Pluviophiles

Section 2

The next morning I woke up, opened the Samsung J1ace phone pressing the mobile data button to go back online.

I tried to open some of my social media accounts, somehow it felt like it was pounding. No, not because of a romantic message from someone, but I was anxious when I tried to open my Class Group, I was afraid to read 1000 more messages from my classmate in that Group, he said, because whatever the topic must be one of them will spearhead to also isolate me. Hey, you think just typing the word bullying for someone will have no effect on his or her Psychic state? Obviously it affects friends, not only your babble that makes me collapse but your word as well.

I didn't intend to read their conversation from the beginning, just simply open it and skim the message at the end. I can not afford, I feel unprepared for the morning once must drain energy to withstand sadness and hold back emotions.

Coincidentally when my best friend was also online, he was just different from my school and his age was also one year younger than me. But, somehow I felt relieved and strong when he was on my day. Ardian name, for 1 year I was down at that time, only he made me calm, no matter how much I complained he remained patient understanding and giving advice.

I also never knowingly asked him to never leave me.

I started typing messages for him.

'Udah awake?' I sent her a message

Not long after he read my message and started typing.

'Udah, knp again you?' As if he would understand my situation, he immediately asked me that.

I often wake up at 3 am because it has been the last few months I have never felt restful sleep, especially after the incident in the daytime that is so difficult usually I will have difficulty sleeping and once in a while can fall asleep will very quickly wake up. I felt like I was having an excessive anxiety disorder at the time, every time I want to always monitor social media accounts they are afraid that if they come back to insinuate me through social media, even frankly, they also hurt my heart with harsh words, he said, I'll tell you about it in the next part.

My other anxiety disorder also makes me often rely on a daily zodiac prophecy, usually I open a daily prophecy before leaving school, as a form of care for me to behave how later in school.

'Ar, I'm scared. The longer I get the more lazy school, every day also because the clock rotates slowly. My ears are tired of their talk. Now they have started to diggelunjak Ar, yesterday only when the Indonesian lessons there are fishing to return to discuss me, while I do not know Ar where is certainly my fault. I have to how Ar, I've had a lot of introspection but still they just think I'm always wrong' Honestly at that time I shed tears, there was no hypocrisy in that to be honest I was then starting to get increasingly uncomfortable with their attitude.

About a minute my message was read, and Ardian's second dimenit re-typed something.

'Don't be so, just a few months you have to fight An, after the test you will be free from their babble. Don't be the weak Ana, I don't like it. You are strong An. What was actually discussed during your lesson? It could be your other classmates, do not be too negative thinking An, Not good for your mind' he replied.

I was very aware and sensitive to the direction of their conversation at that time, which happened to be a little connected to the Indonesian Language Learning Materials about the Interinsic Elements of Stories, namely Engagement.

There was a friend of mine who was big, white, he was and was very good friends with me once, but now his mouth has the potential to hurt my heart. He started to fish for one word back then.

"Tukang Ngadu Bu, can be Bu made as the nature of the character in the story" he said at the time.

"Hahaha, Exactly Doi dong. Hardcore, fierce, hardcore Haha, that's Temen Lo"

How could I not understand that what they were talking about was me, he just said the word Doi which is clearly clear it is my name when they are talking about me.

I did hear from someone if the reason they were angry or away from me was because at that time I was the chairman of OSIS at my school. They say my leadership is too firm, they say I am also fierce, I am also in the say ngadu to the sausage builder. though my intention is to shering to the manager of OSIS for asking for advice to him how should I reprimand my members who like to joke if it is being held a meeting and open opinions for my members. what's wrong with me saying and asking the OSIS builder for advice? I think it's natural.

In addition, I was also said to be a coachman, because in the classroom often scolded my friends who like to joke and stories when the teacher was delivering material. I understand that they want to joke, but it is appropriate that the teacher has reprimanded still joking. There should be a sense of awareness, and I as a friend remind to be quiet for a while because the teacher is giving material.

It turns out that all this time my good intentions are considered them as someone who is fierce, likes to organize and ngadu. It turns out that I was considered a lot wrong in their eyes.

It didn't feel right at that time, but it's true Ardian said. I have to try, soon I will be Exam, soon I will be off the bars. I want to take the pain away, away from them.

'You don't know Ar, I understand very well that it's me they mean' I replied after reading a long message from Ardian.

Incidentally when around 3.30 WIB began to drizzle, not potentially rain but very long term.

I hung up my phone, calmed down.

I play the song and listen through the Earphone I connect to my phone, I deliberately play the song with a small volume of the song, because I might be able to miss the soothing drizzle sound.

My tears began to fall, My mind was tormented. I felt scared, lazy and insecure.

My tears were running down my cheeks, then I came to my senses and started to motivate myself.

I must be strong, soon to be over, I will live far away from them, I do not want one more school with them. Therefore I have to fight to get good grades, I want to go back to school to Salatiga my father's hometown and is a place to live as well as I had studied there while in Elementary.

"Germist is very good, I want to cry. I also have to be like them, who fell many times but they never did not like it, even he still always existed in a position of hated and liked. Drizzle never hates those who curse with its presence, for Drizzle intends to give life to mankind despite being unappreciated and unappreciated" My inner self.

• Don't fall down for too long, you need to get up before people step on you again because they are considered weak, even if you have to pass Lika the twists of life in this mortal world.