PASSPHRASE

A HEART THAT CANNOT BE GUESSED

After a while we regrouped in the middle of the field.prepare for the closing ceremony ospek. after making preparations and rehearsal ceremony closing we all rest briefly on the sidelines..

Mba Amel approached me and took me back..

“Nih...” He gave me a tea box..

I took it and drank it, I wonder why from the first day until the last day mba Amel always gave me tea box..

“I know you must be confused, why I always love you tea box.” he said as if I know what I think. I was silent while enjoying tea box..

“Alan who tells you your habit of drinking tea. said you can go crazy if you do not drink tea.so I bring it to you.” I am still silent and do not answer..

now. because in my head it's just him, he's next to me. Who thinks of me as a common friend…

“Why did you cry earlier.?” tanyaku..

“Hem.. You know?” he answered while looking at me

“I'm a man mba..my feelings are also sensitive.” I reverse his words..

He looked at me with a smile..

“Alan just shot me.?” said Amel slowly while looking at me from the side..

“Good dong..so mba and alan ga singles again.” I replied with a smile. it was inversely proportional to my heart. It felt like my heart was being robbed by all the security committee, continued to be trampled and slashed..

“But I have not received him pur. there is something that stuck in my heart.” he said rather doubtfully..

“Why? want to find a better one?” I told him I made as good as I could…

“The message, like I'm a matre girl and picker yes.?” he also stood up and left me confused by the answer.why he did not dispute it…

The atmosphere in the main field during the closing ceremony

“Welcome to new students 19xx members, welcome to join our beloved engineering campus.”, sir, the rector closed his speech, greeted with a round of applause…

“STUDENT LIFE.”

“STUDENT LIFE.”

“STUDENT LIFE.”

Shouted everyone on the field while clenching their left hand into the air…

The ospek campus event has ended, and this afternoon began a familiarity evening event..

All groups performed in front of the magnificent stage that had been prepared by the committee.one by one the group had performed the show.the turn of my group was called.I also took the stage, my friends also shouted to give me spirit..

I take the acoustic guitar that has been provided. I stand while looking around. all the maba in a sitting condition and look on the stage, I also see mba Amel standing in the corner of the building with alan..

“Good afternoon to kanda and yunda.”.

“Good afternoon to friends generation 19xx beloved engineering campus”

“Good afternoon to you who made me miss” (copas yuda words.) I saw youa scolding me. cuukkk…

First song

“don't close yourself – stinky”

Guitar and…..

Prookkk.prock.

All maba clapped

Again.again.

They scream together..

Mba fell down after I finished the first song..

Second song

“Tell me what it tastes like, even though it's usually bitter. Don't get harbored, put the soul of” said I quote bang iwan false

Prookkk.prock.

I picked up my guitar again..

Wwwoo…

Prookkk.prock.

Guilty buddy.. Like the waves in the ocean

Must be your heart's relief.. Do not hesitate anymore.

Back friends raised both hands and shook right and left

Guilty buddy.. Like the waves in the ocean

Must be your heart's relief.. Do not hesitate anymore.

This time the ratih came to me with flowers, and I took them. And I slipped them in the front pocket of the alma mater I used, I compared them to the flowers of the lia..

Silence is gold.. What is clear is silence..

Shut up if you like.. But reality must be stated.

Justsaytheword.. What does it feel..

Don't keep.. Don't harbour.

..Justsaytheword.. Everything that feels..

Prosec.prookkk..

Friends applauded very lively after I ended my song.I see mba Amel still standing in the same place by himself..

I end this song by bowing my head and my body to my friends and straightening my body back up..

“Love is a feeling controlled by the heart. Even though the mind revolts, it will not be able to destroy the love.” I said quoting an article inspired by the song bang iwan false… I went straight off the stage and came back to hear a loud applause from my friends…

I was so relieved to get off the stage. After bringing out what was on my mind through the song bang iwan and stinky earlier. I walked up to my group friends..

“Assu..” one word that greeted me from the solar, she immediately hugged me..

“Cuukkk.. You use the event to hug again. later we are counted hom-hom couple again.. hahaha” said I who returned my best friend's embrace…

“Biadab.. pay royalty.. You use my words earlier.” suddenly yuda hugged me alternately with solar..

“Bags you pojangga.” the first word that came out of aldo who followed me..

“Hahaha.” we also have a dream together…

I joined my friends too..

“Ratih.. thank you for the flowers.the flowers are beautiful as kayak that love” said I membal ratih..

“Keep that one more flower.?” said me..

“Ya beautiful too.. rich who loves…? ”my answer while looking at the flowers given lia and ratih..

“Dasar pujangga bastard..” said ratih while smiling wryly..

Suddenly the amel came to me. And he took me a little bit away from the backstage in a rather quiet place..

