Pandora Jupiter

Determined Shackles

Dead yes, am I dead?, not thought by me at first. Is that why I'm here, what exactly is this place?. Dark black like the image of being in space. Beautiful starry sky. The reflection of the beauty of the sky was also reflected by the puddles as high as the eyes. Pieces of broken glass, various broken clocks lying everywhere.

“You are not dead.your time is still tick”.

“Tik.. yes. tick.. tok...”.

“Then, what happened to me?” Being in a foreign place like this. What other conclusions can I think of. The dreams? Yes, this might be a dream. That's why I can't feel anything. Despite having full consciousness, yet being able to wander in an imaginary world. Isn't there something called a lucid dream, if not wrong there is even the possibility of various senses functioning there even though I have never experienced it before, it seems.

“So, dream huh? If you don't think so is the problem. Illusions are okay too. All that is not very important”.

Again he answered what I was thinking. The supernatural ability to read my mind. If he's not an esper, doesn't that mean because we are indeed the same person in the same dream or he's a projection created from my subconscious. Even if this isn't a dream. Then what's happening right now. The mirage? It is true that this place is like a vast field, but the optical illusion only causes the non-existent to exist. But someone who looks like me right in front of each other exchanging chatter since earlier could not be part of the illusion. Why did he even answer as if none of those two possibilities were true.

“Didn't you think that time was boring? Without life he is very boring.you should also be so before your ancestors were born in the form of living beings. Even after being creatures too many of them are boring”.

“What exactly do you want to say?”.

I don't understand what his purpose was. Asking something is like a puzzle. My ancestors? Shouldn't I have been born a living being? Thenwhat? I'm what is this? I'm Jupi.

“Iya. Jupis. A creature born from a brown dwarf. A failed star that is not even capable of fusing. But even so he still had a ray within him. Hope because it is aware of how fragile the self is. Recognizing weakness in the flesh. Strong desire from the bottom of the heart. Brown dwarfs ask for justice to live as a creature, giving it a humanoid form similar to humans who live on earth”.

“Earth? Human?”.

I don't really understand what he means, but yes, I'm one of the jupi races. Why I just remembered it. Part of my memory is slowly unfolding. The existence of brown dwarfs inhabiting the planet jupiter with a primary goal of maintaining the jupiter cycle.

“Those who are able to meet the peak of desire. His soul will live eternally in happiness. His body will fuse into a part of Jupiter giving his penchant as a miracle. But those who are unable will be thrown into the endless void. Jupiter” ring.

He said while looking up, and I followed him. Curious about what he saw. What I saw I couldn't believe. My legs were limp until my whole body was shaking. Jupiter was right in front of me, this close. There was dust surrounding it resembling a ring. But what makes me creepy is the emptiness that gets stronger when I see it. It was as if hearing the screams of billions of people in the void. A regret that means nothing.

“Fulfill your peak of desire. Shine brightly. Happy yourself”.

“Even with such a simple task. Why can't they finish it. Even if it was for his own sake, wasting the time he was given. Life without courage to reach the peak of desire, boring daily”.

I can't argue with him. Gnashing weakly under the lips because of the irritated feeling that made my throat dry, like swallowing tears in the form of inner sadness and can not just disappear. But because he underestimated it was something I couldn't take for granted. Not everyone can achieve happiness that easily. Those who suffer. Those who have lost something valuable. Even though all the bad things happened to him. Do you keep thinking about telling him to find happiness, how selfish it is in the nonsense of words. Not everyone wants happiness. Can not meet, because we are weak inevitably everything becomes heavy. A simple task? Who you say high seems to have power over the world. You who know nothing, will each feel from every person. Ordered something that you are trivial should be able to show it, where to achieve that simple happiness. How-to. Tell me!!!.

My emotions are overflowing in my own mind. The gaze glared sharply and both hands clenched as tightly as it. Maybe right now my face is showing an expression of anger that cannot be hidden. Just keeping him in mind will also keep him knowing because he is able to read my mind makes me feel guilty for venting all that to him.

Ja. Think on. I know it's definitely gonna be. All I did was find excuses for despair, I admit. It doesn't mean there's no solution. On the contrary, I always hope that what will be fought for will not end in vain, a sense of awareness of it is an endless fear. Because they want to believe, the doubt arises because they expect the truth to be believed, how much evidence is given or encouragement if they do not have free determination. All you have to do is do what needs to be done, keep unsettling, then try to reach out. Happiness is always there.

Why was I angry? Of sympathy? A iba? Or a form of self-pity because maybe I am one of those people whose lives continue to feel pain? Am I suffering? Am I not happy? I don't know.

“Why did I say that time was boring”.he started asking again. Returns the topic to its path, then it answers itself.

“Because no different with illusion”.

The illusion? sometimes I think so, too, reality and dreams. What makes these two things so different is the time when you feel pleasure. The moment when we feel sadness. Memories of the past that are irreplaceable. Chit-chatter laugh. A peaceful day. Everything that is learned. It can disappear in the future. Just like waking up from a dream, it's just that in a longer duration. In reality though the memories may be lost can not be remembered at all. Even now I feel that. I feel like there's something very meaningful that I've forgotten. Memories that warm the heart. What is that? Unknowingly a sincere smile graced my face. Grief for no reason made my tears flow.

“As long as you can feel it. then everything is not over”. Saying that she replied with her sweet smile. An expression similar to mine. Subjecting shame I watched him through the reflection of the surface of the water. It seems like I'm starting to understand who he is, his purpose and kindness. As long as you can feel. everything is not over, huh? I more or less understand exactly.

Suffering. Misfortunes. Lonely in the solitude of grief over loss. And the desired happiness. The purpose of staying alive.

“Second chance for you, jupi, for the sake of changing the path of your destiny, you need not suffer any further...”.from the high heavens another woman's resolute voice is heard. Someone I didn't see at first. As if he had been watching me for a long time he floated in the air sitting in a magnificent throne made of ancient symbolic gold and red colored pads also on the back of his chair. Wearing a thin fabric fashion layered. Light silver hair straight and long. Pearl-white skin. Such an incomparable beautiful embodiment blocked the giant moon behind him.

“Lachesis...”. Her name. I don't know why I know who he is.

“Yupikha Siona...” My full name he called out in heavy pitched with a warning message. I felt like I knew what he was going to say right then and there. But I will continue to follow my heart. Nothing will change. How often everything repeats itself. My resolve cannot be broken. That's how I feel.

“…. Stay away Pandora”. Further. “.... because only misfortune awaits you”.

The world collapses at the end of the spoken word. The sky cracked like a mirror that broke into pieces. Falling like a rain stub and then sucked in a puddle. Leave a plain white view from end to end. This floor also experienced the same as the building collapsed. And then fell into the bottomless void. Blank. Hollowly. My body fell, closing my eyes slowly.

Maybe it's a dream. Maybe it's real. Maybe the memory will be erased. But my feelings will not change. Because something so powerful that it imprints won't be able to vanish that easily. It will never!. A riddle that excites. An unbearable desire to uncover it. The greatest mystery of the land of Jupi. Once again my body goosebumps trembling but this time it makes me smile wide involuntarily. Dopamine filled my brain, pumping my heart, speeding up blood flow. This turbulent feeling. My heart beats fast. Palpitates. Delightful. I feel alive. I feel more alive.

During the fall I raised my right hand up to something empty. Something that I currently cannot achieve. The whole finger bloomed in some time then grasped tightly. Fist-shaped. A determination, a determination of heart.

“Pandora Jupiter…

… And uncovering your whole identity”.

“Definitely!”.