Naughty Child

Enough

VIRA NARRATIVE

I'm graduating now. And I went to college majoring in secretary D2. I want to work fast. Not going to college for long. I've started to forget about Faiz a little. Even so, if only he was in front of me I would have embraced him, because my love for him was still great. And the memory of him will remain with me. 

The problem now is Pandu. She still thinks of me as her lover. I feel sorry to see her get my fake smile, fake love. All phony. Perhaps of all people he is the most to be pitied. I don't love him, the pain he's been in, it's all bad for him. Today as usual, I pushed his wheelchair since he couldn't walk for more than a year. Every afternoon I push him, take him for a walk. It can make Pandu a little treated. True said my people are the life of Pandu. That's why I can't leave him.

"How are you today?" I asked while pushing it.

"For. Faiz is no longer home" replied Pandu.

"Lho's? Wh why? Where's where?" I just found out.

"It's a long story, but I better not tell it. He was involved in a dispute with our family. And, he no longer wants to stay at home."

"Trus?"

"Well, I was alone with my father, Mother, Icha and Rendi. Bonuses of helpers and security."

"Where is Faiz now?"

"I don't know, he's not telling me. Cellphone thrown. He's changed his number, so I can't call him."

I'm musing. Why did Faiz get to be like that? What makes it like that? I've never seen Faiz this angry with his family.

"Not to worry about Faiz, he can take care of himself. There is Iskha. You don't have to worry."

I'm worried Pandu. He's with Iskha. He must have forgotten me by now. Faiz, has he forgotten me? I remember how her lips felt. That first kiss I will never forget. Again, I remember him. I just smile so Pandu can't read my mind. 

"Stop a minute Vir, I want to say something," Pandu said.

"Yes?" I stopped pushing the wheelchair. 

"I want to get enough of myself today" he said.

"meaning?"

"I'm actually very guilty of you, of Faiz, of you both."

What does Pandu mean?

"But I want you not to leave me. Please, even if you don't love me but don't walk away from me."

"What the hell? I'll stay here I'll sneak...."

"Already! Don't say love to me. Enough's enough! I know everything. Actually what you guys are talking about outside the UKS room I heard it all. All these touches, all your attention, these are not love. But pity. I don't need that feeling, Vir, I don't need pity. If you love Faiz, just say it. I won't be angry because it's your choice. I know Faiz gave up so you could be with me. But it's the same as lying to your feelings. I can't Vira, I can't accept your pity and pity."

I was shocked because Pandu knew everything. I can't say anything more. I threw my face the other way. Suddenly my eyes glazed over. 

"I know how you feel, I'm sorry. No need to show your love to you anymore. Because I know it's all fake. Promise me to be with you until the end of my life. I don't know when this disease will eat away at me. I've already resigned Vir. I'm resigned to my life. No more Faiz at home. We always played together, loved each other but now there is no more. You're the one who kept me alive. Viras..."

I was directly in front of Pandu. I kissed her lips too. I can't hear him talk anymore. It was all his feelings all along. He felt sorry for me, he apologized to me. If he had been honest before, maybe Faiz and I would have stayed together until now. I'm giving her my kiss now. After giving it I bowed.

"What did that do?" ask Pandu.

"Suppose it's a gift from me" I replied. "I loved Faiz a long time ago. But I promised to take care of you. I'll take care of you because it's my promise to Faiz."

"Vira...hiks...!" Pandu suddenly cried. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done this. I shouldn't have taken this chance. You and Faiz should be together. If only I had done this, he wouldn't be leaving now."

Pandu cried and hugged me. There was a deep regret for him. Pandu, I promise to take care of you until the end. For the sake of my promise to Faiz. For the sake of my promise to the one I love.

****

ISKHA NARRATION

I was accidentally in this park. And I accidentally met Vira and Pandu. Their words, their talk. Directly touched. They didn't know I was behind a tree. Very close to them. Vira still loves Faiz. No, I can't give up. I'll fight for Mas Faiz. She's mine now. Vira can't take it from me. But..Will Mas Faiz survive with me, while Vira is his first love?

After they left, I went home soon. 

My next days were a little moody. Of course, the conversation of Mrs Vira and Mas Pandu yesterday made me upset. It is true that if for example Faiz did not give up, he would not meet me. He won't be able to leave the house. And none of this needs to happen. 

I was actually going to the cafe that afternoon. But it was picked up by Mas Faiz. I'm waiting outside. Raining down. Wow, the rain address, I thought. I also prepared a rain coat, soon Mas Faiz will come. But there's a black sedan that just pulled up and parked out there. I frowned. Who her?

The driver got out of the car with a large black umbrella. Then he opened the back door of the car. I'm appalled. This man is Mr. Hendrajaya. He wears sunglasses wearing a blue shirt, a gray tie and a black suit. He walked towards our house. Seeing me in the foyer, he came in immediately. The opening of the fence and his men were hassles trying to keep his boss from being exposed to rain with his umbrella. 

"Sore?!" sapana.

I stammered, "Sss.soor..pak."

Why did Mas Faiz's father come to see me? He immediately took shelter inside the terrace. 

"Sss.please sit...pp..pak!" I said.

"Thank you" he said. He immediately took a seat.

