Pluviophiles

Section 3

If you guys have introduced me to Ardian, I have also been good friends with the Word before. My acquaintance with the Word was much longer than my acquaintance with Ardian, though they were also good friends and a schoolmate, too, but my introduction to one of them is absolutely from my own who invites friends even though at first we are friends not directly, Online.

Yeah, maybe you think I'm a flirty girl or something, but not what you think. I made them friends because I needed them, they were much more mature than I was before. For years I only told them something about the easy language and because we happened to clop or one thought we finally made Grub WhatsApp at that time.

Initially very crowded, until the second month after we make the Grub, quiet began to come closer. Word's away, for some reason. I thought maybe the Word was in need of a different atmosphere, I quite understand it. Maybe he needs to adapt here and there to find comfort for him.

But over time he was right away, no more conversations in the Group, until finally one by one out. Leave some memories that I never erased back then on my old phone.

I began to understand, Firman was not looking for a new atmosphere but indeed he was enjoying a new atmosphere, enjoying the beauty of world romance in romance.

Yes, she has a new lover, beautiful and white. Every day she flaunts some of her romance in some sosmed.

I thought I would be happy for my friend's happiness, but my heart couldn't. Honestly, ever since she was dating she's rarely told me, just looking at each other's stories and I hesitated to just be Coment.

I know maybe she has reasons, like keeping her lover feeling. All I know is that his girlfriend was quite jealous about the news of my closeness to the Word at that time. In fact, I have no more relationship, only then did I have time to put more feelings for him.

After the news of Firman dating, I was aware that I never gave it up first. Some complaints that I want to convey are also not conveyed. Some of my misses paid off by seeing happiness even if it wasn't with me or Ardian anymore.

It's been a few months the Word has not been forthcoming, I really miss. The feeling of my wounds had also dried up, I was already sincere. Anyway I want the three of us back together despite having to cut back some time.

Of course this situation also makes the Word never know how the pain I feel because of the bullying.

Last night the Word asked the news.

'An, are you doing well?' because I don't want to make him fret I think I didn't tell him what happened, anyway so far that I'm a long story.

'Okay Fir, ' I answered briefly but happily a lot.

'Say Ardian you why² ? Don't want to tell me the same?'

'There's nothing to say, I'm good.'

'Why don't they ever be with them again?' Ask the Word who turned out to feel the change in me and their friends my friend

'Rarely, I prefer to be alone now.'

'What reason should make me angry?'

'Now I'm rarely with you and Ardian'

'You also have the right to enjoy your own happiness.' My answer is more about reality.

'An, you said deeply'

'Fir, which will be there for you if you break it is a friend. If now you just stay away from your friends, not guarantee that later your friends will be there when you need Fir, Reciprocity. If you still stay with your friends when happy or sad, your friends will be too. They will always be there when you are sad or happy' Finally unek that is in my heart and mind I have to express, whether this will be so painful when the Word reads it or not, but the attitude of the Word I must immediately awaken.

'Sorry An' Reply, I'm sure he's now starting to think.

'There's nothing to be sorry about, I just want you to be aware'

'I want us to be friends with An, but what? The goddess was jealous when she saw that I was still in communication with you. I want to take care of her feelings An, but in fact I myself killed my feelings, I am not comfortable at all. And I hurt your feelings.' Obviously him.

'I know you've known him for a long time, I'm gapapa. You have to keep your relationship with him, you are good. I gapapa, do not worry' Gor why I shed tears, maybe from my deepest heart I have not been willing to release the Word completely.

Since the chat, several times I met with the Word on the road, there was awkwardness when we passed each other. Like saying hello but hesitating. I have also pretended several times not to see him when he was not aware of my presence nearby or a location with him.

What I felt from the chat that night was a relief, I felt happy because the Word wanted to explain even if not from the beginning. But on the other hand I am still disappointed with his attitude that I consider mature turns out not to be for now in the world of romance.

Some time ago also I often heard the news if the Word and his lover often have problems, I think maybe because of differences of opinion or how and it can still be corrected I think. But in the end, at different times I heard that the Word and her lover chose to end their relationship.

What made me feel sad at that time was the news circulating me as one of the causes they finally broke up. Hey, I realized that maybe my presence was very disturbing for the love of the Word back then. But how, can a friend not exchange news? Ohh, probably because the lover of the Word was burning with jealous fire.

I then decided to search through them directly, even I was not shy to ask if the problem of them breaking up was me and they both compactly replied "Yes, yes, one of them is because of you. But not only that, emang of us have a lot of differences and indeed it can not be maintained anymore"

Honestly, I was really disappointed in myself. Although at that time the Word tried to return to me and Ardian', the decision I took was enough to make me alone crowded.

I prefer to keep my distance from the Word, I do not appear much in his life. Maybe I'm really a coward, because I'm a friend who doesn't want to be around when my friend needs support. You should know, I was so then because I was disappointed with myself.

From the beginning this is not the news that I will, although I am waiting for the news that can calm the heart but does not mean about the news of the end of their relationship, what I wanted from the beginning was that the Word remained good friends with me and Ardian' at that time, and the Word was also still good with the Goddess. Although sometimes my request is selfish, in every prayer I hope the Goddess will accept me as a friend of the Word without jealousy.