“I received alan..” he opened the talk with a flat face..

“Congratulations yes.” my words are short, not as short as my feelings are suddenly like being hit by a row of abu wedus loose from the top of mount Merapi that rolls who is in front of him… but still I show a cool and relaxed face..

“Why password.. why.?” suddenly he called me a password, usually a pur..

“Why what is mba.?” answer hence..

“I know the song you were referring to me. yes.” he asked me..

“Ngga mba.. emang here mba aja ‘female..’ ” says.. I deliberately affirm the word woman.... and look elsewhere..

“Indeed your bastard san..when you say look me in the eye do not the other.” he said firmly..

“Emang Only this yes who want to be desired..?” I said that made him even more angry..

“Not ‘Cuma’ is only.. but there is more.. You answer my question first.. the song made me right..? and the closing words are for me too, right.?” Ask amel firmly..

“Have not been discussed.we are spacious yo.” I said to him, I turned around. before I stepped mba amel holding my hand..

“We will not go anywhere before everything is clear and finished.see me san...” said mba amel.. if this is how I can't refuse.I can't see women crying, especially because I cry..

 

“Ya Lord.. help me.. get me out of this problem.”

“Bedebah... again if there is a problem you call God.” said someone who always interfered if I mention the name of God..

“If you're just complicated my problem.just go before I find you I keep pissing on you..”.

“Your scoundrel. ga da his manners by the way. solve your problems without making trouble for others.”tap that person..

I remember these words that my father said to bowo when my father killed his father..

“Woi... ready to give you.” but no more answers…

“Mba.. mba amelkan already made the same alan.. better mba focus with alan. she is very dear to you mba..”.

“If this problem is not finished now, I will decide alan after this.” threaten mba amel..

“Mba this one wants.?” I looked into his eyes and somewhat hardened my voice….

“I want you to be honest answer my question earlier.I am a woman san. and my feelings are sensitive.” he replied.

“Say can not use feeling.how the hell this mba.” said I was annoyed.

It is precisely you who begin to use feelings.start the way to look at you.your attitude.the songs you sing to me and the closing words earlier.. I beg you. I want all this to be done and we are friends. But you must be honest first.” said mba Amel..

Bastardannn.. why is it more complicated this way anyway.if it has become the same alan ya already. ga need to get close to me to ask for affirmation of my feelings.. use the crying event again..

“Oke.. okay. if you want it mel...” I also call his name without any frills mba that makes him surprised..

“I love you amelia princess.and my love doesn't need your recognition.”.

“Let me alone with my feelings.live your relationship with alan. because you have accepted and chosen him..don't play his feelings.”.

“I have chosen to love you and I am ready with all the risks.including losing you.”.

“Street our own choices. because what we have chosen is the one that is accounted for..”.

“After this you want to be friends or not with me.. T E R S E R A H. I don't want to make you and I don't want you to force..” I said slowly and firmly…

Suddenly he hugged me and cried. cuukkk this moment that most irritated me. if he is my girlfriend anyway I am happy.lah this.he just became the same as my college friends on the mountain semeru.. fuck.bangsat..

“Mel.. pliss don't do this.” frankly I was confused by her attitude suddenly hugging me and crying..

“Please do not force me to take off my arms san. I just want to hug you for the last time..” he spoke while crying as he pleased while hugging me…

Cuukk I am confused by all this. I do not know what to do with the woman who hugged me while crying. I finally just return his embrace.. he also tightened his arms..

“Never stay in me san. even though I've been dating alan.”

Cuukkk.. scumbag he said like this. It's good to see the people we care about, dating other people.Tai cat is with all that, the important thing is that you are happy, I am also happy, even if we are not together.it is close to me by the way, I want to open his face..

“Easy mel... You must be happy with alan. if you are happy I am also happy.” said I calm him. while hugging and stroking his hair..

I also kissed softly mba amel and released his embrace..

“Thank you san..” said mba amel that I saw was rather calm on her face, not so tight…

“Just relax mel..” reply

“Mel..mel..mal..mel... I'm older than you.” mba amel started joking with me..

“Iya.. relax aja bu..” replied me origin

“Ba..bu..ba..bu... I tuh seniormu..” he said glaring…

I swear. if this is the expression, beautiful added.I do not lie.seriously, but free too. although beautiful she is not mine..

“Iya. yes.. mba. spaciousness yo.. ga tasty like others. we have long ago loh here.” take me to mba amel..

Amel brought his face closer..

Cuuppp..

He kissed me right on my lips and then turned and walked ahead of me. He suddenly turned around again..

“If I want to have fun, want you ‘main’ again with me..” he said. and walked away from me who was dumb..

#Cuukkk heart is unpredictable.