"You mm...drink what?" my many.

"No need to bother, I just want to talk" he replied.

I also sit down. Meanwhile I observed his men still standing by while standing by carrying an umbrella. I was awkward myself, but this is my home. Not usually people as rich as him come to my house like this. 

"I apologize deeply, to you and to your entire family. What my daughter did was stupid. Forgive us!" mr. Hendrajaya bowed respectfully.

"I've forgiven koq sir. Really, I've forgiven you" I said.

"But sir, I can't do it either" I said.

"I know, it's very difficult. Faiz is so when he's angry. He can't think straight. But I always think positive, he can be a good boy by knowing you. I can see it now. But please persuade him to go home" he said. 

I'm pensive now. I don't know what to say. Persuading Mas Faiz to go home was heavy.

"Iskha, if you don't mind doing it. I'm Doni Hendrajaya never begged anyone else. This time I begged."

"I'll do my best, sir, but I can't promise."

Mr. Hendrajaya took a deep breath. He closed his face, rubbed his face. Then he stood up again. 

"Send my apology to both of your parents. As a parent, I am also ashamed, thank you and.Please watch Faiz, if you hurt him I will not forgive you," he said with a smile. 

I don't know why I smile too. His smile was very sincere. "Yes, Sir. Thank ye. I will try to persuade Mas Faiz to come home."

Again, Mr. Hendrajaya smiled. He then walked away from our house again. The rain was still pouring on him and his men were again busy protecting the master from the rain. I could only see them leaving with his car after that. Mr. Hendrajaya handed Faiz over to me. Ohh.I'm so happy. Before long Faiz came on his bike. He was wearing a rain coat. 

Mas Faiz gave me a warning. I wave my hand. Immediately I put on my rain coat, my guitar also I protect using plastic so as not to get wet. There's a special protector, like a rain coat. After that I immediately went up to the back saddle. We drove on the asphalt after that.

***

VIRA NARRATIVE

Faiz said he worked at Brontoseno Cafe. I wonder how he is now. That night I ventured to meet him. The rain only started to rain when the taxi stopped in front of the cafe. I see not so many visitors either, probably because of the rain. News in the tabloid itself seems to be more about proclaiming the son of the Hendrajaya family as a cafe waiter with the title "PRINCESS CROWN HENDRAJAYA SEPARATED FROM THE KINGDOM: Most likely his love is not condoned by the father". I'm sure he was never interviewed. 

I went out in the rain and went in there. The cafe room is big. I also took a seat near the glass so I could enjoy the view of the rain from far away. Music from local musicians. Oh, that's Iskha he's singing and playing his guitar with his friends. Smart at music, I'm jealous. He's all out. Like a famous musician.

A servant approached me. She ...Faiz???

"Only?" tanyakanya. 

"I.yes," I replied.

"What do you want to drink?" tanyakanya.

"Just be an angel."

"Hmm..select this dong there is a list of the menu right?" 

"Cappucino can."

"Okay, is there more?"

"That's it first."

"Coming in soon."

Faiz walked into the kitchen. There's something different about him. He's more excited. More what yes.hmmm.more like a man. Ah, he is a man. Anyway different. If he used to be spoiled by his family, but now he is trying to be independent. I've never been served by Faiz like this. Hihahi. 

While enjoying the music. I looked at Iskha. He finished one song. When our eyes collide. He nodded at me. I returned his smile. I rarely talk to him. It's never possible. But we love the same people. Is it too late to love Faiz now? It must be too late. 

Faiz came up with a tray containing a cup of cappucino. "Here's the order."

"Thank you" I said. "Can you hold me for a second?"

Faiz sat down in front of me. "Yep? What's up?"

"Have you changed so much?"

"Ah, it's normal. Is there anything important?"

I'm nodding. 

"Tell me!" said.

"I still love you, Faiz," I whispered. I do not want my words to be heard by Iskha and others.

Faiz's face changed. The one who was smiling was now flat. 

"I'm sorry, but I can't keep this. Pandu also knows. What am I supposed to do now?" 

"How did he know?"

"He.he actually heard everything in the UKS.he heard everything..hiks," I suddenly cried. "Faiz. He doesn't even want me to show him my fake love. Faiz...what should I do?"

I can't hold back my tears. Tears fell on the back of my hand. Faiz. I know he's upset right now to hear my words. Does he still love me?

"You still love me? You still love me, don't you?" my many. 

He didn't answer. I can't take it anymore. I too soon moved. I put fifty thousand rupiah on the table and then immediately came out of the cafe. I can no longer endure this sadness. 

"Vir, Vira wait!" get Faiz. I don't care if I get out of the cafe. The rain immediately hit me. 

Faiz. He was behind me trying to grab me and I turned around. 

"Why pursue me? You already have Iskha. My fate is like this. I should love you not him. I should be with you, not him. I just want you with me Faiz. Look, I still fulfill my promise to take care of Pandu. It's all because of you. Go Faiz, accompany Iskha. He's the right man for you. Forgive me for being just a mirage to you" I said.

From behind him, Iskha caught up with Faiz. He didn't want to lose Faiz. But his steps stopped when he saw me. I turned around and cried with rain tonight I walked home. Faiz.....