Our Love Is Not Over
The Part 40
Edgar drove the twins home with both of them asleep. He immediately brought the twins into their room one by one. After that, he did not go home immediately but spoke first in front of the house with Raisa.
"I've told all my family that I'm going to cancel my marriage."
Hearing that made Raisa surprised because she could not imagine what riot would happen in front of her. He was completely inexhaustible with Edgar who was so easy to make decisions without thinking about the consequences.
"Why did you make such a decision? You want me to be labeled as the third person among you? Even I told Tamara there was nothing to worry about because your marriage will definitely continue. Then if this happens .. haah."
Raisa was speechless, while Edgar, the man focused on what Raisa said about the meeting.
"When did you meet?" ask Edgar.
"A few days ago" answered Raisa. "Why are you so surprised?" raisa asked because she saw Edgar's unusual face.
"I've never shown a picture of you to Tamara. I'm just telling you your name. What does that mean, he once followed me secretly meeting you?" Edgar guessed such a thing made Raisa become even more panicked. Though he did not intend to seize Edgar, but why seem impressed so?
"I don't want to get dragged into your problems. If you can, you don't cancel your wedding plans and Tamara's."
"Ca," call Edgar.
"She, Edgar, Raisa. I have to tell you how many times so you don't call me that."
"Please answer my question honestly. Don't think about Tamara. I want you to answer it without thinking about anyone else. I want you to think of yourself."
"You have gone! I don't want people around to be suspicious."
However, Edgar did not take a single step from there, before getting an answer from Raisa.
"Have you never thought about me even when we were separated?"
"No, my life has been difficult. Why am I thinking of you. Just adding to the burden of my mind."
"Are you sure you don't love me even a little?"
Raisa answered him a little long time ago.
"No, I don't love you anymore."
Edgar smiled faintly.
"Even you doubt your own answer Ca. Please think about the twins. They need us as their parents."
"We can still give affection even separately" replied Raisa.
"But it would be different if we could give it together. Seeing us together and getting along, will make the child mentally good. Don't you want to see the happy twins have intact parents?"
"We're done Edgar. There will never be another continuation."
Raisa confirmed her words.
"It turns out you're still the same. Still stubborn. If our story is finished, that's okay. But, can we continue because of the twins? Do you have the heart to make them have to share when with me and when with you. Isn't being together always better?"
"You better get home, Gar. Your words are getting more and more slurred."
Edgar took his breath. But before leaving, he said a sentence that kept ringing in Raisa's head.
"Our story may be over for you. But I don't think our love will ever end. I can see it from the glare of your eyes. Don't keep lying to yourself, Ca. I'm not giving up on us."
"Mommy should what now? At first Mami wanted you guys to be close to your papi. But why the more you come here, the more papi you want to come back?"
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Two days have passed, Edgar has prepared himself and mentally to meet a visit to Tamara's apartment to tell the truth. The longer the delay, the worse the marriage and Tamara that is getting closer.
Edgar was already inside Tamara's apartment. Their conversation began with Edgar asking about how Tamara could know Raisa's face. Tamara was honest with Edgar.
"I'm sorry, for deliberately hiding it all from you. I'm just not ready to tell you. But because now you know. I can't be quiet anymore, Tam. It feels like my heart will feel more guilty about you."
Edgar sighed before continuing on to the next conversation.
"I know very well that you are a very kind and gentle woman. You are so patient with me like this. Even when I used to ask you to leave, you always stayed by my side, until I finally opened my heart. But I just realized right now, that my true love isn't for you, Tam."
Tamara began to shed her tears, she could already guess the continuation of Edgar's conversation. He hugged Edgar and would not listen to Edgar's explanation.
"We'll get married even if you say your love is not for me. I can make you love me like before you meet Mba Raisa again."
"Tam, you're beautiful, you're famous, you're good, you have so many advantages."
"If you knew that, why would you let me go? You mean you're a fool for letting go of women like me."
Tamara cried while hitting the chest of Edgar's field.
"Yes, I was a fool for letting go of a woman like you. But, I won't regret it."
Tamara's cries broke even more listening to Edgar's words.
"Why don't you just lie? Why do you have to talk so honestly? Why Gar? Wh why? Hu hu." hu."
"I don't want to make you sick to Tam. I'm sorry for hurting your heart. I'm sorry I couldn't continue our marriage. You'll get sicker if our marriage continues. I hope you can accept my decision. I'll tell both of your parents soon. I hope you find a better man than me."
Tamara still sobbed and hit the chest softly Edgar field.
"Can't you just pick me? Why should you choose Mba Raisa?"
"Sorry Tam. I just realized, I love you, not you. All this time I've been looking after you and I haven't ruined your honor, maybe because you're not sure of my own feelings. The point is, you've been considered the person I love."
"Hu Hu, but I don't want Gar. I want to be loved by you."
"You will find someone who loves you."
"Evil! You're evil, Gar!"
Again and again Edgar was beaten by Tamara. Edgar let it go. Because the pain of Tamara is not comparable to the blow he received from Tamara. He felt guilty for Tamara.
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