Not Duda

Guilt

In the room now Cia and Fia lay on the bed. Feli looked at the husband who gently rubbed his son's head. Bagas also realized that he was being noticed by his wife.

“They're asleep. Can we talk to you for a minute?” ask the man after standing up straight.

Doubtful Feli nodded slowly. Both of them sat on the sofa in the room. For a moment Bagas arranged what words he had to say for the first time. The longing that had been mounting all this time was even so difficult for him to overflow. Because there was something still in his heart.

“Am I still not in your memory?” tanyakanya.

Feli clearly nodded straight away. Who the man in front of him was still unable to remember.

“Sorry if I can't remember.” said Feli in the end feeling unwell.

How could he forget the man who became his true love to give birth to two twins so beautiful. The large photo display in their room clearly Feli saw how he became the happiest bride smiling broadly with the husband peeping his cheeks.

“That's our wedding photo. There I swear to be faithful to you at any time. Everything I promised was still awake to this day. A year I lived alone raising Fia and Cia. How about you?” the question was immediately spoken by Bagas.

At least it is the most fitting word for him to ask the wife who had become the wife of another man.

Hearing him Feli bowed, there was a feeling of guilt inside him at this moment. Taking care of two children at once is not easy.

“Sorry. I did it because I felt indebted. And.. I don't know where to go other than to come with Krisna.” said Feli who honestly.

Bagas glazed over the wife's confession. It felt like the world was so difficult to show his wife's whereabouts all along. Even he had searched here and there but he could not find it.

Bagas heaved a sigh of relief after hearing the wife's words. Finally without asking, he had heard the answer he had been asking.

“Sorry, I have doubted you.” he said only then Bagas approached Feli.

Slowly he sat down beside his wife then he hugged Feli's body tightly.

“Thanks for keeping it.” he whispered softly.

Unfortunately, Feli never returned the hug. The bagas in his eyes was still so foreign. All the truths he saw had not been able to restore the love that was hindered by that memory.

“Cia crying.” The husband's embrace was released just like that when Bagas heard one of his children crying.

Feli who also approached the child did not know what to do. She saw the movement of her husband's hands that were very agile to replace the diapers of the child after cleaning the dirt of the beautiful child.

“Sleep again dear papah. Still sleepy, right?” ujae Bagas full of softness.

His body was laid beside the child's body. Next to his hand was patting the little boy's crazy ass. Slowly, Cia's eyes closed again.

Feli looked clumsy looking at all the activities in his room. The guilt increasingly appears as a mother even she did not contribute in caring for her children.