Obey Without But

Chapter 29 #God is testing you

Kiyai Hasan house is filled with people who will pray for martyrdom. From front to end everything is full without exception, santri who was in the cottage also prayed for martyrdom. Because Kiyai Hasan is also famous kiyai in some points of the city, mourning speech from all directions to the page kiyai Hasan.

Zhafira came with his extended family, many who joined them also wanted to pray for martyrdom.no one did not look at Zhafira would-be wife Shahdan, many who joined his heart when he saw Zhafira. The eyes are clearly still on her extended family, Zhafira was the same still her eyes.although Zhafira did not love Shahdan but because she was her future husband, the heart was also sad.

" kid Zhafira eat first ya." pinta bibik from shahdan kiyai Hasan's sister.

" yes, Zhafira is not hungry yet."

" shahdan will be sad if you see you sad like this, eat ya Zhafira.". Zhafira still shook his head, indeed since last afternoon he did not eat at all. it was difficult to swallow and even swallow his own saliva he felt difficulty. Many hearts must be guarded, Abi and Umi, kiyai hasan and nyai are also all shahdan families.

" Zhafira had not eaten nyai since then". nyai took a plate in the hands of aunty arifah.

" kid everyone sad without exception, even Umi more lost than others, but we should not be like this, son, our lives will not stop here just because of the loss of Shahdan. shahdan is calm there son he met His Rabb, he will be sad if he sees you sad and do not want to eat. eat ya shahand will be happy if you see happy, happy, not to forget Shahdan son not. But your life must go on, God is not your soul mate and vice versa. God may not deserve you any more deserving of an angel like you son". Zhafira then clasped his hands he shook his head.

" not Umi, Zhafira who does not deserve to be a martyr, but the angel of heaven is worthy of ustadz shahand so God picked him up first for the angel who waits for ustadz martyr in heaven." umi shed tears, Zhafira her heart was soft.

" umi beg you to eat yes son". finally out of pity with nyai Zhafira escaped a bribe from the hands of umi.

Joint prayers were held to pray for the martyrs who have passed away, not only two families who are sad.even residents of boarding schools and madrasas where martyrdom teaches.

That night Fatih felt unsettled, I don't know because of what.may think of Zhafira who is now the wife of people. Fatih did not know the reality that actually happened but his feelings were not calm he was restless. Next week he will leave for LN to receive a scholarship he has been able to get with Azka and some of her friends.

Fatih came out to the kitchen he was looking for a drink, his throat felt dry since earlier he was also difficult to sleep. Fatih was then on the balcony he looked up at the sky, that was what he always did if he missed Zhafira.

" astaghfirullah why am I doing this again, Zhafira already belongs to someone now I have to move on." Fatih then went inside . still the same he was difficult to shut down, just roll to the right and to the left. he then rose to the bathroom to take ablution.

" o Allah remove it from my mind, Zhafira already belongs to others I should not think of it anymore. Remove it from my mind, O God remove it that has been embedded from this mind". Fatih prayed before she tried to close her eyes again.

Zhafira with his family returned home there is no way he will stay there because the house kiyai Hasan full of his extended family. Should today he take the martyr to marry but no, no, they ushered in Shahdan at his final rest.

Anisa did not come home she will accompany Zhafira, Anisa did not have the heart to see Zhafira still looks damp. Zhafira came out in the face of the same sky, he looked bright but not as bright as his heart.

" why hasn't Zhafira slept yet" asked Billy as he approached Zhafira when he found out Zhafira was outside.

" can't sleep yet." Billy rubbed Zhafira's head he could not bear to see his nephew.

" God is testing you Zhafira, ahead there must be happiness waiting for you.You must believe Zhafira, all the will of our creator is not the power of Zhafira ". Zhafira nodded he looked back at the sky.

" you are waiting for someone ".

" no om, Zhafira already will not wait for him but Zhafira is happy to look at the sky. maybe he is not Zhafira's soul mate."

" does he not know how you are right now" Zhafira shook her head.

" where is his house ". Zhafira.

" so you don't know either." Zhafira.

" you still love him ". Zhafira was silent again.

" your silence shows if you still love her Zhafira ". Zhafira looked down and she shed tears.Om Billy rubbed his head.

" the soul mate must meet wherever you are, surrender to Allah Zhafira. continue to pray if indeed he is your soul mate you will definitely meet. martyr and will be happy if you are also happy, if you are also happy, do not feel guilty if you accept others in your life.This is the destiny that God has set for you." om Billy accompanied Zhafira until late.

" o Billy there are also members of the same TNI as you, every night he looked at the sky. his good son he was also smart never strange in comparison with others. you will definitely be suitable if you meet, one handsome one beautiful ". om Billy laughs considering Fatih who never absent looking at the sky even in cloudy weather.

" may he also be met with his loved ones, unlike Zhafira who must meander to find love Zhafira even when it is on the edge of the end of the shah and Allah picked it up ".

" don't regret everything that has happened Zhafira, all of it at His will. If we can ask maybe we will continue to ask for happiness. but if God does not test with sadness we will not be able to feel how happy it is. om Billy the day after tomorrow will leave you must be well at home, don't tell me you feel bad about Abi but if you feel you don't love someone who tells you you have to dare to tell Abi yes, life at the base of love will feel good. remove your sadness yes ."

" thank you for always advising Zhafira, Billy will be long in the line."

" no om Billy has become a superior and om Billy his work just train the new TNI is no longer like it used to have to travel around the world".

their conversation was over, with so much advice that Billy said, then Billy invited Zhafira to come in because it was very late.

seriate...