Pandora Jupiter

Strong Reason

December 5, 3032, at 01:12, in a small, comfortable house I lay in peace. Doppel has a double meaning, from now on I call it that because of his stature exactly with me also I think he was delivering a message to me. I met him again after witnessing the blurred pieces of memory.

“Save him..”. I don't know who said it and who meant I can't guess, but I'm sure it happened in the past that I can't remember at all. Saving someone, right? Save him from what?

Before Doppel told me about the path I chose here would determine my future. Was it a warning to stay away from Pandora?, I actually felt a sense of indecision within me where I could not move forward beyond this. I just want to give up and enjoy the happy life I have been blessed with in this moment. Part of me thinks so. But living just by depending on others, without being able to do anything, every day just breathing through all this also scares me. So I went after Pandora because I didn't want to.

I woke myself up after feeling better, from the kitchen aunt margareth brought us a plate of cake we had previously cooked together and a glass of warm tea that was still steaming smoke above it.

“Ah, yupi, are you better?”.

“Iya, already”. I smiled widely as if nothing happened so as not to make him worry. He approached sitting next to me and replied “Thank God, if so the cake was eaten ya”.

“Ah bi, can I have a plastic cake, I want to wrap so I can give some of my make to someone”.

“Wait a minute, aunty grab first”.

Taking a heart-shaped cake, I chose to taste my own making.

“Uwaaa, so sweet!! and here is the bittersweet part.” I lost confidence and raised doubts about giving it to others. But this is my first cake, it doesn't really taste so bad. But if juxtaposed is clear which is better even though mixed even clearly visible which makes my aunt and mine amateur. From the shape alone belongs to aunty very neatly formed perfectly.

Aunty brought back a beautiful clear plastic and red ribbon.

“Still bi”. I started to insert each of 4 different-shaped cakes, separated into two plastics.

“To whom do you give it?”.

“Ah, this. To Diane and Kak Mika, like Kak Mika tomorrow will return home”.

“Mika to orphanage?”.

“Iya, since three days ago”.

Sister Mika is my big sister in my mother's orphanage, we are not blood but mother raised her as her child so that I am not alone at home. He is a very reliable brother figure, able to do things well inversely proportional to me.

“I want to see the expression of Kak Mika when I know I also made my first cake, will she be surprised huh? Ehehe so impatient”.

“Iya. Mika must be surprised because it feels this good more than having aunty”.

Aunt tried my remaining cake on the plate.

“No way, having an aunt is no match. Best!!”. I returned the compliment by eating hers. Sometimes someone praises you for being unwell, but a lie like that somehow doesn't upset me too much, I mean because we realize he's well-intentioned not to hurt other people's feelings. What is right and what is wrong is difficult to separate because of its abstract nature. Maybe it is the right thing or maybe wrong is the right thing for it. Even so, there are still ways to avoid such small lies, such as staying silent without saying anything rather than having to force yourself to encourage others with lies, because it feels a little sad I feel, because it feels a little sad, because obviously the lie has been discovered since I ate my own cake. Well actually relatively well anyway, my cake can still eat, it feels quite good because I still follow the directions quite precisely.

“Ah, I want to bi library, give this cake to Diane”.

“Do you, already want to go”.

“Iya”.

“Be careful ya”.

Aunt Marga followed me to the door, I put up my boots and then stood around, looking like she was waving her hand, and I returned the wave with a smile. Fun, I want to always be like this without anything changing to me.

“Haah-this doubt prevents me”.from here I stare at the clock tower. The other way is if I can be like clockwork, continue to walk into the future but the future is always the same every day, really boring but without pain, without fear, without fear, anxiety and anxiety will certainly make you feel relieved without guilt. Isn't that not bad either, because if every day can be fun. Is that not the best way to achieve happiness. Behind the simple daily life, there is no need to be greedy.

“What should I do? If possible I want to continue to enjoy this little happiness, but at the same time I want to reveal the existence of Pandora Jupiter”.

Jupiter is a solid rock that miraculously has high fertility even this place that I am stepping on even if it can be planted with anything, that's because the cycle of Jupiter that depends on the number of populations of jupi who managed to meet the peak of their desires, as long as the well, trees, everything on Jupiter will continue to be eternal. Including the wheat fields I passed through, they were certainly of the highest quality in the past. But the fact is that lately the miracle has gradually decreased and naive to just rely on it, everyone still needs hard work.

