tried to contact him many times, but I have never received an answer. I was up all night. Anxiety, worry, annoyance and sadness approached. I called the staff of his company no one knew where my husband was going. My son goes to college out of town, he only comes home once a month if there's no urgent need.
"Don't often go home, son, if there is free time to rest there. Go home if your longing is no longer able to hold, Mamah will always welcome you here." I said that he did not come home often, I was worried that he would be exhausted because the distance from the house to the campus was indeed far away.He occupied one of the simple boarding rooms near the campus.
By morning, my husband never came.Where did he go? did Jangn don't you crash pah? did you visit Ammar? but why don't you take me? didn't you tell me? you have no other family, so there's no way you can go to your other siblings. Where should I look for you pah? I'm so worried.
Departing us, the first place I went to was the tomb of our daughter. I saw no one around, I went back on a journey that would either find a bright spot or not. I went to the restaurant where we used to eat, I went to the house of a friend of his friend and the place we had visited before. But no, there is no result. I called my housekeeper, I asked if my husband had arrived home? but the empty answer I got.
Tonight was so gripping, my life felt empty. Suddenly my youngest son called to ask me.
"Your friend is fine, right? mah, I don't know why my heart isn't calm. I keep thinking about Mamah.Where is mah?" Ask son.
"You're fine, son, how are you there? Papah's sleeping baby, maybe tired so sleep fast." I had to lie.
"Mom why? Mom crying? mamah ko's voice was like crying Mah?" Her speech.
"You're watching my son's soap opera, so get carried away." I had to lie back.
"Ah Mamah I thought what was wrong. I was going home Mah, I have free time tomorrow because all the tasks I have completed .I miss Mamah and Papah a lot but suddenly my friend moved out, no one helped him. He asked for my help. What about Mamah? if Mamah wants me to go home, I'll tell my friend that I can't help." Ask Son.
"No son, no! help your friend. Here we are fine, you can go home after a smester holiday right? next month, right? we'll go home later and we'll go and stay at Grandma's." I'm explaining.
"Well, I miss Grandma too much, well I don't come home tomorrow, take good care of yourself well yes, greetings to papah, assalamu'alaikum mah." Ammar.
"Wa'alaikum greetings dear, take good care of yourself there ya." I'm relieved.