Because basically we will all choose to continue to be in the comfort zone for fear of change. Like me, I was afraid not because of myself, but after seeing everyone in this village. What I did was definitely a mistake. It is only natural that a catastrophe should occur and they should all suffer the consequences of my actions. I will never forgive myself. I just wish all that was left to me alone. I want to keep her happy.

“Which way yes, should I take from here?”.

“Straight right of course, or you prefer to turn back”.

“Rio stupid, from sahut aja anyway, but do not know anything”.

“Hah?! I don't want to be called a fool from a confused person choosing the road, even though he stands on the one-way street”.

“That's right.argain isn't because of that!! imbecile! imbecile! stupid!”. because he said no favor, instead I said more to thicken the meaning. But actually my fault too, no need to say swear words that can hurt my heart, I realize I am also stupid. Exactly that curse wants it aimed at myself.

“But um.. well, I admit the literal is actually the same, even though the path is only one way, no one knows what is ahead, but, the fear of stepping will arise because of anxiety about several things that appear one by one, in the end there is a time when someone will give up and decide to turn around.” I say something without explaining what I experienced.

“Then just think of a strong reason to keep going forward, it's just easy is not, for example there are yggdrasil trees that have the magic of growing various fruits there that taste can not be matched, it is not, giant tree trunks, beautiful foliage. Is not a reason that is quite acceptable as a dream to see it with your own eyes, even though you have to step on a foreign country that you have never lived before, you may first be able to go with others, he said, but if reckless yourself is also okay, as long as you also have to prepare everything necessary such as enough money, initial plans, maps and mental self certainly”.

“.…”. I was a bit stunned to hear Rio's opinion. What I'm correcting feels a bit too much I think. Hearing the opinions of others made me aware of it. It is like being in the dark without the slightest light, unable to see and losing its way. But everything is clear when someone opens the door from the outside. Looking for yourself in the dark can indeed be done but there is no harm in also getting help from others, the evidence of having others to achieve something will make this self feel stronger.

“Sorry rio, already called you stupid ..”.

“Oho. Don't we? Actually I'm the most genius person in this village, only I hid it for the reason that the top secret as propaganda veiled”.

“What the fuck with such a cliche setting, if the secret why in pramain kaw”. I laugh amused to hear it

“If it was. well, since I wanted to recruit you, how? Want to rule this world with me? Interesting offer, right? Ah. if you dare to refuse I will shoot you, for example”.

“For example? How not sure. But it's clear, I don't want *bweeh” better die aja hahaha”. I stick his tongue out while pulling my left eye bag with my index finger.

“Whispering. Don't reject it as soon as”.

“.….”. The chat I ended in silence after seeing him blabbering in annoyance without replying to him any further made the atmosphere somewhat awkward.

“Rio..” I call his name in a serious tone nan slow. Realizing that he replied only with the mouth voice of “Ou..”.and a gaze towards me that signified that he would listen to me carefully.

“Still ya”.

“Hah... um.. i-iya equally?”. her expression went from startled to a little embarrassed then a bit confused as not knowing what to reply to.

“Why the answer is even the tone of the question so”.

“H-finished why did you say that?! huh?!”.

“That was before, finding a compelling reason to step forward and prepare the necessary things, I think it helped me a lot. Because of that.. thanks”.

“Why all of a sudden, say thank you so seriously. It even makes me think being called stupid tastes better than Ah!!- lest I am a masochist. Impossible, That's impossible isn't it!”.

“Pppfft hahahaha.yes obviously maso hahaha”.

“Do not laugh!”.

“Sorry-sorry, you end funny haha my stomach until sore”.

He just silently turned his face to the ground.

“then I go yes, dah. bye bye”.

“Ou..”.just by raising half a hand, how to reply to the wave of both my hands which I passionately give right and left.

Maybe it's just my feeling, when he looked up to look at me who went away, it seemed like Rio's face was slightly reddened. I feel a little guilty about accidentally making him feel humiliated. I mean my gratitude is sincere I say, his nature like that is quite sweet I think and sometimes he shows his cool side that can be relied upon as a man, a little anyway. Maybe from the outside he looks like a lazy person who complains about various things. But in fact it can be seen from the wheat he cared for here, so high and beautiful will enter the harvest season, all that is proof of his hard work.

Because he helped me show my way. Of course I realize now that it's ahead there, straight without a turn. Pandora Jupiter I will decide to keep chasing you, just need a push and a good reason for any risk to cover my weakness.

"I've had it for a long time that's a compelling reason...".

"The rest is to prepare what I need so that I can no longer worry, which is my escape if something that doesn't fit my plan happens".

"I know where to get that... Diane Astard's".